Thank you Jerome Walters. Thank you Jesus. I heard and comprehended those words early in life. I have always been keenly aware, brilliantly perceptive. I had to. If I expected to navigate and survive the pits pre-dug for me by my own mother.
Dear LORD, the lost is incredible. You said in Your Word if we try to elevate ourselves through unscrupulous means we would be brought down. Wrong can never be made right. Evildoers waste their time scheming and dreaming of defeating the Righteous.
Is that why Mathy Jane murdered her own father LORD? Was she trying to defeat GOD? Was she trying to erase and eradicate all evidence of the truth about her life?
Martha was so confident that granddaddy would never reveal her that she laughed in his face as he kept mum. There was so much we didn't know and would have never known if Mathy Jane had not volunteered, had not been bragging and running off at the mouth.
I know now that Martha was never smarter than me as she bragged. She was just older, more hardened, more corrupt. Paying a prostitute to give a "client" oral pleasure was not a sign of her superior intelligence. It was merely evidence of her sick criminal predatory mind. If was evidence that she was a woman of very little virtue, very little faith in a true living, loving GOD.
Poor Martha spent the better part of her life preaching and proclaiming the goodness of GOD while not believing one single solitary word. My grandfather must have memorized the entire Bible. He quoted it chapter and verse, often. He, unlike his daughter, believed every word. Liked every word, set an example for his descendants to follow. He taught us about "Covenant" living and GOD's promises. Mathy Jane quickly and always dismissed such knowledge as garbage. (So, why preach?)
Well, I admit to seriously having a nervous breakdown, a total collapse. First , just recognizing how truly evil my mother absolutely was slayed me. How any one human being could be so evil, corrupt and purely perverted for eighty-seven years and never desire to change, AND GO UNRECOGNIZED, UNREPENTANT, UNAPOLOGETIC, knocked me for a loop.
"Forgive and forget" was our life. Let Mathy Jane do and commit all kinds of evil and treachery on a daily basis. Mathy Jane gets to do all the evil, we get to forgive and forget. (And keep silent. To love Mathy Jane was to suffer in silence.)
It happened in 1979 and I still can't get over it. Perhaps if I had been made aware of her incredible evil along the way. I knew about the five aborted babies. She bragged about "flushing" them so nonchalantly, so gleefully, so often, it really didn't phase me as it should have.
Did "Christianity" condition me, us, to tolerate Martha's extraordinary evil? No, she did! The mother is the first teacher and the greatest teacher. When your mother is a corrupt perverted pedophile, you have a problem.
I grew to maturity with an awful problem. An extremely evil, treacherous, lying, malignant narcissistic mother was my inheritance, my "cross to bear". I bore it well. Only a few major mental breakdowns in sixty-four years, is due to the goodness of GOD, His tender mercies and the fervent prayers of Jerome Walters.
My grandfather always declared; "Time changes all things." No truer words have ever been spoken. To know that your own mother hated you with a deep passion and never wanted anything but the worse for you is devastating. Finally acknowledging that you were always the dummy standing there whimpering, pleading and crying for this "thang" to please love you, depresses you even more.
Dear LORD please do not let me lose the love I have, chasing a love that I can never receive. I rebuke you satan! Bow down!
Dear LORD I thank you for my beautiful, brilliant, loving daughter. Dear LORD you surely "showed out" when you created her. I know you blessed me beyond measure and I thank you.
I view Martha Jane Walters as stepping stones, misery that had to be endured like child birth. Yes, I am glad she is gone! Praise the LORD she is gone. Yes, I will talk about her, describe her, warn of her. Yes, LORD I will warn the world about women so low they willfully, gleefully and gladly commit incest, MURDER and "chunk dust". A self styled, home made "witch", a country "root doctor" that decided to preach for cover. GOD said No!
Keep on you evildoers! Keep on knowing full well you are wasting your time. While you may falsely believe you are keeping GOD's children away from their promised blessings you are merely a tool to usher them into the Kingdom.
GOD sees you evildoer. You can't get away. All your lying, intimidating, "dust chunking" mean nothing to GOD. What you did was expose your ignorant primitive reprobate self.
Evildoers that preach, do know that you are teaching the truth. My mother preached the Truth concerning GOD's Word. She chose not to believe. She chose to stand in a pulpit lying, trying to cover up all the filth she drug behind her, lying and denying.
For eighty-seven years Mathy Jane bragged that she was winning. Something tells me she knew she was losing all the time. I do think the day Mathy Jane poured that pot of hot boiling coffee on her son was the day she should have been put out of her misery. All she did was wax worse. She did not heed, feel ashamed or apologetic. She felt slick, considered herself a brilliant liar, a secret disciple of the evil one.
One thing I have learned from my tremendously long Mathy Jane Experience, a miserable lying woman will bring untold, incalculable misery on her entire family for hundreds of years if that succubus is not stopped, hindered, prevented, exposed or revealed.
The Mathy Jane demonic whores of this world must be revealed, made known. When a person comes out of misery they must tell , they must brag about he goodness of GOD.
I'm bragging! I'm testifying of the goodness of GOD!
Praise the LORD!
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