I Don't Hate Her!

Let me make that clear right now! I hate what she did! I hate that she was a thick headed wicked reprobate.  I hate that she never learned from her mistakes.  Only made each of her mistakes far worse by lying, scheming and trying to cover. I hate she never believed in herself.  Saw her talent and beauty in her children and chose to be a hater, a blocker. Didn't want to share what GOD gave her with anyone.  Demanded to be a taker , never a giver.  Never ever believed her children were a gift from GOD but rather her possessions , tools, rugs, doormats.  A curse from GOD, punishment for fornication.

In Martha's ignorant mind and misinterpretation of GOD's WORD little black bastard children didn't count.  Praising GOD with your mouth and running to church every Sunday impressed GOD, kept you from your just deserts.  Made your sins invisible.  Who was going to look in the pulpit , on the Dias for satan's disiple?  Do all the dirt you please, get a license to preach.  It is a win win situation. You can't lose! It is fool proof fool.  Plus if they ever find out, finally figure you out, you will be long since dead! You win ! Yea, you will spend eternity in hell. But so what!?  87 years of doing what you please, 87 years of sheer terrifying evil camouflaged behind a beautiful smile and a "mother 's love" was worth it.

Become a reprobate if you want to, you will lose your capacity for "natural affection".

I hate the fact that my mother chose to only look out for herself for 87 years.  I hate the fact that she used her beauty and GOD given gifts to confuse and enslave.

I do hate the fact that she murdered my grandfather and got away with it.  I hate the fact that such a good Christian man was so mistreated and so misunderstood by his own daughter.

I hate the fact that I have to tell this awful story. BUT I DONT HATE HER!

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceeding proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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