"The best laid plans ...

(schemes) of mice and men often go awry."   I understand what John Steinbeck understood, evil can't win.  No matter how brilliant you are or think you are, your evil demonic plans will fail you every time.

Why? Because they are demonic, your plans are from the evil one.  This is GOD's world.  "He sits high and looks low." "His eye is on the sparrow."

From birth I knew I was His little sparrow.  A little brow sparrow.  I have always loved GOD.  I could never "not love the LORD".  It was something I always knew I was born to do.   The very thought of the LORD has always made me feel warm and protected.  I've never had any doubt that GOD loves me and will always lead and protect me.  I guess you can call it confidence.

You need Confidence in this life.  If you intend to walk, survive, and thrive on this earth, you need the Confidence of Almighty GOD, confidence that only He can plant in your heart.

GOD planted His Love in every heart.  It must be nurtured, cultivated.  I assure you that it is there.  Please learn to listen to the voice of the LORD whispering in your ear.  You know GOD loves you.  You don't have to earn His love.  If you truly love the LORD, your greatest pleasure is to live right, is to serve Him.  Scheming, deceiving, lying and plotting is not necessary.   Ladies you don't have to sell yourself into bondage, exchange your beautiful body to someone you detest for rent or your car note.  Those are lies from the devil designed to rob you of your confidence, of your faith.

Yes, you are going to be rebuked, talked about, scorned.  Most of all you are going to be manipulated, led astray.  The evil one wants to keep you from the victory that is yours.  The evil one wants you destroyed, flat on your back, under her feet.

Quit listening to them, don't keep company with them.  Rid your mind of the ignorant nonsense they taught you.  Rid yourself of the hatred they planted in your heart.

Dear LORD, thank You for Your WORDS, Your wisdom.

I always knew.  Yes, I knew that something was mighty wrong with her.  I didn't have a name for it.  I knew that it was terrifying and the best I could do was keep my mouth shut, try to say our of her way and earn an excellent education.  I was a child but I always knew that an education, a degree was the key to my freedom.

I am glad that I didn't know how much she hated me, how much she envied me and how desperately she wanted to destroy me.  I couldn't have made it.  I will tell you right now.  This woman made me contemplate suicide more than once.  Motherhood saved me.   Birthing my beautiful daughter changed my life.  My daughter and Jerome Walters are the two great loves of my life.  Both are wise and GOD sent.

My daughter created this blog for me. She heard and saw me cry everyday.  As a very loved daughter she could understand my pain.  It is one thing to have an unloving mother that does not care about her children, about her daughter.

But, to have a malignant sociopath, a hideous monster stalking you and secretly trying to destroy you for 62 years is more than most can bear.  She is so phony and insincere she will make you wretch.  Smeared down in her Fashion Fair, wearing one of her thousand wigs, lying, exaggerating and putting on a show.  This poor woman loves no one.  Never has and never will.  People are disposal to her. Something to be used, destroyed and discarded.

My revelations might be late, but they are not too late.

You knew it too.  You sensed something was wrong with her also.  One minute praising GOD and quoting the Bible, the next minute bragging about some demonic scheme she pulled off.  Playing Madame Watson and tricking people out of their money.

Any woman ignorant enough to go down on a graveyard collecting dirt off of a murdered man's grave and believing that it will give her power should be shunned.  "Get thee behind me satan!"

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams.  Live the life you have imagined." Henry David Thoreau

I want the entire world to know that I am one "throwed away baby" that refuses to be robbed of her birth rite.  No demon from the pit of hell is going to rob and destroy me!

I shared my dreams with you.  You instinctively went to plotting and blocking.  You were determined to make me a hideous thing lower than you.  You robbed my brother of his medical career because you are insanely jealous and corrupt.  You live to see him suffer every day.  You want him to pay because his father refused to marry you.  You robbed my other brother of his musical career, of his self esteem, of his confidence. You hate him for being an "outside child".  One caught in your husband's "net".   ("All caught in yo' net is yourn!") You are mad because he survived when you tried to abort him.  You hate the fact that he betrayed you by growing tall and brown and refusing to bear a resemblance to the short jet black man you tried to pin him on.  (You had the nerve to name him a derivative of his real daddy's name!)  He lives in mortal fear of you.  I pray that GOD will grant him courage.

You robbed me for a very long time.  But, I finally got my confidence back.  I am walking confidently in the direction of my dreams. And I want you to know that it feels mighty good.

Stay in His WORD children.  Know that GOD will never leave or forsake you.  Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch,, JEROME WALTERS)