Can you smell that?

Inhale deeply! Do you know what you are smelling? Desolation is coming.  I smell some smite coming. Justice is on it's way, praise the LORD!

I have been abused horribly, called foul names, threatened.  (Probably rooted, she taught two of my brothers the art.  I am glad she didn't share that talent with me.  She used it against me and it is Backfiring! Praise the LORD!)

Threaten my life for telling the absolute TRUTH if you want to.  The GOD I serve told me to tell it!  I obey GOD, not a loose band of broken "misfits".  I include myself in that description.  Of course we are not "normal". (who is?)  The (     ) (     ) taught us to hate each other, to distrust each other, to use people, to flim flam. (y'all should not have followed her)

My granddaddy was a gentleman, a true southern gentleman.  He did not gossip, lie, curse or attempt to deceive in any manner.  He was truly a good Christian! He saved my life.  No children don't you dare think GOD abandoned him in any way.  GOD delivered him! Praise the LORD! He promised me that Jesus would fix it one day. He knew! I know and you can't make me doubt him.

She was a bully! A RAPIST!  A MURDERER!  She was!  The fact that she was always extremely lying, manipulative and whorish should be no mystery to anyone in my family.  We all witnessed and experienced horrendous abuse.  Not one day, not some time, all the time.   That is one of the reasons she could not keep a man.  Much too clamorous , much too loud and ignorant.  An ignorant banshee! (LORD forbid)

So what is the point of all this secrecy?  You know she hated me! You know better than I do how evil, low down and trecherous this woman was. Children, every lie she told on me was "Mathy Jane'.  She was the lesbian.  She was so common, insanely jealous, manipulative, cold and selfish she made sure that I was so horribly sexually abused that I would always be frigid, always asexual.

That does anger me, convincing all of my relatives that I am a "dike" (her words) When she was in fact the lesbian.  I always sensed that she was gay, but I didn't care.   I think a person's sexual preference is their personal right.

Poor Martha, pinned all her sins on me, became a fake preacher, worked roots, lied, cried, killed, did everything but repent.  God is no respecter of man.  I know why Martha did not repent.  She was not "studdin' 'bout going to no heaven she didn't believe in." That heifer used religion to control us.  She never believed in GOD for one moment.  It is impossible.  No one that loves the LORD could have lived the life she lived.

For some that can not imagine writing as career choice, that was my first choice, teaching was supposed to be a back up.    But, I made the sad mistake of telling my demon controlled mother.  Now I thought about the relatives screaming at me and all of this new found sudden love for someone we all enjoyed hating and staying away from.

I thought and I thought; where is all this passionate love and devotion coming from?  Was she that good? (perfect in her ability to hide her evil)  There is no way she could have convinced them that I am actually her, is there?  Malignant Narcissist are supposed to be brilliant at projecting.  Martha's behavior certainly supports that theory.

 I wrote sermons for her because she was my mother.  I was glad to.  I ordered sermons, showered her in gifts.  I was a good daughter.

I shutter! The Bible is real and it is being fulfilled.  PTL!

P.S. Rather than being overly concerned with how my truth may expose you, why don't you trust GOD? That is truly letting go and letting GOD,  by the way. "But, beloved, do not forget this one thing, that with the LORD one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years one day.  The LORD is not slack concerning His promise, as some count slackness, but is long-suffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that ALL should come to repentance."  2 Peter 3:8 - 9  GOD is patient!  Demons think GOD is too slow to act.  WRONG! He is right on time!

[Excerpt from The JR WALTERS Chronicles  Copyright June 17, 2014    All rights reserved]