Just when you thought ...

you knew everything, when you were so wise in your own eyes that GOD Himself could not get a message through to you.  "I KNOW!" prefaces every utterance you make.  Your brain has no more room for GOD's truth.  Your heart can not receive it.  You actually enjoy your ignorance, repeating and perpetuating filth and lies.

Dear LORD,  thank you for this opportunity to share your WORD totally without fear.  I do it with amazing pride.  I feel 12 feet tall!  So glad to be Free!  I am not selfish or self-centered.  Like my sweet Jesus, I want every one to be Free!  GOD set me free from an albatross, an artificial pretend mother.

I have been shut out of my family.  For what? For telling? How could I not?  My life (our lives) has been incredible and I know for a fact  that; "if it had not been for the LORD on my side..." I surely would have perished.

If you are angry with me or hate me for revealing family secrets, you are wrong and you don't know your worth.  That woman duped you, flim-flammed you, led you into captivity, planted you there and left you there to rot .  Why?  Because the no mannered, hard headed, disrespectful, vulgar heathen, squandered her own life, messed it up bad!   Rather than own her mistakes, turn from her wicked ways she turned to witch craft and manufacturing the most horrible lies in the entire world in order to maintain her false persona of "saved and sanctified", beautiful and perfect, the most educated, the wealthiest, the go to wise woman, the luckiest, your Miss Eva'thang.

Your constant adulation and fawning made her superior in her delusional mind.  True, it has taken and extraordinarily  long time to peel back all the complicated layers of Martha Jane. I know now that I was hindered by my own eyes.  I didn't want to see.    I couldn't bear it.  I preferred hanging on to every lie she told, hoping and praying that one day "Mathy Jane" would become the wonderful, dynamic woman of GOD she so slyly and serpent like  pretended to be.

The lies she perpetuated against me are starting to filter in.  So my family believes that I am a "dike" (her words not mine) on the strength of her smearing.  Why would she say such a thing? Projection, hidden shame, terrorized by her true self, too cowardly to recognize her own flaws.  Fueled by the deep sick secret hatred that she carried against me for my entire life.

"I payed her tuition!"  The biggest lie ever perpetuated on the face of this earth!  I, Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, did in fact educate myself! Totally!  Not one penny from my mother or father! How dare she! I worked in the laundry! I hustled rides, packed my little car with as many students as I could and drove them to the bus station or airport.  I was dishonest, I wrote and sold term papers, made copies of my excellent copious notes and sold them to students too lazy to go to class.  I let football players copy off of my test papers for money.

I only have one thing to say to all of those that still love the image she created in your head, she talked about you too, she told lies just as outrageous on you, she hated you just as much as she hated me.  We should  all get together and compare notes, share our version of this enigma.

Rachel Doster, signing off for today, wishing you well.  May the Dear LORD shine His light on you, rain His blessings on YOU!

[Excerpt from The JR WALTERS Chronicles  Copyright June 24, 2014   All rights reserved]