Hear me and hear me well!

"We didn't come here to stay always"  JR Walters.

I wish I could describe to you how much I truly loved and admired my grandfather.  I truly looked up to him.  I beamed with pride watching him teach Sunday school or speaking on various occasions.  HANDSOME! Tall, righteous, kind, generous, tender,  compassionate and most of all wise.

I should not put his name in the same sentence with my mother's.  He knew, she knew, she could help herself. Mathy flat refused to help herself.   No, she was not ashamed, just angry.  Mad that GOD and this world didn't see "sin" the same way.

Actually it happens quite frequently, people being born without  a conscious, not a hint or morality.  At least now I know why and how she could use the bathroom with door open, talking!

Dear LORD, please heal me.  I didn't know any better, that common whore made me responsible for her dirty menstrual pads!  Dear LORD, I've been thanking you for not afflicting me with Down Syndrome, I think I  thanked you prematurely.  Apparently I was dumber than the village idiot.

GOD, that low stanking whore broke us down, broke me down to dust, power!  I was her scapegoat, I was her bitch!

As a lay psychiatrist I certainly recognize making your daughter clean up something so foul is severe abuse.  I think the only reason she refrained from making me clean up her den of iniquity after fornicating with her many MARRIED  lovers, one night stands, and Johns, when I was twelve was caused by my severe reaction.  I do think I did certainly threaten to tell my grandfather.  USED CONDOMS AND EMCO! BITCH! I WAS TWELVE!

I am researching "blinders". GOD puts blinders on us.  He removes them when we are ready, if ever.

"Gird up your loins."  Put your big draws on,  Man up!  I wonder why Martha always mispronounced that scripture?  "Gird up your lions!"  Mother the word is LOINS, not LIONS! I would laugh.  I didn't know she held my criticism against me.

Why would GOD tell us to gird up our LIONS?  She lived to be 87 mispronouncing that word.  It was hilarious and she was a preacher.

We are in a severe Intellectual Dark Age.  When the likes of Donald Trump and his elk are in charge of this country, good Christians have become absolutely worthless,  chasing that elusive dollar and fame.

Good Christians?  No, fake Christians .. .not as wicked as Martha, but just as fake.

PTL!

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