" We've come this far by faith...

leaning on the LORD..." I am still singing it.  I can still hear it.  No, the voices of Wesley A.M.E. Zion Chapel weren't that great.  We only had a piano and some tamborines.  But, the music was a symphony orchestra to me.

It was a little church but it had some prayed up sanctified members.  No, not all, just some.  All you need is some.  One was my granddaddy, I'm proud to say.  If you don't have a Jerome Walters in your life feel free to borrow from the proud legacy of mine.

I am a proud graduate of North Carolina A&T State University with honors because of him.  I am a Coca-Cola Educator of the Year due to his influence.  I am the proud mother of a brilliant Boston University graduate due totally to his wisdom and love.

Please don't let a dim-witted demon rob you of your legacy, of  your inheritance.  Please know that intelligence of the highest caliber runs in your family.

Just because there is an ancient demon still menacing and troubling in your family is no cause for you to give up or settle for less than your best.

You know what she told me one time?  No she didn't tell me, she screamed it at the top of her lungs for hours.  "YOU AIN'T S***!!!"  I didn't know the ***** was jealous.  She said it was because she loaned me $300 in September to buy my first car that she conveniently put totally in her name to rebuild her credit.  (Because her too young gigolo husband finally escaped her demonic clutches).  My own "mother" lacerated me with vile insults over and over because it was Christmas and she didn't want my s**** Christmas gifts.

I didn't know to tell her that she in fact was the one that wasn't s***!  She was the one that had me violently raped by her husband. (fake stepfather)  I didn't have sense enough to ask her why she had never given me one five cent piece to go to college.  It never occurred to me that she was still affected by her fake college attendance.  Granddaddy never reminded her of how she collected his hard earned tobacco farming income to pay for tuition to Virginia Union University that she no longer attended.  She lied and faked, took his money and spent it on herself. Never had one qualm or sense of guilt or regret.  Granddaddy never told me that, never mentioned it.   She told me that herself.

She screamed that I wasn't s***.  Did a part of me believe it?  I must have because I spent the majority of my life trying to please her, trying to honor her.  I spent my whole life holding and hiding her secrets.  She was a crook and she was a whore, but that was her business.  She secretly hated everyone she knew.  She hated my uncle.  I never told. There is not one person in my family that she doesn't secretly hate and have a vendetta against.

It was only when GOD hit me upside the head like a thunderbolt that I came to.  She went too far in her demon treachery.  GOD finally opened my eyes and my ears.  Why was I blind so long?  I could not believe it!  There was no way on GOD's green earth any woman could be so cruel, so vile, so common.  Yes, I saw her using "roots".  But, it never occurred to me that she would be low enough, common enough to use them on me.  No woman would use witchcraft against her own family!  Not, and call herself a preacher.  No one who loved the LORD as much as claimed could do so many evil despicable things so often.  Every day was tragic and painful due to her.  You see Mathy Jane came up with a magic scheme, a magic formula.  She could do any and everything she pleased.  She could commit every lustful common act known to man and get away unscathed.  All she had to do was involve you, twist your little simple mind.  Call you black and ugly, tell you that you weren't s***.  And she could get clean away.  She could use her guile and charm to mesmerize all you simpletons.  There was no way that Mathy Jane was ever going to lose.  "I can't lose for the stuff I use and you can't win for the fix you in."

Look at her,  86 without a care in the world.  You invited her to the family reunion.  I know you did.  You will proudly pose with her and post your pictures on facebook.  You will continue to call her the Queen, bow and scrape to her because you have eyes that do not see, ears that cannot hear.  GOD  has yet to slap you upside the head with His thunderbolt.

Everyday I lived, we lived, we were doomed to be her narcissistic supply.   She will never be wrong.  Nothing will ever be her fault.  She will continue to tell you her magic lies.  Everyone in her life will have to bear her guilt and shame.  She will pretend to love you until she is lowered into her dirty little grave.  She will die perfect.  She will die with all of her lies still on her lips.  Some will still love her.

Jesus will say; "Get thee behind me Satan.  I never knew you."  I will keep singing; "We've come this far by faith.."

Be blessed children.  Claim your great legacy.  That toothless demon can't hurt you any more.  Her "roots" can't work.  She has been found out.  She is weighed in the balances and she is found wanting.  Do pray for her salvation.  In Christ Jesus' name I pray, Rachel Gwendolyn.