Standing up over here like a Boss!

Seriously, finally starting to fully understand some things. 

"Count it all Joy." : GOD what kind of  **** is that? (Does GOD have any idea how treacherous this World is? Can [HE] possibly know what I've been through?)

 Now, I fully get it. No matter what it is, no matter how long it lasts, BE HAPPY!   I don't  care how much you lose or who you lose, count it ALL Joy.

Of course , tragic , sudden deaths,  that of a baby, or loved one,  hurts like hell, but, there is Joy in it.  How so? One example, my grandfather was an ABSOLUTE GENIUS! Always wise as Solomon.

He was MURDERED  suddenly. Very tragic! 1979 and I still cry.

Well, he visits me all the time. Helped me win a house. He actually tried to tell on his "murdering daughter". WE were too dumb, and  too terrorized at the time ,  to respond appropriately , anyway.

Finally, I  have looked at it differently. He was old, eighty-four, he was an amputee,  confined to a wheelchair.  He was suffering. His daughter was a "BONIFIED"  fool, hot tempered maniac that only a fool would dare resist.

Talk about whoop yo'ass! The bitch would fucking salivate you, then dare you to cry or tell.

I did  actually admire some things about  my "mother".  Her tenacity, her fool proof schemes of "Gittin' Money". Con game after Con game, my "mother", never saw a broke day in EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS, ELEVEN MONTHS AND TWENTY-TWO DAYS!

No man could brag that he ever beat my "mother's" ass!  NEVER!  Yes, S/HE BEAT ASS! S/he was the abuser(LOL).

I get it now. These "Evangelicals" want wo/men to be SUBMISSIVE! Fuck that! 

Ain't none of these dumb muthafuckers ever read the Bible. Yet, these un-read illiterates demand to ram it down everyone's throat. Bitch, you can't make me do what you damn sure don't do!

Look, take it from an "old woman", most of these "lying muthafuckers" are lying. Half Gay ass. 

My "mother' was closet gay, a serious Bull dagger. S/he was born too early. I know s/he would  have come proudly  out of the Closet if s/he were born in this era.

Anyway, the shit is a lie.

In the words of my "Dear departed mother" , that racism ran slap-dab crazy; "Run yo'shoes ova' and I'll run my bizness."

BEAMING!!!