I WON THE LOTTERY!!!

Praise the LORD! I am one of His select! I have been chosen!  The Dear LORD looked down on this little speck of dust and out of His bowels of mercies poured His blessings and gifts on me.

No, my grandfather had no idea what those two buzzards intended for us.  How could he know?  I am sure he had never heard of any woman being so common and low down.  Nor did he know that any man could be so weak for a "yalla damn near white" woman.

I've thought about it and prayed about it.  It was never "sexual".  They weren't seeking pleasure or pain.  Those two buzzards were after power.  Two ignoramuses, evenly yoked in their scumminess.  Who knew?  Definitely a case of the blind leading the blinder , dumb and dumber , stupider and stupidest.

I was only four years old but every moment of that historic event was seared into my consciousness. I was a child and I could sense granddaddy's uneasiness .  There was Mathy Jane standing there grinning with her jet black little n**** soldier husband in tow.  He was quite a bit younger than she was and his little country Hawkinsville, Georgia brain was ripe for Mathy Jane's indoctrination , manipulation and poisoning.

Well it didn't work!  I know you feel stupid laying there rotting in the ground.  You mean to tell me that in 87 years on this planet you never caught on?  Beating and stabbing people for calling you an ignorant vicious savage! Hating every one that simply knew you were a lying whore.  That's what you were among other things.

The very last thing you told me, the very words that came out of your mouth were; "Don't piss on my grave when I'm dead!"  Why did you say that?  How could you utter a sentence so vulgar to your only daughter?  I know.  You were possessed by a demon.  A demon that you invited into your heart.  A demon that you nourished, hid and cloaked for.

Remember that "just and honest due" I used to tell you about? You got it.  GOD told me why you always bragged about your color and hair.  That's all you had.  You were as common as bat s***.  No decent man would have you.  Your reputation was so bad, so called decent people refused to be in the same room with you.  Instead of changing or a least compromising you  tried to play GOD.  In your dumb little small mind you thought you had all the answers.  Ran all over Virginia, North and South Carolina seeking "two headed doctors", practitioners of witchcraft.

You just knew you were winning. satan told you that your plan was fool proof, that you were invisible, totally undetectable, truly a stealth demon.  The devil didn't tell you that you were going to get old and slip up.  Jesus told me to look at your fruit and you cursed Him.  (LORD have mercy how can a minister of the Gospel curse Jesus?)

Now you know you could have repented, confessed your mountain of sins.  You chose not too.  Well eternity is for ever.  Never ending, "from everlasting to everlasting."

I want you to know that while our grandfather was packing our meager belongs in that cardboard suitcase he was praying for us.  And everyday of his life he prayed for us, guided us and gave us his sagely advice until February 10, 1979.  The day you took his life.  The day you took that old rusty .38 and pressed it to his heart.

YOU DID IT! YOU DID IT YOU STANKING S***!  Yes you did!  I got it now, you always played mentally ill and half cracked when it suited you.  No Mathy Jane the word for you is EVIL.  Human EVIL.  And you have the nerve to demand to rest in peace.  The same way you told me, told us; :Don't you f***** think back n*****!"  DONT YOU TELL A MUTHAF****** THANG DAT GO ON IN DIS HOUSE!"

I am bragging today children.  I am living proof that GOD will bring you out, make your enemy your foot stool.  Your cup will run over, you will give and not borrow, you will be the head and not the tail.  GOD will give you the power of discernment and you will walk on satan's little imps like grains of sand.  I AM A WINNER!!!

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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