Look at all the "normal" people ...

hair coiffed, pants pressed, shoes shined, everything matching.  Clean, freshly bathed, teeth brushed, every strain of hair in place.  Look at them, prefect.  They even have sweet breathe.

They have never had a problem because they are perfect.  Born to perfect parents, hailing from perfect grandparents.  They have money, a nice car, a beautiful home with all the trappings of prosperity.

They never curse or get upset.  They truly love the LORD.  We know because they declare it enough.

Why should they ever care about abused, raped, molested, ruined children?  What if they heard that three of the most abused children ever born were terrorized by their demonic mother into traumatized silences and denial?

"Let it go … really…how bad could it be?  After all you became a teacher, your brother a medical doctor and your other brother a brilliant musician….she could not have been that bad of a mother.  Now, as far as her murdering her father…I just can't believe that…no way … well frankly I think you are a little nuts and personally I am tired of hearing about it!  My GOD, can't you think of anything else to talk about?  You seem to be obsessed    … personally I liked your mother, she was hilarious, like the time she demonstrated the proper way to put on a condom to the children in her Sunday school class.  That was a riot….No, you should really move on.  I know you have been celibate for 26 years, you are asexual ...I know it's not natural or normal…it sure sucks to be you ha-ha-ha."

"Truthfully,  you should have been born rich and white.  Rich white people don't have to suffer with such ridiculousness.  Get over it, already …so your mother hated you and tortured you for 62 years.  Just don't dwell on it.  Simple as that.  Someone cut me off in traffic the other day , sometimes my deodorant doesn't work, and there are times I suffer from a migraine…you don't hear me complaining, do you?"

Oh, to be one of the perfect people.  Welcomed to this earth by two loving parents, a silver spoon in my mouth.  Never a care in the world.  They are always happily married to the "love of their life".  Their house, yard and car, always immaculately clean.

They don't drink, curse, smoke cigarettes or weed.  They are never nervous, frightened or concerned about money.  They don't even use bad grammar.

Oh, for the good life.  And the perfect people don't have to concern themselves with the wretched of this earth.  Their lives will always be perfect.  They have GOD in their pocket.  No one in their family is ever going to be alcoholic, drug addicted, mentally ill, nervous or psychotic.

My "mother" was extremely manipulative.  I don't know what she told my relatives.  I fear, she pinned all of her sick deeds on me.   I am not sure how she explained my 9 year absence.  I have an idea it was the lowest lie she ever told.  When her 3rd husband fled from her , she did lose it.  Worse case of hysteria I ever saw.  I think she stayed drunk for two years.  Wrecked her car with her new baby in it.

She never admitted that he should have left her.  If there was ever a man just as mistreated as we were, it was him.  GOD rest his soul.  He was young man when he fled.  But he never re-married.

satan is really doing a job right now.  He has clearly destroyed my family.  I will continue to pray for their strength and delivery and I will continue to pray that they are not as illiterate and under educated as they seem.

[Excerpt from THE JR WALTERS CHRONICLES    January 25, 2015  All rights reserved.]