Oscillating ...

Oscillating, vacillating, running an eighty-seven year marathon back and forth from good to evil.  One moment a good mother, the next minute extremely evil. It's as if she could never make up her mind to be good or evil, so she decided that she could be both.   She always made sure she kissed and hugged you after she severely beat you.  If she laid a vulgar "cussing" on you, cussed you from your head to your socks, called you every black muthaf******* sorry piece of worthless s*** known to man, it was always your fault.

No, there is no winning with Martha.  You see SHE can't be wrong. "You duh Fool!...You duh lying s***!  You jest jealous of me 'cause I'm yalla!...I'm an ordanined Minister! muthaf*****!...I'll lay my religion down a cuss yo' muthaf****** a** out and pick it up again!"

Yea she's funny alright.  She is hilarious if she is not your mother.  You do not want to be her target, her ping pong ball, her property, her "thing" to harass and toy with.

She always laughed; "Can't nobody forgit me!"  You got that right sister. You will seek the LORD GOD Almighty.  You will pray.  You better find some medication and a therapist.  Do it quickly, just as some as you can.

Don't put your life on hold waiting for this succubus to die.  If you are a Walters and can make it past seventy, nine out of ten will see their 90s.  Longevity  runs in my family.  So counting on looking forward to her dying real soon most likely will not happen.  Plus she is too mean to die.

Yes it is baffling, mind boggling, unbelievable, incomprehensible, devastating, but all true.  The worse truth is that she made me an outcast.  No, not recently.  I've been an outcast since birth.  It seems every day of my life she would remind me that she gave "my black a** away", that my grandmother made her go get me.  Perhaps it was the hurt in my eyes that would make her lie to me and tell me how much she loved me.

According to Martha she could have loved me if I hadn't been born so black.  Color should not matter.  But the fact is I'm brown.  "It's a good thang God gave you "good hair"...dat's the only thang dat saved ya."

If I was so ruined as you claimed everyday why did you do so much to ruin me even more?  Why did you try to pimp me out to your "huzband" when I was 14?  The truth is you were really angry with me for not taking his money.  You were mad with me for causing a scene in the motel (Ft.Gordon).  You faked a fight and had him arrested, not for pandering or sex abuse, but for domestic violence.  You drove right behind the mps (military police) and bonded him out.

We drove back to Fayetteville just like nothing ever happened.  You laughed with him, hugged and kissed him, had loud vulgar sex with him with the door unlocked in the middle of the afternoon.  I walked in on you two hogs and you never bothered to stop.  You are a common woman!

You said you had no intentions of divorcing him because you had to "git dat money honey!".  He went to Viet Nam and you sent him a long lustful vulgar pornographic love letter every other day while claiming that you hoped that he got killed.

If W***** had not sent that pretty young man your way there is no telling what you two buzzards had in store for me.  When you wanted to get rid of Doster and marry R***, then I became an issue.  Suddenly I was important.  "Dat N**** molested my dawter!" you howled to the entire world.

You are a low life serpent .  May the Dear LORD have mercy on your soul.  You can't play ping pong with GOD.  You can't get up in the pulpit on Sunday and live a lascivious reprobate life the rest of the week.  You can call me all the liars you want to.  You can cuss and curse me all you please.  You told me not to "piss on your grave" when you're dead.  Why would I want to do that?

So you hate me.  So what, when did you not hate me?  So my family shuns me.  So what?   If I have to accept you in order to be loved and honored by them, forget them too.  GOD told me; "Come ye out from among them."

I will not honor and associate with a family that turns a blind eye and deaf ear to you.  You and your kind can go straight to hell.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn X (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)