I defend everything I want to do. If I drink a beer or order a cocktail I feel privileged. Jesus drank wine! Turned water into wine and He said; "it is not what goes into the man that defileth the man. It is what comes out of the man that defileth the man. "
In the last few years of her life my mother made up a new story concerning Doster. A whole year had passed concerning the "Ft. Gordon Incident".
She never missed a beat. Sat down and wrote him pornographic letters every other day, like clockwork. Fell madly in love with a tall handsome Arab looking man. Suddenly and deliberately threw me under the bus when she needed a reason to get rid of Doster. ""Dat N-**** MOOOOOLESTED MY DAWTHUR! "
Suddenly she loved me, cared about me, became intolerant of perverts. Married the young
pretty man exactly 12 hours after divorcing her second husband. Then proceeded to treat him the same way she always treated us, like dogs***!
Is it possible to become pond scum? Something so wretched that you hide your proclivities from yourself? Obviously it is. It is a slippery slope. You have to be honest. You must be honest with yourself.
My best is nothing but a filthy rag to GOD. It may make me proud. Sometimes I feel good about the good things I have managed to do . I thank GOD for never permitting me to complete a homicide. Forgive me LORD for ever considering homicide or suicide as a solution.
It is only by the Grace of GOD that I didn't turn out like my mother. It is so strange. Her extreme cruelty made me love the LORD! Made me trust Him! Her foul treatment , lies and schemes made me appreciate and love every good day! Every good and true person that has ever touched my life regardless of age, gender, status, or wealth . Most of all I thank the LORD for JEROME WALTERS ! PRAISE THE LORD!!!
[Excerpt from The JR WALTERS Chronicles July 25, 2014. All tights reserved.]
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