Let Me tell You Something!

That was generally the first sentence a so called "Christian" started out with when they got ready to tell you off, to put you in your place. In some "black" cultures this was the unofficial announcement that you were about to get "Read". To get "read" was to get told off "sho nuff'". A reading is not just telling someone how you feel about them, it is revealing long kept secrets. When a person reads you that generally signals finality. "We are finished! I have had it! I am feed up!"

That happens in life because we are human. For what ever reason it is hard for human beings to get along , in our families, on our jobs, in our churches. A part of the reason is human selfishness. Most people are too self absorbed, too judgmental, too human, to get along perfectly. That is why we need Jesus.

It is Monday, December 27, 2010. and I am blogging and listening to old Gospel music, having old time black church in my bedroom. I am happy , I am loving it. It conjures up great memories. It reminds me that I once had a very beautiful life. I lived on a big farm out in the country and I had a wonderful loving grandfather to nurture and protect me. That life was taken from me when I was four years old.

Luckily for me my grandfather remained a very stabilizing force in my life until I was twenty eight years old.

There are two important facts that my grandfather taught me that have guided me my entire life. He taught me that time changes all things. And He taught me that man does not do what is right, man does what is convenient.

That brings us to this blog. I am blogging to heal and to hone my writing skills. I have completed the book about my life and it is a fantastic read. It chronicles a very exciting journey. The best part of my book is that the redemptive intercessionary power of our Almighty GOD is revealed throughout my life. The worse part of my book is my arch nemesis, my "mother, my birther. It is a sad book because it is totally unnecessary. My experiences have taught me that a lot of pain that people suffer is unnecessary. My only answer is that it is all in divine order,GOD is working it out and the devil can not win.

THE READING:

"Let me tell you something! No, you just shut up! Shut your lying mouth! You have never told the truth about anything in your entire life!!! I am talking EIGHTY-FIVE years! How can you live so long and be so blind and so stupid? Every problem you have you can trace back to your lying mouth!"

"Sit down! Shut Up and listen for once. You messed up and you messed up bad. You didn't just go down the wrong road. You went running head first and destroyed your life early on. Well it is one thing to destroy your own life. But why have you tried to deliberately destroy the lives of your own children? Are you really that jealous?"

"Well I am standing here looking down on you in that hole you dug for yourself. I can't pull you out. I guess GOD can get you out if you let him. But while I have you here there is some explaining that you are going to have to do before you leave."

#1 - Why are you a pathological liar?

#2 - Why are you so cruel?

#3 - Why did you orchestrate and participate in the sexual abuse of your daughter?

#4 - Why won't you tell your son who his father is?

#5 - Why do you suffer so much from envy and jealousy?

#6 - Why did you murder your own father?

#7 - Why do you insist on living a lie when everyone knows the truth?

#8 - Can you Love the LORD?

#9 - Will you repent of your sins? "

"We didn't come here to stay always dawter. It is time for all of us to pack up to get ready to go. Oh yea you got to go. We all got to go. Sooner or later you lefting here. You got to move! When the LORD gets ready you got to move."

Dear Children, continue in his word, set yourselves apart, come ye out from among them. Pray every day!

Be a Blessing and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel