Yes, I know it is partly my fault.

I wanted a "mother", a real mother so badly I clung to a MONGREL, a MONSTROSITY just for the few times she was kind to me.  I let my birth  mother gut me like a fish because I was so starved for affection.  All I've ever known is abuse. My mother abused me,  then I married a man that abused me.  No,  he never put his hands on me but,  he gave me a filthy STD when I was pregnant .Yes, the nigger treated me just like Celie in The Color Purple.

Yes, I was going to kill him.  Loaded my .38  H/R pistol with hollow point bullets, planned the perfect alibi of self defense.  Filled a pair of panty hose with oranges to beat myself.  It was on, I know the nigger smelled his imminent death.  My greatest fear ,  my mother getting her demonic hands on my daughter,  saved what I considered to be his worthless life.  The thought; "What will happen to my beautiful baby?" spared your life buddy.

I'm sorry,  far too many men marry good women to abuse and use, to pimp.  Carelessly bringing diseases into your home, that's common, worse than selfish.  Then this damn ignorant nigger had the damn nerve to tell me that I was too black for him!  I was too black for him and he was too ignorant for me.

Stockholm Syndrome is real.  Far too many of us have it.  Read, study, pray, fast, seek deliverance from evil.

"Come ye out from among them"