I really don't think ...

it was a collective decision.  It was more conditioning out of fear, of failure to question, failure to accept our awful truth.  Just human myths and alibis kept us tethered to this albatross.  We would not so much as parted our lips to her otherwise.   The best analogy I can think of is of a frog boiling in a pot.  The little frog was placed in the pot as a tadpole, the heat was gradually turned up.  We accepted our excruciating pain and stupidity , not because we wanted to , we had just grown up so accustomed to mistreatment , we accepted it as a part of life.

We,  as an extremely fearful society ,  are always yelling "hush", "just don't say nothing!"  And very sad to admit the greatest rebuke I have received for finally revealing my mother have been from so called "Christians".  Christian idiots.  People that wear the "church house" out.  People that tithe and serve in great capacities.  People more worried about perception than reality.  People that willing live with people they hate, talk about them behind their backs and would never confront them to their face.  People ready to brag to GOD about their good works.  People blind and won't see.

Martha was what Mathy was, an abomination!  A female rapist, perverted sociopath, a loud clamorous bangee, imp, monstrosity, that you did not want to meet on your worse day,  ever,  in life or in the here after! .  Oh yes, Mathy was a tragic accident going somewhere to happen.  She was NOT going to be recognized, criticized, ostracized or prevented!  You were going to endure her in silence!  Not one word of truth were you ever going to speak concerning her "condition".

Martha knew full well that she had a "condition".  She knew full well that she was evil, jealous, lustful, common and despicable.  She knew that you knew and we all knew to not speak on it, to ignore it.  To pretend that it didn't exist or to hurry and forgive and never expect such to happen ever again, but brace yourself anyway.

Just live your life struggling, fighting for every crumb,  for this lecherous reprobate to  grin in your face and secretly snatch it back.  It was a  sick game with Martha. You had to play it!  You had no choice!  Your head was in the lion's moth!  You could not win!  "You can' win fuh duh fix you in!  I can't lose fuh duh stuff I use!"

Do know Martha sang that song to us every day of our lives.  Yes, she did deliberately humiliate us and yes,  she did get completely away, EVERY TIME!   Yes, she did MURDER her own father in an attempt to keep us away from a loving, protecting, forgiving GOD.  Martha lived the life of a complete reprobate, ravenous wolf.  She enjoyed it , as well she should.  She made it up, made up the rules as she went and she was always the winner.

So, why did my mother write me a letter, wipe her behind in it and mail it to me?  Why did she expect me to understand that? to accept that kind of treatment still? What made her think there was anything right about such reprehensible behavior?  Why did she brag about hat act to others?  Why did they accept it?  Why did they tolerate such a relative? Where was GOD?  What kind of mind could conceive of such an act?

Something is missing!  Where is the love? the compassion? understanding?  Where is the honor? the respect?  There is none.  Martha Jane Walters was a bully!  A complete bully imp of the highest order.  A complete imp for satan.  GOD gave her brilliant talented children.  She didn't want them  (no,  not one) but was too selfish and too proud to give them away, to place them in loving homes.

Kept them to humiliate and torture,  over and over.  Never changed her tactics.  Never changed her modus opirindi.  Never accepted responsibility for her own actions.  Never told the complete truth about anything, ever!   Lived as a  jealous lying hater, died a jealous lying unrepentant hater.  Preached repentance for others, never for herself because satan rendered her delusional.  She was confused.  She preached stirring sermons reinforcing her serious delusion.  "Ordained minister" in front of her name helped to keep her blind.  Our collective cowardly enabling behavior,  did not help our plight.

Did GOD get tired or was it all in Divine Order?  I know GOD created me for such a time as this!  People need to know that they don't have to be perfect.  You don't have to be faithful attendees or rabid Bible readers for GOD to step in and turn your life around.

Just say Jesus!  You can say it in a still quiet voice or you can yell it.  Just know that He is coming!  Just know there is light at the end of the darkest tunnel.   Just know that when you hook up with Jesus the devil can't do you any harm , no matter how long she has held you captive.

PTL!

I press on   ...