Conditioning ...

preparing, making ready, receptive.  Some conditioning is brutal training.  I knew a man that trained dogs by beating them viciously.  The poor dogs were as obedient as lambs for him and brutal, foaming at the mouth beasts,  he commanded, lorded over, ruled over,  like a tyrannical god.  If he shouted devour, they mauled and chewed,  without question.

How well I now recognize that conditioning, that training, in myself, in my entire family.  That wasn't smart Martha.  That was the reverse of GOD's plan.  You served satan Martha!  And you knew it!  You fool!  You really believed you were winning with your "dirt throwing".  You could have better used your 87 years studying to IMPROVE YOURSELF,  instead of playing 87 years of lie, cover up, beat up, covertly destroy and suppress.  Hate! Hate GOD's truth! Hate the truth teller! Just hate to hate! Hate while grinning and lying!  Hate while committing the most abominable sins ever!   Hate GOD for forbidding them to YOU!  Hate those who dare to tell of your true wickedness!  Die rotting with hatred!  Die holding onto the manhood of your five sons!  Die laughing, proud of every evil deed you succeeded in!  Die making sure every one in the Walters family hates that snitch that you did deliberately lie on for 62 years!  Die laughing because you did successfully steal her mantel!  Die laughing because there are more dummies that think you are in Heaven,  than don't.

He (The dog trainer)  was proud of himself.  I felt very sorry for his two huge Rottweilers . Sometimes secretly hoped they would turn on him one day.

My poor, simple, ignorant. primitive as a slave,  mother conditioned me, (us).   She was a brutal, vulgar savage, playing dress up when she felt like impressing or scamming.  Was she as clueless as she claimed to be?   Impossible!   She could not have escaped so much retribution for 87 years if she had been as dumb and naive as she claimed.

Martha was a good liar, is what she was.   (Common as bat ****!)  She was cruel!  Cruel beyond any human being's capacity to know.  Pounding that puppy to death as a child, was only the tip of the iceberg.  When I look back on the sick deeds my mother very successfully pulled on me,  I cringe.

Eighty-seven years of being a creep, a viper, something she was too ashamed to face, was punishment enough for Martha.

Eternity is more than a longtime.  It is forever and ever and ever.  Eternity never ends.  It does serve her right to suffer.  Poor Martha would lie with the truth in her favor.   She rotted.  She did the unthinkable.  I can not go down with my family.  Any one that wants to honor that "root working", Jezebel, insanely jealous whore…go right ahead.

Thanks for letting me know that you are just as lost, miserable, blind, foolish, deaf, stiff necked and full of pride as she was.

Martha had Jesus eloquently on the lips, hanging around her neck with a $5000 price tag .  She wore only the finest robes money could buy,  while sitting on a rostrum full of unrepentant sin!  Just rotting! Stinking up the place with brags about 5 abortions, stabbings, stealing, brutalizing.  I see now Martha was selective in her bragging.  She never barraged about raping her small children.  Or pouring hot boiling coffee on a toddler, or pushing me and others into a hot burning stove.  She never bragged about that puppy.  Some evil she would admit to, very little though.  She would broadcast your evil.  She would embellish it.  It would be a million times worse once Mathy got trough hiding behind your mistake.   That is why she could not bow, could not love.  Could only mimic, could only copy and profess her phony love with great pretense.

satan did condition me good, for a very long time.  GOD restored me! February 19, 2012, got baptized in The Potter's House.  The water was really cold.  The heater was broken.  My soul was tired, weary.  I pleaded to GOD; "Help me! No mas!"

It works! Jesus is real.  No wonder my mother always advised me to never get "re-baptized", that sprinkling was enough.

"Bow down satan!"