I will not give up ...

This is no game! This is the real deal! I am so glorified this morning!  So blessed! I feel restoration coming.  I will not be moved! I will NOT shut up!  I will not be intimidated by the blind, cripple and crazy.  There are two stories in the book of Acts that I love.  Study chapter 19, particularly verse 16. "Then the man in whom the evil spirit was leaped on them, overpowered them, and prevailed against them, so that they fled out of of the house naked and wounded."  The demons attacked the disciples, beat them bloody and stripped them naked.  Did satan falsely believe he won?  No! GOD wants us to know what a tenacious adversary satan is.  He wants us to know how hard it is to rid ourselves of evil. 

  Acts 5:41:"So they departed from the presence of the council, rejoicing that they were counted worthy to suffer shame for His name." In other words; the disciples left rejoicing, counting it a privilege to be abused for Christ.

I too count it a privilege to be abused for Christ! One of my own brothers just said I was a body without a head!  Just what does that mean? Does he think I am an idiot?  I am not sure what it means but it sure sounds ominous.  (Was there a veiled threat to come and harm me?  Me! A 63 year old worn out woman!  A big strong strapping man against his little old sister?  Why?  Is it for knowing the Truth or daring to tell it?  To broadcast it over the Internet.  Or is it that you just don't care because it didn't happen to you?  Is it because you were the golden child that could do no wrong? 

 My family accuses me of unforgiveness.  Why? Because I am spilling the beans on your evil, wicked, two faced lying mother!?   She was my mother too!  I know how she treated me to her dying day! Tell me, are you deliberately heaping more abuse and hatred on me for knowing the true Martha or for telling?

Would you rather I suffer in silence?  Certainly you do not mean to suggest that I am the only one she abused in 87 years?  I approached her very humbly about my rape, about her forcing me to drink a full glass of Creme de Mint Liquor when I was eight years old.  Outraged that I remembered and had the audacity to bring up the subject,  she cursed me out.  That triggered all the terrifying memories I had suppressed for so long.  My brother returning after 25 years with some stunning revelations was the key to my finally breaking free.  I was disappointed and actually shocked when she flat refused to give me so much as a sorry; "I'm sorry."  

Refused!  Flat refused to repent and bragged that she wasn't repenting for s***!

I feel the exact same way as the disciples that left rejoicing.  Persecuted, reviled, lied on, threatened, hated, shunned for Christ.  What a privilege.   Praise the LORD!  My whole life I watched, I keenly observed this black widow spider weave her diabolical web of deceit!  She got them and she got them good.  "My LORD, My LORD!"  Was Jerome Walters the last decent man in this family?

They beat me up, stripped me naked and ran me out of the family naked and bleeding for daring to attempt to tell GOD's Truth.  For blowing their cover, for leaking to the press.  I told that woman when the warm blood was running down my little eight year old legs that I was going to tell it.  GOD told me to tell.

Would you care if she were not your kin?  Can you care about me?  Did you check with her other victims?  Did you ever wonder why she kept us separated ?  A mother that never knew any one's address or phone number.  A mother that got on the phone and ran down every relative not present. Always bragging that she had to pay this one's rent, or get someone's gas and electric turned back on.  Martha was so magnanimous and free hearted,  always heaping thousands of dollars on her ungrateful children.   (NOT)   Before you hate and judge me for what you call "unforgiveness". You need to know what GOD says about repentance.

So some of you think I am a Psychopath!  I agree, I am a Psychopath, I am crazy as a white mouth mule!  I am one lunatic for GOD! I am going to do what He says!  I am going to know the Truth!  I will hunt it down the same way lecherous, devious imps tried to rob me of my life, with a vengeance .

What is it LORD?  "It is all in Divine Order! There is no counterfeiting! No lying! No intimidation in GOD's plan."  

GOD will not let me run from my Truth.  He will not let me cower and remain silent as I did for over 50 years. Barking, scowling, threatening , bluffing, selling wolf tickets, will not stop me.

I will stand alone on the WORD of GOD.  I do not have to prove I am not lying.  As a matter of fact, GOD told me you know better.   You just don't want to know.  I know; "You can't handle the truth!"

No one on this earth can determine how good my life has been.  Not from the outside looking in, not from lies feed to you for decades.  Every one in my family has at least one Mathy Jane story and at least one hideous burn.

Your homework is the book of Ephesians.  Read it!  We will talk.

Dear LORD in Heaven, thank you for the rebuke, the vile name calling.  Thank you for all of the hatred and venom that has been hurled against me for knowing your truth, for speaking it, for trying to save innocent children.

Dear LORD, I know they once called you Beelzebub, they said you were a demon.  The nerve of satan to try to demand that I shut my mouth!  That I remain weak and disabled.  Praise the LORD! they tried their mentor's old trick, abusing, name calling, threatening and withdrawing their love that never existed in the first place.

"Don't piece meal GOD's WORD.  Read it through, read it thoroughly and most of all pray.  "Be not deceived, for what soever a man or woman soweth, that also shall they reap."

By the way, it is not my blog that is upsetting her rest.  The inability to turn GOD'sWORD into a lie might make some of you lose some sleep.  She rested well for 87 years while doing her best to destroy all of us.   If you can't see it, you can't see it.  One thing about it, she was my mother, this is my testimony and I CAN AND WILL TELL! (I done told it)

To claim that I am delusional, psychotic, a thing with no head!  Vile! Putrefied! I could smell the hatred through my computer screen. I don't want to be your FB friend either.  That is one feeling that is mutual.   Did she teach you that hatred, did she inculcate it, stroke it?

If I have to be just another bump on the log, a silent sniveling co-conspirator for you to accept me, in order for you to like me, tolerate me, use me, pretend to love me, it will not happen.

"Know ye the Truth...be set free today!"

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing!"

P.S.  On this Father's Day I wish one of my relatives would go to The Cow Field and snap a picture of my grandfather's grave, post it on FB.  I never believed she ever put a headstone on it.  Every time we wanted to go and visit his grave over the years she always claimed that it was unaccessible.
His unadorned headstone will speak volumes. 

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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