Another accounting...

***The GWEN DOSTER Diaries***

The first law of "physics"; Cause and Effect, for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.
"Of course I never had any way of  knowing why this not so secret slut was always so horribly cruel to me in the privacy of her "home". "Home", Nothing but a fucking dungeon on par with any other despicable  PERVERTED INCESTUOUS PEDOPHILE SADISTIC PSYCHOPATH's dwelling!

Am I angry? Am I pissed? I'm hot as fish grease because my "mother", mjw was totally unnecessary, could have been prevented if my people had not been kidnapped from Africa, forced into the most inhue-man CHATTEL SLAVERY FOR TOO FUCKING LONG!

At any rate, while still healing from ducking, dodging, narrowly escaping,  a complete succubus for sixty-two years, I am eternally grateful to GOD. I am humbled, I am thankful. While my sick evil "birther" did take advantage of her skin color and hair texture to become the mongrel monstrosity s/he always was,  turned out to be, it was never necessary.

In the end my "mother" tried to pretend s/he did all of that sick shit for eighty plus years because s/he as ashamed to be "homosexual", absolutely  hated men and wanted to be one.

Not for one more moment shall I ever believe GOD is against the practice of "homosexuality" between consenting adults.

The "Church" is against homosexually . Not for the reasons of procreation or "Biblical law". The "Church" was highjacked by satan, evil wo/men over two thousand years ago.  All these laws are for control, for profit. The greedy ass 1% demand to keep 99% of the wealth of the world because they have little faith in GOD. They only trust money, wealth , ill gotten gain.

They can't help it. They are demonic.  So, GOD is still good! Still mysterious. Still awesome.

This one particular day, I am around eight years old, brown, cute as a button, smart, loved by every one but my "birther".

mjw was truly an imp, her feet were always swift to run to mischief.  So,  by now I've been raped, severely burned, head shaved three times, blind as a bat with no glasses, beaten into unconsciousness by the secret cowardly beast , that never missed "Church" or the opportunity to recite scripture.

Anyway, the closet slut was always sending me to my big empty room that overlooked the beautiful, well manicured quadrangle of Honeycutt Road, Fort Bragg, North Carolina.  This particular day s/he was really full of herself, bragging about how beautiful and near white s/he was.  For some reason s/he decided to let me have twenty or thirty of her empty shoe boxes.

mjw loved to shop, s/he was a shopaholic, for herself mind you. Everything was for her, nothing for you. Nothing for us, we were just some little black bastards s/he was kind enough to keep.  ENSLAVE, RAPE, MOLEST, BRUTALIZE, ALWAYS CRITICIZE , TEAR DOWN AND HUMILIATE, never love, just pretend to.  Throw a few token gifts then immediately  demand their loyalty, obedience and silence.

So, this day, the cruddy cunt loaded my empty closet up with all those beautiful shoe boxes, I was inspired by Captain Kangeroo and built a fucking TOWN! I used my broken crayons, scissors, and magazines,  to build a whole western town! Complete with a saloon, church, hotels, and even a cemetery.

It was beautiful! I decorated every box, inside and out. I had fun! I had shutters on the windows, my doors could open and close.

BEAMING  because GOD keeps a ram in the bushes.

Never fear a demon. If you need courage, ask.