Chet Baker - Time After Time

***The GWEN DOSTER Diaries***

All I know, is all I know. "No weapon formed against me shall ever prosper." NEVER! 

Here I am closing in on sixty-nine years of  "struggling for survival" on this planet Earth. Have I been confused, persecuted, hated, assaulted, raped and ruined for  the color of my skin? Well, that is what all the evil doers claimed.  "YOU'RE TOO BLACK! GET BACK!"  

Not only have the low sluts claimed my good looks, "good hair", fine shape and intellectual brilliance of no importance but,  an absolute waste.

Seriously World? Am I to believe what my own "mother" always taught me, that I am  cursed by Almighty GOD for being born black?

My ignorant , demon possessed , slutty,  mother taught me that from birth. s/he could do no wrong because she was light bright and damn near white, and there was nothing I could ever do right. Yes, the bitch said that shit out loud!

Not in the presence of everyone,  mind you, just her select few of approved imps.   Dimwits, blind sheep, the sons s/he gleefully emasculated. Her wo/men too. Yes, if you "knew" mjw, you were forever her dutiful slave.

Yes, the slut was very selective, changed personalities liked s/he changed her shoes and wigs, and wo/men.

World, my "birther" was a ROOT WORKER, a Conjurer. s/he studied the Occult ravenously , infiltrated the Church in order to wreck havoc on GOD's elect. s/he preached, secured a license to preach so s/he could continue pretending to be a godly wo/man after MURDERING HER OWN DADDY!

YES,  the low whore was so corrupt, so foul, so despicable, so demon possessed, s/he was in fact LEGION!

Wait, before you blame Almighty GOD for my "mother". The Holy Spirit gave US the Book, told US to study it in order to show ourselves approved.  WE didn't, WE don't. We are lazy , faithless dullards that much prefer entertainment to true righteousness.

YES,  it appears the modern day Church is nothing but a "den of thieves". Liars, Jesus pimps, charlatans, bogus liars, incestuous pedophiles.

Where was the Church, the African Methodist Episcopal Zion Church when I reached out to them to pray for my mother years before s/he finally expired? Nothing, crickets , MOGs and GODs ashamed of my Truth.

What kind of real pastor would allow any member of his congregation , of his pulpit staff to sink so low? Someone just like her. Just another fake, a liar, a prostitute, and empty vessel reaching for the money.

While my "mother" and many , many others have always gone way out of their way to bring me misery, to block my blessings, The Holy Ghost has always kept me. "Time after Time."

There is no telling how much torture I was forced to endure at my "mother's" hands before I could talk. My body remembers, GOD spared my mind.  But, when I finally learned to talk , I told my GrandDDADDY about that common ass slut's daily hot soapy enemas.

I don't know what GranDDADDY  said but , what ever he said put a screeching halt to those hot soapy enemas.  Of course, I've come to the  realization,  many years later, mjw was indeed a SEX PERVERT!

Yes, World a very sick one. Mountains of pornography always stuffed to brim under her bed. Chests of Drawers stuffed with "goofer dust". Dirt the volunteer haint got down on her knees and gathered  from  murdered men's graves.

YES , I AM HORRIFIED! SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS BECAUSE SOME MONGREL MONSTROSITY WAS ALLOWED, PERMITTED, ENCOURAGED TO TORMENT, PERSECUTE AND USE MY TINY INNOCENT BODY FOR HER SICK RECREATION, HER CARNAL LUSTS,  AND NO ONE IN MY LIFE CARED OR DID ANYTHING TO PROTECT ME , EXCEPT FOR  MY GRANDDADDY, ROME WALTERS!

WHAT DID HE GET FOR HIS TROUBLE? A .38 BULLET THROUGH THE HEART! HIS DEMONIC, SLUTTY DAUGHTER STRAINING OUT FAKE TEARS AT HIS FUNERAL. 

YES, LORD, in my heart of hearts, I know mjw meant that .38 bullet for me. It was coming fast. The more I soared, excelled. The more her voodoo BACKFIRED, the more that anti-Christ tried to destroy me.

Yes, s/he demanded that I return to her "den iniquity the Christmas of '78. I flat refused. s/he tried every ploy s/he could to lure me "home". Finally at twenty-seven and living in Atlanta on my own , I EMPHATICALLY REFUSED!

A low fallen cretin, unable to control her rage, February 10, 1979, mjw shot ROME WALTERS in  his precious , tender heart. The low slut refused to let us grieve properly.

s/he promptly stole all of his savings and bought a new house! Died laughing, swearing s/he got completely away.

No, martha, it just wasn't your time for display.  TODAY IS! Yes, mjw, Friday the 13TH is your day! You shall not get away with your filth! Your lies! Your SHEER DEBAUCHERY ! YOUR FAKE, SHAKY WALK WITH CHRIST!

ALL OF US WERE  SO TERRIFIED OF THAT SUCCUBUS , WE SAT THROUGH THAT FUNERAL IN UTTER SILENCE.

DEAR LORD,  PLEASE FORGIVE US, WE DIDN'T KNOW. NO ONE WAS EVER ALLOWED TO TELL ON mathy jane.

Thus , all the fake love for Christ, thus all the fake preaching.  Check this out, mjw did not recommend "Bible reading" or Bible study of any kind. The slut actually taught US, WE were too dumb, that the true knowledge of GOD was over OUR, my , heads.

s/he was the only one smart enough to interpret GOD's Word and WE better  HURRY UP AND shut the fuck up questioning or contradicting her.

Yes, mjw preached the same cherry picked scripture as every jealous, envious,  evildoer,  ravenous wolves.  What the slut couldn't stop was GOD, DIVINE ORDER, Biblical prophesy.

"What is done in the dark shall surely come to light."  Yes, I was horrified , momentarily, then I remembered all that low whore for satan was ultimately unable to accomplish. I'm walking on air!College degreed , with honors! Talents and gifts too numerous to count. And 99% of mjw's sick schemes's to destroy me and mine, UNFULFILLED!

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