Yes ma'am ...

I know what it is to be tortured, to be brought low.  I know what it is to be miserable.  To be held hostage by a "stanking skant" too repulsive and cowardly to acknowledge herself.

Yea, brother I know what long suffering truly is.  Maybe reincarnation is real.  It could be that I'm getting paid back for a horrible life I lived thousands of years ago.

Deep inside I know that none of that is true.  All my answers, all truth is in GOD's WORD.  GOD gave us a book and if we study it we can not avoid knowing His truth.  "For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, And stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry." (1 Samuel 15: 23a)

"Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams." (verse 22 b)

My grandfather taught me that a "little learning" was a dangerous thing.  My mother Martha only got a "little learning".  She never had the thirst for knowledge her father had.  She never acquired his integrity or honesty.  Just pretty enough to be called beautiful.  Unfortunately too common to be any one's wife or mother.  But brilliant, cunning and cruel enough to get over on the world for eighty-six years.

That's not quite true.  She burned many that knew to flee her.  Some talked about her, told the truth.  Most didn't because they usually shared her unspeakable sins before they caught on.  She will involve you in something that you would not tell GOD.  That's pretty smart.  A plot designed by Satan himself.  Then there is the voodoo, the black magic.

Any woman carnal enough, wicked enough to solicit demonic spirits should be avoided, shunned.  But, if you are born into the clutches of such a woman you're in trouble.  You need the LORD Jesus Christ.We all need Jesus, but children of such women need our prayers and intervention.

There are too many such children suffering on this earth.  There are far too many uncaring "Christians" too busy living their phony lives to get involved in some one's miserable tortured life.

These "Christians" continue to attend church ever Sunday.  Singing, praying, paying their tithes, secretly glad someone is more miserable than they are.  Such abandoned and tortured souls make them feel a little better. They get to brag about their great pedigree.  How their mother and father were always happily married, never argued, never had a spat.  Their parents were never whorish or carnal.  They were never molested or even whipped.

These holier than thou "Christian" saints convince themselves that they are somehow more blessed, better than and therefore do not have to concern themselves with the misery of the low class.  They may here tell that their very own associate minister is such a pedophile, a MURDERER.  They don't care.  "So what?  It happened a long time ago.  I don't believe it.  She's so nice, she's so pretty. ..S***! the ***** might mess around and put a "root" on me."

"Tough tiddy! ... glad it wasn't me."  Still secretly glad just the same because that "Christian" saint really doesn't have much.  If nothing else let the world admire their college degrees, their miserable marriages that they pretend are so wonderful.  Let the world admire and envy as Sister or Brother So-in-so gloat while driving around in their luxury cars.  Walk a little taller, puff up your pomposity as you park your status symbol in your three car garage in the mini  mansion you know you will never pay for.

The world has too many problems. You can't concern yourself with scarred abused children.  Why say something now?  The fact is you are no better than she is.  She can not love or care about another human being on this earth and neither can you.

"I wish she would shut up already!"  "I'm tired of hearing about it."   "If Gawd want to do sump'in to hur He will ... let bygones be bygones."

One thing you better know.  Every WORD in that book is true! You will reap what you sow.  What did Jesus tell you?  "If you did it unto the least one of these... you did it unto me."

I was the "least one of theses".  Born to a known whore that hated me in the womb.  Never a father in evidence.  Born too black to be loved.  A mother that traded her children to her perverted husband and lovers for a few dollars and laughed.   A woman that still believes she got over on the church and GOD.  A denomination, the A.M.E.Zion church, and a family, still too sorry or too terrified to do any thing about her.  Children so wounded, so miserable, they languish, not knowing which way to turn.

Woman!  You did every thing demonic to me that you could.  You think you ruined my life.  WELL YOU DIDN'T! Out of all the heartless miserable things you've done over 86 years there is one thing you should not have done.  You should not have taken my granddaddy's life.  You are not worthy to wipe his feet.  You stand there stoic and seething with anger and rage because I know and I won't shut up.  I will never shut up! You may never confess and you may never be indicted.  But, I will never shut up!

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)