Awe struck!

Dear LORD on this day, Wednesday, March 14, 2018, I am awe struck by your goodness, Your Grace , again.

When I look back over my life and realize the many, many,  tender mercies you showered on me, I'm humbled. You led, You guided, I listened.

My (our) awful plight grows clearer every day. Martha Jane Walters was a DEMON! No, she was not a woman that suffered with demons, she was a demon that suffered with bouts of righteousness.

What kept her in our lives so long? Fear! Terrorizing fear! That slut was a savage brute! She loved to beat, stab, bludgeon, murder and no body better ,  ever , say shit. MARTHA JANE WALTERS  was never to be criticized, admonished, punished, limited, or hindered in any manner.

Martha Jane Walters lived eighty-seven years as a proud sadistic terrorist wearing a cloak of acceptability given to her by her "Church".  What a collection of idiots! What "Church", what people,  are dumb enough,  to fall under the spell of a known "root worker", a Conjure woman?

A group of Christian traditionalists, lazy dullards. A collection of clowns that love to play church, listen to good music, wear fine raiment, dine well and take the chief seats and torture for fun.

People in positions of authority that demand to exploit, enslave, bludgeon, beat, rape, molest, injure, torment,  for their own sadistic pleasure.

People that convince dummies,  Jesus is a blond haired, blue eye-ed hate monger,  that only loves and looks out for people of the same color.   People that also tithe, attend "church" regularly and lie only for the good of such people.

 People that can claim "Jesus grass" for hair and people that do not offend GOD with their too dark skin.

She is gone now. PRAISE THE LORD! 

Yes, I'm broken, fractured, something ground to dust by ignorant racism and superstition. My ignorant mother knew better. She was just sadistic. What a stupid low common whore!

Martha Jane Walters preferred to crawl around on the ground digging up dirt , under the cover of a full moon,  before she would actually read, study or attempt to earn an honest living.

How sickening, how depressing. "How futile is regret?". My poor grandfather probably knew full well , or a least he knew something was very evil about his daughter. Did he fear her or did he know that she had to be endured to the end?

Why did he put a Bible in my hand at age eight? Somehow granddaddy knew scripture was my only protection from this abomination.

Martha was an imp, a reprobate,  so controlled by evil she could never resist, could never miss the slightest opportunity to be sadistic. Martha was caught bludgeoning a puppy to death as a small child.  That was it. That was the day it would always be too late for the Walters family, the entire Walters klan. We were doomed, destroyed that very moment.

Everything my grandfather scrimped and saved for, set aside for his children's children,  the evil one devoured. Sixty-five acres of land! Gone, poof! A rambling ranch, vineyards, fruit trees, a man made lake, all gone, all devoured by ignorant racism and superstition!

We were doomed. We did not read the book of Acts.  We did not get away from her. We tried to live with her, we tried to make it work.  We kept her, an egg sucking dog. We let her run loose. Few warned us, even fewer protected us.

Every where we went, every thing we tried to do was thwarted, spoiled, undone , destroyed, mutilated by that idiot , that claimed to be the head of our lives. World, when a wo/man falls low enough, evil enough, foul and sadistic enough , to rape babies , her own babies, it is over.

Look forward to a life of misery.

I WILL NOT! FUCK THAT BITCH! THAT COMMON SLUT!  Have no pity for her ignorant ass! Notice how the low slut that always conveniently played simple coon , when the mood struck her, was never caught.  Please notice how the low slut raped, molested, maimed, murdered,  at will,  for what seems like and eternity.

Grinned and did it all over again for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!  I don't blame GOD! I blame those that claim to love the LORD! I blame people that demand people take shit off of people like my mother and tRump until we die. 

That is not what Jesus said! "If your right eye offend you, pluck it out." "My GOD from Zion!"raping and murdering your own children! Becoming so jealous, so enraged , you brand, burn, label, deliberately humiliate, poison , YOUR OWN , just for your sadistic pleasure.

Well, you're finally dead now. I rejoice. I do also cry, lament,  for my fellow prisoners. I do have to leave them in their own misery. I've shown them a way out of the pit, they refuse to come. They refuse to remember, I understand.

 Yes, idiots dumb enough to trust Martha for fifty, sixty, seventy years, refuse to trust me.  Refuse to trust The Holy Spirit.

I must also admit, people still willing to lie and cloak for a woman of Martha Jane Walter's low caliber,  deserve to suffer.

All tRump supporters deserve to suffer.  To call a mongrel of his low order,  a Christian is beyond contemptible.  My own mother willingly, volunteered to let a host of young soldiers run a train on her in my presence!

I am forever wounded, scared, asexual , for life. I was only nineteen!  It was in the daytime! We had been in that day room less than fifteen minutes. Martha didn't have time to get drunk. Martha feigned "drunkenness" just to let those young men have their way with her.

I must admit Martha's "commonness"  was not new to me. She was ALWAYS extremely whorish. She was indeed a nymphomaniac! She pretended to be ashamed, demanded that no one ever mention her proclivities for incest and pedophilia, lying, stealing, conjuring, MURDERING.

No one was to ever mention the black cloud of misery that hung over Mathy's head, went every where she went, destroyed everything she touched.

So, why preach? How could she stand up there with her nasty ass,  knowing what a low foul despicable repugnant maggot she really was?

No wonder she always hated me, no wonder she always called me a "goody two shoes". No wonder she always (secretly) hated the entire world.

No matter, she could have repented. Martha did not repent because she was not sorry.  As a matter of fact she was proud. Every time Martha crawled her vile lying ass up in a pulpit,  she was proud! No, she was not proud of her good deeds,  which were few,  if any. Martha was proud that she had deceived the "Church". Had run another brilliant con game.

Now she's dead, now I have a greater understanding of the "Church",  of "Christians", of loved ones in my family still faking the funk.

The truth is, anyone still low enough, weak and frightened enough,  to declare their undying love for the likes of Martha and tRump , deserve to suffer.

REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

P.S.
Homework, read the book of Acts.