Don't count the cost, what have WE lost?

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Saturday, April 25, 20/20:

"Don't count the cost, what have you lost?"

Don't count the cost, count the benefits!  THE TRUE BLESSINGS!

Refuse to calculate your losses, consider what you've gained.

For over fifty eight years I remained confused. How could my "mother" declare her undying love in one breath , then turn around and commit the sickest , most depraved acts unimaginable?

If or when mjw's sick,  depravity was revealed, noticed, mentioned, the demons that controlled mjw dispatched unmerciful beatings  upon Us , just to keep her deep dark secrets.

Deep dark secrets that began in her childhood. Yes, mjw was a toddler demon!

What could my grandfather do, kill her?

Is that what that low whore dispatched from the lowest depths of hell deserved?

Or did Almighty GOD say ; "Wait here while I go yonder and pray"?

Did mjw ever really believe Almighty GOD believed in her? Trusted her? 

Why, the low slut never trusted her demon possessed self!

My poor "mother" laughed her whole long life about how secretly evil s/he really was. Yes, I really believed my "mother,  (my other) , when s/he crowed about abusing, robbing, ripping off, stabbing, killing off , yet another simpleton.  No consequences what so ever!

According to my "mother" if you were ever fool enough to fall for her unending bullshit, you were fair game. Regardless of your condition, age, or kinship, mjw didn't give a fuck about you!  mjw never loved Jesus, GOD or any man, woman or child.  World, mjw was satan's spawn!

  mjw was the lioness, the creature, the Black widow,  and s/he had every right to eat you. And you just better shut the fuck up! No one wants to know who satan really is, especially from the lips from someone as black and "GOD forsaken" as I am.

"GOD forsaken" is the lie my "birther" always taught me. The blessings for Me, for Us, ROME WALTERS  always taught Us different!

It was indeed SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST , where We were concerned.  GOD was going to learn! GOD  was going to quit dumping little black , worthless bastards on her.

World, mjw was an incredulous imp,  determined to destroy GOD! mjw was just fool enough to falsely believe the dirt she gleamed from murdered men's graves ,  got on her demon possessed knees to collect , was powerful.

WHAT A GOD FORSAKEN FOOL!

That thang still occupying the white house,  does falsely believe he's got it covered, that he can't lose.  he really thinks his Opulent, stolen wealth is enough, that he, the World's biggest  fool , can actually destroy GOD.

The fact ,  a little feeble minded, addle brain, lying imp,  thinks he can make a true child of GOD,  do anything GOD hasn't pre-ordained is an abomination to The HOLY GHOST!

Dear wo/man,  dear djt, your money is mere paper, it isn't even covered by Gold or GOD!

You can't hide, you are being made known! Wait, there remains help for you. You do not have to die unrepentant like your twin.

Humble yourself, repent, cry out to GOD, be not ashamed.

Now, today he is mad as hell, embarrassed as fuck,  caught yet again in deep stupidity!

The thing mjw, djt, and most people fail to realize , evil don't love nobody.

Put all of your Trust in The HOLY SPIRIT and move on!

BEAMING!!!

Ironically, that is how I came to know The HOLY GHOST!

mjw was screeching, hollering, demanding that I submit to one of her brutal "slave beatings", yet again.

I was only eight years old but,  The HOLY SPIRIT  engulfed me, set me on Fire! Yes, it was Fire shut up in my bones.

The Holy Spirit rendered my sick, evil, depraved "mother" weak. s/he could only laugh. I avoided a dehumanizing beating and gained Christ.

My brother refused to trust GOD, put on three pair of pants, that slut beat the brakes off of him, as usual.

 My five brothers lost their testicles early. How could they not? mjw was a MONGREL MONSTROSITY ! The only creature on this good Earth lower than a mathy jane walters,  is, djt.

No, I refuse to count my my lost. I have Great Gain! 

I have the LORD Jesus Christ as my Redeemer!

That stanking whore is yet rotting in her dirty little grave and the only people grieving her are just like her.

BEAMING!!!

Did s/he get away? Did I always know? Did I deny and deny because I didn't know, or was it because I didn't have the strength and  the courage to know?

I do know the people of Wesley AME Zion Church knew. I know they knew enough to call her a common slut behind her back.

"Common as bat shit" was the word on martha jane walters.  s/he was that slut sitting on the porch beckoning the weak with her long eyelashes.

Yes, her skin was alabaster white but, you would pay with your dear soul if you ever "loved"her.

Yes, mjw's mind was that of a reprobate, always.

HORROR UNLEASHED!

SO!?

GOD got this!

IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

That imp occupying the white house can't win

he is a PATHOLOGICAL LIAR!

THE TRUTH IS NOT IN HIM!

"From such stay away, shun the very presence of evil"

If you are born into it as I was, rise above it, climb out of it!

mjw was never more than a sadistic, lying piece of shit! 

A whore so common , not only did s/he boast of flushing five of her babies down the toilet, 

the dumb whore MURDERED HER OWN FATHER!

REDUCED HER FIVE SONS TO SUCH DUNG , THEY STILL FEAR TESTIFYING AGAINST HER.

DON'T WORRY ABOUT THEM, THEY ARE LIKE MOST PEOPLE, OF LITTLE FAITH.

THEY DON'T READ, THEY DON'T CARE TO READ, THEY ARE LOST, SATISFIED PRETENDING TO LOVE A DEAD DEMON! 

A DEAD DEMON THAT DELIGHTED IN RUINING EVERY LIFE S/HE TOUCHED FOR EIGHTY-EIGHT YEARS!