James Brown - I Feel Good

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Saturday, July 18, 20/20

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME!  Yes, I feel Good! For one thing GOD is my friend, Jesus in my Homeboy! Not one day, not one hour, not one minute,  in Sixty-nine years has My LORD ever forsaken me.

Sure, I've seen too many things I would rather have  never  seen or experienced. But, I must admit, I was made better, stronger. Blessed, gifted, ANOINTED by every experience  GOD has brought me through!  

That is why my "mother", my birther, always  hated Me, Us! Poor martha, born under a "Bad sign", severe, irrational, ignorant, barbaric, demonic,  low character.   Greed, an insatiable need for "sex" and sadistic,  unspeakable practices, always felt , in fact knew,  s/he was low.  Just never low enough to desire to change.  Just low enough to be proud to be savage, barbaric, greedy, lying, immoral while preaching to people s/he purely hated , resented but loved their money.

So why Church? Why preach? It seems mjw figured out the benefits of white supremacy long, long ago. s/he did look white.  Why not take advantage? It is not hard for anyone void of any scruples, morals , empathy, sympathy, a true education , to be as horrid as mjw and dt.

Scum! They are now,  and shall forever be the SCUM OF THE EARTH!  I still can NOT believe how scummy my own "mother" was! For  EIGHTY-EIGHT MUTHAFUCKING YEARS!  Bitch,  ain't never missed Church! The low 'hoe ain't never missed blasting her lying bullshit into someone else's ear, deliberately destroying the lives s/he falsely claimed ruined her's. 

What did s/he get? Nothing! A chance to laugh, to mock, to block, which only caused her more secret self hate. 

When it came time to die mjw could NOT repent. I get it. How could anyone "own", claim or brag about her horrid life. satan tricked her into INCEST! PEDOPHILIA! AND s/he MURDERED HER OWN DADDY! A GOOD MAN!  Not like one of those sorry men s/he sold her precious body to.

mjw lived a long life of lying, hating, envying and "chuncking dust".

Especially if it was a life s/he resented hated,  or wanted. No, there was no winning with her. Yes, s/he fully intended to preach her phony bullshit.  Shit s/he never practiced! s/he was a HORROR!  My LORD from Zion! WHY!?

"FOR IT IS WRITTEN!"

I  rejoice today! I rejoice because it is abundantly clear to Me, I had more sense, more innate intelligence, higher morals and integrity , as a three year old child, than my own twenty-nine year old "mother".  Just another nasty, lying 'hoe that buried her own talents and gifts trying to destroy and manipulate her "loved ones".

Sure, mjw, you marched behind me in quasi, semi-secret, "chuncking your dust", telling your lies, deliberately  tearing down, never building up, just pretending.  Just putting on a show.  Why? I didn't, We didn't ruin your lie, you lying whore, you ruined Ours!

Now rot!

BEAMING!