Sometimes you have to wail!

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I mean you have to get down on your knees, humble yourself and wail, WHAAAAUUUULLLLllll! unto the LORD; "Help me Jessssuuuusssssssss! I need You Father! Can't nobody help me, but You!..can you hear my cry LORD!

My "own mother", MY MOTHER WAS A SEXUAL PREDATOR!  She was vile LORD!  She was Low DOWNNNN! No, they don't fall no lower!  Why!? Why LORD!? Why!? Why was my mother living a lie!?

Why did my mother secretly hate ALL men with a passion!?  Savagely raped as a small child during the depression era.  That's it LORD   …granddaddy was trying to help some man down on his luck during the Depression and the sorry low life ****************** ended up raping his precious little girl.

Praise the LORD!  Thus the "conflict",  aggravated that  mother, his wife,  demanded blood, the man's head on a platter.  No one in the community felt this was a time for Rome to be getting religious and turning the other cheek.  "Kill dat black ass *************!"  was all little Mathy Jane ever heard.  Did that dim the light in her eye for her father?  What was this bullshit about 'Thou shat not kill?'

My poor grandfather was tormented, would not or could not face his truth?  It seems I have been forced to face mine, to look it dead in the eye and demand "It" to die!

Rome just chose to not talk about it, to never mention it again.  "It" was there, burned a wedge between him and his wife.  Precocious wicked Mathy Jane did exploit her tragedy to her benefit.  She did become extremely lascivious, did burn with sick hatred against any and every thing good and innocent.  

She did NOT successfully mock GOD.  Not even to her supporters,  that are stuck with the duty of honoring her, of thinking of something good to say about her when pressed.   They know.  They know what we all never wanted to know.  We all wanted to love Mathy.  It is natural to want to love, to forgive.  But Christ Jesus, how long must we let this wretch stab us in the back?  She is using You LORD!  Hollering forgiveness when she is the one secretly seeking revenge! 

 No, … it is not going to happen.  Mathy will never change.  Never be a worth while productive citizen.  She will never be a loving mother , daughter or pastor.  It wasn't in her.  Mathy sold her soul to the devil and the devil convinced her little simple no reading,  fake intellectual ass,  into believing that she was indeed some kind of queen or something to be looked up to. 

Mathy's supporters or would be "Mathys" ,  just want to distant themselves.  Hell No! They don't won't to know!  Who the **** in their right mind wants to know some **** like this ****!  ***** ****!

Those boys should be beginning to thaw out by now.  There is no low, sneaky viperous bitch , pretend mother,  around to swell their empty heads with empty platitudes.  Will they ever see?  Will they ever know?  Will they ever put two and two together?

I know one beautiful thing, having an extremely devious mother,  such as myself , certainly taught me the value of true scholarship and critical thinking.  Mathy was the type to quickly take advantage of your slow thinking.  The bitch tried to pimp me out to her husband when I was 14!  And mutha****** hollering at me to act normal!  Shut the **** up!

THAT'S THE POINT! I AM NOT NORMAL! YOU DUMB STUPEFYING MENTAL MIDGETS!!!

No one on this green earth could have with stood the sexual battery slyly put on ME by Mathy Jane.  No, she was a DEMON!   A two legged Viper! A Monstrosity lived with us .  Deliberately and secretly hated and tortured us from the day she conceived us,  until the day she was finally carried out.!  

We did not know!  No one told us.   They hid (relatives and friends), turned a blind eye and we suffered.  Don't tell me I can't hate the bitch!

I don't know what Bible you are half reading!  "Hate the sin, not the sinner!"  I hate that mutha****** too!

I agree with former President Jimmy Carter.  I do sincerely believe that Jesus would OK same sex marriage.  No,   he is not confused.  Didn't Jesus say; "LOVE YE ONE ANOTHER AS I HAVE LOVED YOU?"

What is the problem?  You can NOT "un-gay" any one.  To sit in judgement and demand that someone else change their very nature is SADISTIC!  To deliberately force people to lie, live in "the closet", deny themselves , themselves, IS WRONG, ANTI-CHRISTIAN!

Again satan gets a pass, while every one is hating and vilifying the "homosexual", the "INCESTOR" AND PEDOPHILE,  RUN LOOSE IN THE CHURCH!  Free! Uncriticized! Unnoticed! And if discovered, quickly forgiven.  The child is blamed for enticing the adult.

Help us LORD!

"Come quickly!"

I press on   ...

"Be who you are and live your life"