"You can't win! I've plead-ed. They are young, I'm old and "useless". (In their very inexperienced eyes) They refuse to believe me. (They know everything about everything. They are stiff neck) They scoff me, call me rude, crude, disrespectful! Yes, me!
If I would be nicer to white people, try to assimilate more, they would be "nicer" to me. Will finally let me in, will finally pay me a fair wage.
If I articulated more, made my verbs and subjects always agree perfectly, then I would finally be acceptable, something to be proud of, someone to show off .
Dammit! If I could just only stop being so fucking "colored". If I could just get over my horrid life . Yes, the life I overcame, pulled myself up by own bootstraps, only to be knocked down over and over by fake "Christians" . Christians delighted to be given every opportunity to block my blessings, because they think I'm too black for GOD to love. Really? Seriously? I kid you not.
How am I disrespectful "white man"? How am I rude!? You kidnapped me!, my people! Raped my great grandmother as an orphaned thirteen year old girl!
You low swine , made her purchase her own freedom! You gave her "Freedom papers", sold her some swamp land, permitted her to build her own house! And you claim your immoral pimp ex-convict grandfather makes you better than me. Never!
If you stood on all of the money you've stolen in seventy-two years, you couldn't stand knee high to my granddaddy.
I've always gotten the impression my great-great grandmother was not very "feminine". She rode a horse bear back, carried a shotgun, was known to use it. She birthed her twin, her daughter , Mary Wright Walters, begat Jerome Walters, Jerome Walters begat Martha Jane Walters, Martha Jane begat me, Rachel Gwendolyn.
This poorly educated , phony lying , rabid racist's worse nightmare.
REVERSE THE CURSE!
"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"
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