"Looking back"

Some say never look back.  There are some  people that  only look back.  I'm looking back today because it is the last day of the year.  I'm looking back to glorify GOD and to thank Him for where He brought me from.  Praise the LORD!  I was once a little black unwanted bastard.  My mother claims that my first "crib" was a dresser drawer with a pillow in it.  That she gave me away.  Gave me to a lesbian madame that ran a whore house.  My grandmother intervened and made her go get me.

Reclaimed by my grandparents that loved and nurtured me for four years.  Poor misguided lost Martha came and got me.  Some how I survived the fool.  I now know that she is a bipolar, narcissistic, psychotic sociopath.

I subscribe to a blog; Blog.TheNarcissistinyourlife.com.  Her column for December 27, 2012 struck me like a thunder bolt.  "Some narcissists remind me of carnivorous creatures who are called ambush predators.  They ingeniously use camouflage to blend into the environment.  The stone fish lies on the ocean floor and looks like a rock.  Fish swim too close by him and are bitten and inflicted with deadly toxins."

"The narcissist is filled with psychological toxins that are dangerous to everyone, especially those who are vulnerable to (her) charm, grandiose promises, fulfillment of old dreams of being adored and taken care of..."

I was awe struck.  She described my whole life.  It is as if she lived with me.  GOD rescued me.  The saddest fact of all is that there are so many people on this earth just like her.  Demons are crawling on GOD's earth.  Hold up! There is Good News!  GOD will never leave or forsake you.  He will destroy that yoke.  He promised.   He did it for me and He will do it for you.

My pastor didn't know it but his sermon was designed for me yesterday.   "The Yoke is going to be broken and taken."  Isaiah 10: 24-27.  I felt GOD take my yoke, my burden in the moment my pastor read that scripture.

GOD does not want us sad, beleaguered, beaten down because our loved ones are reprehensible.  Pray for them, move on.  Live your life.  Rejoice in GOD's Truth, in His anointing.

"If you don't want to go, don't hinder me." Praise the LORD children!  Look back over your life and thank GOD for bringing your over.  Let GOD bring you over into a New Year, a new life.  Be filled with His goodness, forgiveness.  Be filled with the Holy Ghost!

Have a Happy New Year!

Rachel Gwendolyn