"Oh ye of little faith ..."

Increase your faith.  Close your eyes.  Trust GOD.  No matter what you are going through, trust GOD to lead and guide you.  He will bring you trough it greater than when you went in.

"All things work together for the good of those that love the LORD."  Adversity can make or break you.  Don't let that demon break you!  When adversity or tragedy comes, don't walk away from GOD.  Run to GOD!

"The greater the trial, the greater the difficulty, the greater the blessing" (Brother Ricky Bradford)

I've have had some great tragedy in my life.  My mother is an albatross.  A lying whore that lives to inflict pain.  We all know it, always knew it.  But, part of her pathology is to deny your pain.  You are forbidden to cry or complain while she laughs.  I am tormented because I hate her but I love the LORD.  The LORD told me to hate no man.  But, this woman is beyond sick, beyond sadistic.  Dear LORD, how can I love her?  Yes I did love her, once, growing up.  It was the natural love that a child has, is born with.  As I grew that love turned to fear, then hope.

It was a series of events that opened my eyes this last time.  There is no hope.  I refused to believe she MURDERED my grandfather until it became crystal clear.  It was when I finally recalled all of the perversion.  Only a woman with a perverted mind such as hers could MURDER their saintly father.

They say hate the sin , don't hate the person.  How do you separate the two when she has never stopped.  The more you forgive the worse she gets.  I feel very foolish when I recount the many awful acts I forgave her for.  I feel even dumber when I trace so much tragedy and menacing deeds back to her.  The bible says "their feet are swift to run to mischief."  That's her, that's Mathy.  The whole time this ignorant boob is laughing.  Pretending to enjoy the pain she inflicts.  I don't believe it for one second.  She is caught in a loop. She feels low and unworthy for the things she has done, for the life she has lead.  Then when she encounters any one she grows jealous and plots, commits evil.  Then she feels lower and more unworthy than before.  Then she repeats the cycle.  You can't help her.  She hates and resents you for trying to help her.  She hates you for not being as dirty and low down.  You can't win.  You can not befriend or love her.  No matter what you do you will get the same result.  A stab in the back.  "From such stay away."

Throwing your shoes and clothes away is her favorite (secret) ploy. She will even help you look for your stuff.  It took me years to finally figure out why I was always losing one shoe.  She loves to mess with "dodo".  I was four years old and a neighbor offended her and she smeared a large quantity of fecal matter on his door.  I was around 18 and I picked up my bath cloth to wash my face and it was full of fecal matter!  She mailed me her fecal matter in a letter.

That's too weird, too disgusting, mailing people chicken guts and fecal matter.  Just as soon as she does it she pretends that she didn't do it.  Say she did it!  Accuse her if you dare.  You just might get stabbed or shot. Getting off with just a good cussing out is simply due to her age and distance.

No, I can't say she is crazy because she is too smart.  I can call her demon possessed and a fake Christian with the up most confidence.   She demands to be feared.  I refuse!  You can't hate her but she can hate you.

Forget what she did to me.  It is what I saw, it is what I know she did to my brothers.  Adolf Hitler didn't have a mind like hers.  He killed , he tortured, but not like this woman.  I will not retell it here.  The world is not ready.  I am not ready.

The fact that she could take an old rusty .38 pistol and the blow her father's heart out and dare us to know, to say anything, is horrifying enough.  I am ashamed to say that we were dumb enough, terrified enough to be duped.  She just lived too long.  I came to my senses too soon.  Not soon enough, but too soon for her.  I can't lie and cloak for her.   Call me a prude.  I have never liked whorish women, men either.  Promiscuity in anyone reviles me.

Preaching!  Why!?  Perverted!  Just as perverted as the day is long! Does she think her "preaching" pleases GOD?  Is it her homemade repentance?  If she can bring others to Christ with her eloquent preaching and performing, GOD will feel flattered and let her off the hook?  No one brags about what a great preacher she is more than she does.  Poor woman, she demands the good seats in high places.  Demands to be seen, lauded and loved.  Demands that you forget the awful things she has done to you over and over and over.  86 and will still cuss you the **** out!

It is hilarious, an old woman with a filthy mouth.  I did get that from her. (I'm working on it)

Poor Mathy Jane scrambled her own brain with her witchcraft and hoodoo.  Let that be a lesson to you!  Stay away from witchcraft, palm and tarot card readers.  Do not call the psychic  hot line.  Don't even read your horoscope!  DO NOT EVER GO DOWN ON A GRAVE COLLECTING "GOOFER DUST"!