I finally get it!

It is not the deed, it's the stealth.  She wasn't bragging about selling "lip reducing cream".  It was her cunning that she was rejoicing over.  It was her ability to be invisible, "unseen".  I must quote my friend Alice Lovelace; "It is a secret war, enemy unseen."

You can't fight a phantom.  That's unfair.  Hugging on me, kissing on me, pretending to love me while stabbing me in the back.   I will not ask you why.  You don't know why.

Beating me all in the head, slapping me in my blind face.  Pretending that you were concerned that I was a slow learner, that I was retarded.  When did you ever care about anything I learned in school?  That was a ruse.

When I reflect back, when have you not had some elaborate ruse?  Cursing my brother heartlessly for asking to keep his brand new ten speed Swinn bicycle in the storage room.  Storage room!  That's what a storage room is for *****!  "LEAVE IT OUTSIDE! I DON'T WANT DAT MUTHAF******* BIKE IN MY HOUSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!"  You cut the fool you idiot!  You were just mad because granddaddy bought him a brand new expensive bike. Jealous **!

So granddaddy bought him a pedigreed puppy to replace the bike.  Determined that you were going to win   you caused the puppy to die painfully of distemper by refusing to get the dog vaccinated.

I will never forget how you carried on when we returned from Philadelphia to discover his brand new bike stolen.  You pretended to be shocked, to be sorry, to be remorseful.  I see you didn't come out of your pocket to buy him another one.  "I didn't know XXX.  I didn't know 'dese n***** would steal lak dat.  I thought it wuz lak  FT. Bragg."

****! You don't care for GOD or His righteousness.  You just want to be a demon in the pulpit.  You are so dumb you think that you are getting over on GOD.

You are a liar and the truth is NOT in you.  You weren't that tired of granddaddy.  You knew he was old and infirm.  You get off on getting away with his MURDER!

Don't worry, I'm still praying for you.  Stealth!  It looks like you succeeded in out smarting yourself.  What a mess.