You can call it ..

deja vue , a premonition, an inkling, impending dome, what ever.  No matter what you call it, I always knew this day was coming.  Certainly, it was nothing I ever looked forward to.  But, I always knew that it would have to happen one day.

I knew she was a fool and didn't have good sense when I was three.  I was a three year old child cussing in my head;"WTF? Who is this f****** b*****?"  Even then I had better sense than to talk back to this stark raving fool.

This b**** was always mad as hell.  Always fighting, cussing, ranting and raving.  Always violent, carrying knives and guns. No, you didn't play with Mathy Jane.  I know now that she was a closet lesbian, the butch type.  They used to call them "bulldaggers".  I don't think that's the reason she turned out to be so evil.

The fact is, she is just ignorant, lazy, lying and no count.  Too lazy to finish reading a book.  She will start a book, gleam just enough information to sound intelligent.  She is the kind that always cheated in school. Always wanted to sit next to the smart kid that studied so she could copy off of their paper.  Somehow never earned a single grade. Cheated her way to an associate's degree in secretarial science.  No, she is ignorant! A damn fool.  She would rather put all her energy in pretending to be something, rather than being something, rather than being the person she pretends to be.  I never could understand that.  If you want to be a "lady", be a "lady", don't call yourself one and threaten everyone that says different.

She pretends to be a preacher and can preach.  She wants no part of that life though.  She would rather rob, steal and kill.  Yes, she is a reprobate of the highest order.

She thinks too highly of her color and hair.  "I'm light bright and damn near white"; she is still bragging at 87.

Well, I knew this day was coming. I told her I was going to tell when those two buzzards raped me at eight years old. (She wanted to get some dirt on her simple enslaved husband so he could never leave her whorish a** like all of the other men did.)  She scowled;"You ain't tellin' S***!"

She didn't envision the internet, Facebook  or Blogger in 1958.  She just knew that her cruel clever treatment would destroy me and that she would ultimately win.  Of course this almost never happened.  I am sure I would have continued to remain silent if she had apologized.  I finally found the courage to confront her in 2009.  All I wanted was an apology.  I just wanted her to say she was sorry.

I guess she thought I was still four years old.  She thought she could still beat me and cuss me out.  She thought I would still run crying with my tail tucked between my legs.  She didn't know forcing me to go to church every Sunday of my life actually helped me, enabled me.

I believed, got the Holy Ghost as a young child.  I was eight years old and she was beating "the living water s***" out of me.  Right then and there, right in that living room of 6C Honeycutt Road, in Fort Bragg, NC the Spirit fell upon me.  I got the Holy Ghost, spoke in tongue (no doubt).  I know that it was the Holy Ghost that saved me.  Not only did Jesus save me.  He has been with me ever since.  He has been with me every step of the way. He saved me form her murderous plots.  Saved me from her "root working".

She is a clever demon alright.  Still some where plotting, lying and trying to scheme her way out of this.  Claiming I'm crazy won't help her.  Claiming I'm on drugs won't help either.  The poor woman thinks that she is at war with me.  I'm not fighting. I'm following.  I am doing what the Holy Spirit compels me to do.  I'm telling!

The world wonders why so many men turn gay or hate women.  I will not tell you on this blog what she did to my five brothers.  I will tell you that she deserves to be drug out in the street and devoured by dogs.

Yes, she is a modern day Jezebel.  She has a Jezebel spirit multiplied by a million.  She won't get away.  I just came to tell all concerned.  You will be cursed if you love her or cling to her, if you lie and cloak for her.  You are cursed.  Read your Bible.  Read Proverbs.  Don't hate the messenger and don't hate the message intended to save your life.

She vowed to never repent, to never say that she is sorry.  Well, GOD will have the last say on that issue.