We must break this curse!

Not only am I suffering under a generational curse, this  whole world is, "Man" is.  Lying and denying can't heal us. We all must "Man Up".  My fellow victims must come forward.  They must stop their suffering, at least the hemorrhaging.

I get it, I sure get it.  That deranged lunatic would not let us so much as complain knowing her damn stanking nasty ass was a pervert!  I'm so glad I told my granddaddy about those hot soapy enemas when I was four.  Sure, she hated me for telling, mocked and crucified me but the enemas stopped.

All people need to do more to protect children. GOD is not happy about the way we mistreat children.  "Suffer the little children to come unto me, forbid them not the Kingdom of Heaven."  When you sexually violate a child they are RUINED! Robbed of their innocence.

No one has the right to do that.  Martha was never that dumb or  that immature. She was that evil, that selfish, that maniacal, but never that stupid.   She was that hardheaded.  Her daddy begged her to stay off of graves.  He taught her better.  She was just WICKED!  Martha chose evil because she was evil.

I keep trying to excuse her, blaming her rape.  I was raped!  The difference , I was raped in secret.  She drugged me, had the decency to get me drunk.  I do think Mathy used me deliberately as bait to get a husband.  Then used me to keep him because she was not about to give up whoring. She knew that damn man she married was a pervert.  The very first thing he did was start molesting me at age five. She had something to do with it. How could she not? A pervert is a pervert!  That is why we call them perverted.  They are not "right".  Something is wrong with them.  Something was wrong with Martha. Her temper was unreal! Who ever heard of woman pure beating the dog shit out of her new husband when caught in fornication?

How many women willingly have sex in the front seat of their car while two of her children  are in the back seat?

How many women will threaten to beat the dog shit out of her children if they ever breathe a word to anyone about her true character? Is that why she held me down in the woods cursing me like a dog when I was THREE?  That is what she said, told me to stay out of her muthafucking business! I was three!

Why wasn't Martha ever arrested for assault and battery? I do think she was arrested for prostitution. I bet if I go through the Archives in Fayetteville I will find her arrest record.

Why was Martha so full of hatred? That was self hatred.  I am sure being raped at age eight caused a great deal of confusion. She was highly sexed.  Her family was quite inhibited.  Granddaddy was too modest to say the word pregnant as an old man.  He thought it a vulgar word, said "in family way" instead.

My mother tried to tell me the community rejected her.  Is that when and how she diverted her attention to witchcraft?  Witchcraft was prevalent in the slave community.  Blacks always used it against fellow slaves, rarely whites.  Look at my mother targeting her own family.  The sixty-five acres of land we lost was hers, ours.  Our failure was her failure.

Who wants the most of nothing?  Who wants to be the "Top of the bottom"? A damn imp, my mother.  A nigger. Niggers are real.  "Look at their fruit!" "Shun the very presence of evil."  Shun all niggers.  Imps, people with evil lying spirits.  Up preaching, unread, unprepared, entertaining, uncommitted, full of evil, jealousy, mischief. "From such stay away."

Any one keeping  the likes of Mathy  a secret is no Christian.  How can anyone know such a woman ever preached, every soiled GOD"s name and never say a word!?

"Come ye out from among them."