The Just shall live by faith..."

Born poor,black and female; faith is all I ever had.  I had a loving grandfather that lived by faith. Never waivered! Not once in 84 years!

I thank GOD for him because he was right.  "Jesus will fix it."  He told me that over and over for years and years as we struggled as a family trying to "love the hell" out of Martha, Mathy Jane, Mathy, Janie, Martha Jean, Madame Watson, Reverend Watson, Martha Lamoureaux.

I am sitting here in awe, once terrified, now free.   I am amazed, astonished, still a little broken and torn.  I know one woman that took an entire family down, single handed.  Destroyed countless generations.

It took me 58 years to learn that she was truly demon possessed.  But, I am praising GOD because I found out in time.

I remember being intrigued by the report of an elderly black "man's" death  some years ago.  This "man" had lived in this community for quite some time, was married and had "children".  The undertaker was shocked to discover the "man"'s "strapon" when he was preparing the body.  It seems the dear departed was actually a woman and had been living a lie for decades.  This woman lived as a man for 70 plus years, attended church every Sunday, was the church organist!  The community was shocked.  "His" widow claimed that she was just as shocked, that she didn't know.  He was always very modest, she had never seen "him" naked and the children were adopted.

That's how I feel about my "mother".  She was just as phony as that "man".  Martha Jane Walters lived a complete lie.  A cruel lying psychotic pedophile! Just beautiful enough, brilliant enough and charming enough to destroy countless generations.

Of course when I started on this journey of searching for the truth I had no clear idea what a narcissist was.  Narcissistic Personality Disorder is very new to me, new to most of the world I imagine.  It is a very sad and distressful situation.  It is so hard to explain to people why you refuse to have any thing to do with your own mother.  Why news of her death failed to produce one tear.  If the truth be known, I am actually very relieved.

There is a book that I must read, must promote; "The Narcissism Epidemic" by Keith Campbell, Ph.D.
The world is in a crisis.  Psychologists and psychiatrists are scrambling trying to understand this "mental illness".

I am going to read this book because I want to know what the "experts" think.  I hurt for the destroyed children and I want this madness to end.  But I already know exactly what happened to my mother.  Born fast and evil, without a moral compass, a "bad seed".  She came here to do what she did, destroy.

She didn't get all of us! Praise the LORD!

Stay in His WORD children. Please read Hebrews 10:38 today.  Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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