"Pride goeth before a fall"

The evil forces of this this world will render you a total mental cripple.  You will know that you are wrong but vehemently refuse to change because you are too perfect to be wrong.  You worry about what the world will think about you,  knowing your deep dark secrets, while not ever caring about your sick demonic deeds.  Falsely believing and declaring secrecy and silence is all you need., you wax worse and worse.

Pride will keep you from apologizing to your victims.  It will make you hate your victims more than you already secretly hate them,  for having the nerve, for having  the "grit in their craw" to confront you, their deeply closeted tormentor.

Pride will make you believe your own lies.  When caught, caught red handed, you will act the pure demonic fool, you will feign mental illness, you will roar , though you now be extremely elderly and toothless.

Pride will make you give monetary gifts to your flying monkeys in exchange for their complicity.  "Just close your eyes to the truth. Put that truth away, far away. Put one foot in front of the other.  Press on.  Forgive! Press on! Live confuse, beleaguered, vexed.  Press on."  That was my life for so long.  Do know,  at no time was I not searching for the truth.  I found out that you will never get the truth from a professional liar.  A lie can never be the truth even if every member of your family cling to it.  Nothing, no one can make a Christ lover give up the right for the wrong.

A rock will cry out before I will bend to satan! Yes, "it doth appear" I bent or feared pure evil for a very long time.  Do know I was being shaped, prepared, broken and remade.  Do know, this world, not clever demon, no matter how clandestine, can make me doubt GOD!

We all must do what the Holy Spirit urges us to do.

I know my redeemer lives!

I know I was created for such a time as this!

I know I must preach and proclaim the love and forgiveness of our LORD Jesus Christ!

PTL!

I press on    ...