but the only secret is the enemy. Rarely can we know the "enemy" without looking at their fruit. My greatest enemy, the greatest nemesis and hinderance to GOD's goodness was my own mother, Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamaureaux! An ABOMINATION! A MONSTROSITY! Deliberately held her entire world, her family, captive, trembling in debilitating fear for 87 YEARS!
GOD said No!
Oh Dear LORD, how can I explain to your dying world, ALL LIVES MATTER? My life mattered. No, it did not matter to my mother. She lived to crucify me! Just me! Sure she did deliberately wound and torture others. But she wanted my life! That imp for satan wanted me to suffer, to pay for her debauchery, her carnal, lustful, repugnant sins.
I am still clawing my own eyes out after witnessing her take on a group of young soldiers in the day room of her boyfriends barracks , when I was nineteen. She purely hated me for complaining, for screaming my disgust when we got back in her Cadillac to leave.
The woman was married to a man much too young for her. Was treating him worse than a quarry slave. Was still having "relations" with her ex-husband, the one she made violate her children! I know now the terrible sexual acts those two buzzards perpetuated against me was for "power". Yes, the dumb slut was told and did believe taking the virginity of young children would give her "power".
Martha Jane Walters volunteered to become something so evil she could not ever be discovered or discussed in life. This whore had to leave here! She must be safely dead in order for us to feel safe enough to count our scars. Read all of II Thessalonians.
GOD said No!
Rather than admit her wrong doing and change, it was more convenient to hate me, to lie on me, to cause every one in the Walters family to carry secret hatred and revulsion for me!
True, I am totally ostracized by nearly every single person in my family. I cry daily because my truth embarrasses them. NOT MARTHA! NOT THE PATHOLOGICAL ROOT WORKING CRUEL SADISTIC PERVERTED PEDOPHILE!
My family agrees that my skin is too black! (But black lives matter) I am too opinionated. I think too much of myself. I am too educated and bookish. I use too many big words.
And the world says ; "Why don't you just shut up! You're a nobody! You're black, you're female, you're old, you AIN'T SHIT!" That is exactly what my mother screamed at me when I graduated from college with honors and my virginity.
JEALOUS! Covetous! Sneaky! Common as any mangey stray dog in heat!
No wonder granddaddy didn't tell me. Too common to be believed!
"Come ye out from among them." Come to the light. Brothers, all five of you, come up out of that early grave your mother sealed you in. Don't you dare remain destroyed! Robbed! Rebuke satan! Rebuke that skank, Mathy Jane.
I won't keep her a secret!
I can't!
PTL!
I press on ...
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