Jesus told us to know our truth

… and be set free.  Why would our LORD have to make sure (HE) taught us that? Because the potential evil of this world can only be known by the Holy Spirit.  Your loved ones, your caregivers, your own mother will live to destroy you if they ever get taken over by a demonic spirit, it they ever turn reprobate. No, they will never confess, repent or care. "Get the behind me satan!" Rebuke satan! What kind of "new fool" are you? Loving, defending, protecting a dead demon?

Why did I suffer so long? Why was I willing to subject myself to such horrible degradation, humiliation, pure lies, deliberate fabrication? Martha would just make up shit, just spin it right out of her head, spew it out of her lying mouth and dare us to say anything, do anything.

I fully understand why Martha refused to repent of her sins, to apologize, to love, to help, to care. Fear.  Fear is learned. It is conditioning.

When we have a horrible truth like mine, many just opt to not know, to deny, to live isolated and alone.  I found out that is how she wanted us to feel.  Martha never felt she punished us enough for being born to her.  For taking her youth, for destroying her body, for keeping quality men at bay.  For forcing her to prostitute and preach, to chunk dust and bless.  One thing Martha hated more than she hated us, being born a member of the "black race".  Being grouped with losers, dimwits, Toms, Aunt Jemimas.  Gullible people easily fleeced and fooled.  Slow thinkers, non thinkers.  Low immoral people.

Dear LORD, help me to understand, everything Martha hated and blamed on black people, she was.  She was lazy, always enslaving others to do her work.  A thief, a kleptomaniac, mostly a liar. Worse than being a liar,  a fake Christian always declaring: "(HE) said a LIAR wudden tarry in hiz sight!"  Why? To throw the scent off of her.

No doubt about it; Martha was a ravenous wolf that demanded to be kept secret,  while seen as a saint. I'm still laughing reviewing a scene in my head.  I was four, I'm sure because she had just married him  after a two week courtship. He was much too young and country and far too dark for her liking.  But, his money was long.

"He" caught her fornicating in the front seat of his car and busted out his own car window. Mathy jumped out of that car, pulled her "draws" up and commenced to whopping that nigger's ass!  I'll never forget it, I just better not bring it up, ever.  She's dead, the evil whore finally died and I'm proud as a peacock to tell.

Know your truth, be set free. Evil can NOT win! It is ALL in Divine Order! Know that! Trust and obey!