"A sad and pathetic truth"

It is so ridiculous it is horrifying.  I certainly understand why so many shun my truth.  I would shun it but I was forced to live it. A HORROR! A HUMAN HORROR!   Dear LORD thank you for saving me from something too despicable to know.  Worse, she knew! My horrible, low , common, carnal, perverted mother knew all the time!  She knew far too well,  that is precisely why she could hide her sadistic nature so well.

My birth mother didn't live EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!  The low slut suffered.  Sure she drove fine cars, wore the finest clothes money could buy but,  she pure rotted. My poor mother had some sick memories she had to carry in her head everyday of her long, long life.

She knew she was a thief, a whore.  She had to look in the mirror after sexually abusing us, me, her own children.  No, I'm repulsed by my own  truth but,  I'm not repulsed enough to keep it secret. As a matter of fact I'm proud to tell. When I look back and can actually see the Hand of GOD moving in my favor, snatching me from her sick deeds EVERY TIME I get so excited I stammer, I leap straight up and down.  "I just can't hold my peace."

I get it, I fully understand why Martha always treated me so abominably in private, then turned right around and made a complete fool out of me praising me in public or when she was pumping me up for some evil deed.  I sure get it  and can certainly understand why a woman that was depending on her looks and color to open doors and force the world to bow at her feet would hate me.  Sure, I can understand why a woman too sorry to use birth control or discretion hated me with a purple passion.  All that deceit was truly part of her nature.  Martha was a reprobate, her feet were swift to run to mischief.

Martha Jane Walters was indeed an imp, satan's low whore, the devil's chief disciple.  If I had not lived it, seen it, I would not believe it either.  What kind of woman can MURDER  their own father in cold blood? The same kind of woman that was a low sneaky trolling pervert for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS! 

Good riddance to bad rubbish.  I WILL NOT HONOR A SLUT just to fit in, to make myself look normal.  What is normal? Jesus told us our enemies would be of our own household.  Yet, I am the only one I know with a truly fucked up dysfunctional family.

Locksteppers!  We are all happily married to the spouse of our dreams.  We all have more money and sense than we need.  Our houses are always clean and our shit don't stank.

Martha knew full well she could have repented.  She didn't want to.  The whore died and gave this world her ass to kiss. No, she didn't love me, not one single day.  Martha didn't love anyone and her five sons that claim to hold her in high esteem are all liars.  Loving their mother and hating me is their loss.  I can't wait for them.  I must press on.

"Lean and mean in '17" Dear LORD take these awful memories from me, lighten my load.  Help me to just forget Martha.  Remind me that she isn't worth a thought every time I am terrorized by some vicious and cruel act she inflicted upon  me,  on us.  LORD, she murdered my grandfather and no one cares.  Help me to let that rest.  There are millions upon millions of unsung heroes, he is one.  I will praise my grandfather by myself, for myself. I will honor his grave with a headstone.

I mean what I say, and I say what I mean.  I will look every demon, every imp in the eye proudly.  No demon imp like my mother, or those that like her will shut me up.  I will save children.

Praise the LORD.