Dear LORD! I Thank You because only You LORD know!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, May 18, 20/20

Dear LORD I Thank You! On bended knees, I Thank You! Yes, I am deeply humbled. Out of all your children, you chose me.  Hovered over me, protecting me, leading and guiding me "down through the years".

Yes, some one or "some ones" made a tragic mistake permitting martha to always have her evil, demonic, violent, vulgar way.   Far too many people were always deathly afraid of martha.  Yes, s/he was a terrorist. A man woman, more man than woman. No wonder she was a Lesbian, a closet homosexual.

s/he was also extremely childish, as jealous as any two year old toddler. Is that why s/he relished every opportunity to sexually molest small children?

While a great debate shall always rage concerning the Bible, good scripture, I know the Bible saved my life. I am sure I would have never known, or heard of the "anti-mother" without reading on my own.

I've never heard one pastor expose evil "pastors", evil, jealous, demon possessed, "root working" preachers, "Mothers of the Church" , like mine.

For all my long life I have been told to shut my mouth.  That no one cares. That there is no such thing as "Demon possession".  My skin is too dark, I should be glad my life wasn't worse.

My "own mother" taught me that I was cursed! That GOD designated me to be crucified, persecuted, exploited,  for my entire life. That there was nothing I could do but suffer.  Yet, s/he on the other hand deserved the best in life because s/he was "light bright and damn near white".

How horrid! I know now martha never believed a word of that rot. s/he was just a low whore, a hue-man maggot! Deplorable! Disgusting! Yet, loved! How? I am the only victim willing to speak up, to speak out against her.

No, I don't blame my brothers. That low common slut from the bowels of hell cut their "nuts" out at birth. Then the low life whore taught them conjure, voodoo.  So what! "What is done in the dark shall surely come to light."

For all those people that shun me, that tell me to shut the fuck up, guard your children. WE shall never know the number of young men and women that whore martha jane walters deliberately soiled, mutilated, flushed down the toilet and laughed  .  

I do know the number of suicides went up significantly in Cumberland County  when fine young black men were left in her "tender care".

All I know, Jesus told US to know Our Truth. I know mine. It is crystal clear, martha jane walters was LEGION!  So what! No weapon formed against the Righteous has ever prospered.

Dear LORD, thank you for sending me , Us, this poem. I shall cherish it forever.

"THE FINGER OF GOD"

SilVano Daniel Terrell

Wednesday, May 13, 20/20

Abba, Father

Send , Compassion to the sensitive souls

Touch their thoughts and emotions that are impaired 

with Your finger

Reconnect them to this realm

Return them from wandering,

Lost in realms of deception or (mis) created realm of survival

Held captive against their will

Touch O repairer of breeches

The portals left open for lions to enter

Seal the opening with your healing balm

Holy Spirit come smooth out, relieve and untangle the knotted nerves,

Apply the Balm of Gilead

Whisper truth to the sad, depressed, oppressed and repressed souls

Help them to find expression through You

Help them to create beauty and wonder through You,  who are the original Creator

of All things , Where they have been hit with BLUNT FORCE TRAUMA,

Reverse the damage done

Restore them like New

Let Peniel (the face of GOD) drive away the Legion of accusers

that torment night and day

Show them Tender Mercies, Love and Kindness

And Teach Us LORD to be Kind."

Yes, this is one AWESOME Poem! Every time I re-read it, I heal a little more. The Walters clan was fresh out of slavery.  My grandfather was born "free" but , how free was he? Free to obey the white man, free to attempt to survive in one of the worse eras for racial persecution and Genocide this World has ever know.

Under sever oppression Rachel and Rome Walters bore a "child".  "Child", I'm afraid not, they birthed LEGION!

But, it is alright. There is a Balm in Gilead and GOD's Truth is rapidly setting me free.  Free all my "loved ones" GOD.  Free all of my fellow victims. Restore them LORD. Remind them Our Tormentor is finally long dead.

BEAMING!