I can still see it, just as clearly as if yesterday. Standing right on Highway #301, Wesley Chapel A. M.E. Zion Church, shaped me for Life.
Our little meager "choir" would line up "two by two" , from this "entrance" to MARCH IN!
At this time, we were still "small time", bigshot , colored folks" , housed in a "Red Brick Church".
I loved "Church". We always had good music, good food. Yes, the sermons were always much too long, and repetitive. But, the entertainment was right on! I enjoyed it. Just a little "colored" girl sitting in her "Sunday-go-tuh-meetin'" clothes. White dress, "crinoline" slip, white lace socks, black patent leather- high- topped- buckle shoes, with white silk ribbons dangling from my "water-and-grease-knots".
Smelling of "lye-soap", still fresh from my "Saddy-night-bath". Royal Crown smeared on me from head to toe!
Perhaps I was being indoctrinated, brain washed, absorbing the "religion" of my oppressors. Hue-man demons, come to life, sucking all of the love, joy and happiness out of every one courageous enough to resist them.
Yet, The Holy Spirit taught me what that lying viper could never know; GOD is real! I GOD IS REAL BECAUSE GOD LIVES INSIDE MY HEART!
NO LOW VIPER FROM HELL CAN SLAY ME EVEN IF THE LOW VIPEROUS, LYING, SICK, SADISTIC, MALIGNANT, PSYCHOTIC, NYMPHOMANIAC , UNREPENTANT , JEALOUS , COVETOUS WHORE, BIRTHED ME!
While my "mother" openly used my "disloyalty" to her, as justification for my sixty-two year CONFINEMENT! S/he never acknowledged or explained her unnatural affection towards me and every "good and righteous" person s/he ever encountered.
No, mjw could never explain Her CARNAL nature, or why s/he clung so desperately to it.
No, my mother never explained why s/he could never be criticized, or slightly, kindly and timidly admonished. S/he vowed to never be resisted, told on, or revealed. She was "Light bright and DAMN NEAR WHITE!" So, just like .rump and all evil, rabid, toxic, white terrorists , I needed to just shut the fuck up, and be glad I didn't get flushed down the muthafucking toilet, like the other FIVE!
NOW, granddaddy always told her, always warned her, "Time changes ALL things". He also told her I wasn't the one for her to "mess wid". S/he did. mathy had to. The low slut for satan ,sold her soul to satan , eons before I was born. AND NO ONE ON THIS EARTH, IN HEAVEN OR HELL WAS EVER GOING TO TELL mathy jane SHIT!
Relax, s/he went out suddenly. So will this thang, just as stupid, just as lying, whorish and greedy as the dreaded mathy jane!
Hold up!
BEAMING!!! In the BACKFIRE!!!
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