That's What My Heart Needs - Otis Redding (1963)

Thank you Jesus! My daughter tells me to stop crying. That it is over, the old whore is in the ground.

What my daughter can't understand; my pain can not be expressed.  The sick sadistic  psychotic pain my fallen THOT mother deliberately inflicted upon me, upon her entire family for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS  can NOT be known.  There is no reference, explanation, no true description for such unnecessary pain. 

Really!? Do fallen women that are always scheming , whoring, prostituting, lying, conjuring, plotting,  ruining, conning, perverting,  committing incest,  really always get away?  What about women  as hateful and poisonous as my mother?

 From conception! Have you ever been hated from your conception!?  Plotted on, reviled, rebuked, lied on behind your back? Hugged, kissed, adored to your face?  By your own mother? By a cruel racist society that pre-hates you before you are born?

Did it take President Obama's foul mistreatment to help you understand why your own mother tried to force you into captivity? Prostitution? Really!? People of color are just hated! Haunted, hated, gutted like fish,  cast down, lied on, made to suffer? Why? Surely to GOD melanin is not poison! Why the vile rejection? What does satan know about the dark skinned,  that we don't know?  Are WE chosen, set apart, GOD's elect? "The first shall be last, the last shall be first."

Do you feel loved? Is it because you are kind, loving, sharing, understanding?  Is it because you are a peace maker? Is it because you love the LORD, are on fire with the Holy Ghost?  If you are a true Christian, my problem is your problem. We do bear each other's burdens in the heat of the day.   Real Christian know deeply disturbed demons are up in far too many pulpits preaching right now.  Real Christians care.  Pseudo Christians are glad.

She was my MOTHER! I  had no daddy in evidence.  Sure, my mother finally married when I was four. Yes, he was a fellow pervert!  My life was rugged, it was rough.  The fact that I was born illegitimate, black and female made no difference to my horrid mother.  She was going to punish me, make me suffer for every breath I took ,  any way.    Why?  That was her nature.  don't lie, some people are just evil.  Avoid them,  shun them.  If you are born to such a woman, run, get gone!  Get gone and stay gone!

Did Mathy Jane know she was a pervert? She certainly did!  She could not have been so successful in her deep subterfuge without knowing.  Did she know she was demon possessed? Yes! And was damn proud of it!

Why preach? To hide!  Just who on this earth would ever expect an ordained minister to be a pervert,  a pedophile, an incestuous mother?  No one but , Jesus!   Dullards, anti-intellectuals, the fake saved, the lying pious hypocrites, especially  the unread, uncaring, selfish, greedy, jealous, thick, full of pride and just lost, reprobates , declare collectively; No such thing!  Knowing damn well such women are prolific!

No, I have no doubt, satan is getting ready to show out, to show his natural ass.  So!? So,  did my mother.  It was all for naught.  She didn't stop or block anything GOD wanted.  "In all thy getting, get understanding."

Evil can't win because it is All in Divine Order!