"Betrayal of Innocence" ...

is the book (Incest and its Devastation by Dr. Susan Forward and Craig Buck) I am currently reading. I found this book in the public library.  The book is a paper back and is falling apart because it was published in 1987.

This author presented a very interesting premise; the reason incest and sexual abuse go *"unnoticed" or *"overwhelmingly unreported" is because of the taboo.  The taboo against incest is so strong that it inadvertently does more to keep the perpetrator *closeted and the cycle of abuse continues. The poor child victims are forced to live in silent secrecy and must "heal" themselves.  The consequences of incest are devastating!

It ruined me! I was robbed of so much.  Sure the pain was excruciating but I want you to know what hurt more.  It is NOT the fact it was my own mother and stepfather.  It is the fact that my "telling" is considered to be some type of betrayal by my family members.  Some of my relatives have asked me to let her rest in peace.  To just forget she stalked us into Old Age!

 I should not call that aberration my mother because she really wasn't . That woman was surely satan himself wearing my mother's skin. And if you don't want to end up like my mother obey GOD's Commandments. "Have no other gods before Him".

Stay off of murdered men's graves collecting "goofer dust".  Don't tell another lie as long as you live! Don't hate and don't envy.

Not too long ago someone told me they sensed anger in the tone of my writing. Anger!? Yes LORD I am guilty because I am human. I AM TIRED, FRUSTRATED AND BROKEN BECAUSE THIS WHOLE SAD SAGA WAS TOTALLY UNNECESSARY! I am angry because I wasted far too many years of my life trying to earn the love of a woman that  clearly did not deserve it.

Poor Martha tried to inhabit both worlds, demon and saint, mother and freak, preacher and prevaricator.

Yes I get angry. I am not Jesus!! I love Jesus and I am still trying to learn of His ways.  But this burden that I have been caring for 62 years has been anything but easy.

 Do we really want to know the causes of alcoholism, drug abuse, suicide and the like?  We belong to a society that refuses to listen to its children.  I know now that I was the saddest little girl on earth ,secretly tortured for my entire life by a ravenous wolf in sheep's clothing and my world doesn't want to know because the thought of such an evil selfish woman is revolting!  I certainly understand, who did that monster dupe more than me?

I am sitting here in sheer awe of GOD's goodness.  Poor ignorant rebellious Martha ended up a vile thing. Pray this never happens to you or anyone you know.  Teach your children the Bible.  Teach them to love the LORD, to serve him in Spirit and Truth.

 Don't you ever go dragging up in GOD's house with lies dripping off your lips.  Make sure you know that you must make a leap of faith that goes far beyond worship and praise.  You must live right! You must pray and fast!  You must love the LORD your GOD with all your heart.  You must pray for your enemies and the fallen.

You must not hate!  satan wants you to hate. he wants to keep you out of GOD's Kingdom.   He wants to block your way.  Pray for your enemies, the evildoers.  Never be afraid to look at their fruit.  Forgive them for their wrongdoing.  But, keep and eye on them.  Jesus told us to be as wise as a serpent and as gentle as a dove.


 We all must do what ever we can to save children.  Don't let satan keep you confused, blind, cripple and crazy.  "Know ye the truth and the truth will set you free."

Stay in His WORD.  Remember:"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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