I Will Not Be Silenced!

"...Go ye, and tell that fox, behold, I cast out devils, and do cures today and tomorrow, and the third day I shall be perfected." Luke 13:32

Monday, March 12, 2012

JUBALAIRES GOSPEL NOAH

It appears to me some of "yall" are ...

afraid of the wrong one.  You got the wrong tiger by the tail. You can't see for looking in the wrong direction.

It is called "slight of hand".  Magicians and all charlatans do it.  They trick their captive audiences into concentrating on the wrong thing.  It is a shell game.

I'm beating myself in the head.  How could I be so blind?...so thick?  I saw what she did to those poor men.  We laughed together.  She spread the money in my face.  My "mother" was the proudest "secret prostitute" in the world.

She had one hard fast rule for me; (You can't have none of my money! I sold dis p****! Dis my money!  Ain't nobody gon' benefit from the p*****I sold!)

I was a little girl and the poor broken woman crawled up to me and said; "If you make a n**** pay fa' yo' p****, he'll call you a lady!  If you give a n**** sum fa' free he will call you a 'ho...don't nevah give no n*** no free p****!"

So that was the sum total of my sex education.  Don't you hypocrites dare revile me because some monster like this escaped your family.  Your day is coming.  It might be your daughter, or your granddaughter.  More and more women like my "mother" are being created everyday.  They exist but hey are well hidden, closeted in families that can't bear GOD's Truth.

Quit running from the Truth!  Quit running from the devil.  Turn around and let GOD rend that devil.  Put on the whole armor of GOD and stand!  Do not lie and deny out of fear.  Don't feel you have to defend someone that never defended you.

The truth is, anyone that falls low enough to violate her own small children sexually should be taken out into the street and de-boweled slowly.  She knew better!  If she had not known better she would not have been so clever in her deceit.  You still thinks she loves you because she claims to.  Are you still afraid to look at her fruit?  Will you ever admit that it is sheer terror that you feel and not love?

Trust GOD brothers and sisters.  Stand on His WORD!  He will make you whole.  He will heal your broken heart.  He will give you the courage you need to accept your Truth.

To GOD be the Glory.  Be abundantly blessed and healed today.  Dare to bless others.

May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Peace encamp all around you and keep you in His perfect peace,
Rachel

Sunday, March 11, 2012

What if?...

What if you woke up one day to finally realize that your life had been under Satanic attack for sixty years!?  Would you tell  somebody?  Would you tell how GOD has always been with you?  Protecting you, leading and guiding you?  What if that demon, that Satanic spirit was dwelling in your mother's body?

Who would you tell?  How would you tell?  Why would you tell?

Number one, I am going to tell the entire world!  Number two, I will tell it in my walk, in my talk.  I will tell it in my blog.  I will tell it on facebook.  I will tell it in my art, in my poetry and prose, in my (soon to be published) book, in my books, in my movie.  Number three, I will tell it so others will know that they have a chance, that they have a redeemer.

Her steely, unsympathetic, cold cruel eyes burned a hole in the back of my head.  I could feel her cold stare.  It was eerie, I just didn't know what it was or why.  I was devastated.  I had been sobbing uncontrollably  for four days straight, non-stop.  I was a wreck.  Any real mother would have put me in the hospital.  I couldn't believe it.  I said (to myself because you didn't dare articulate an opinion to Mathy Jane).  "Is this b**** crazy?  Is she gloating?  THIS B**** IS HAPPY!...my poor grandfather is dead.  She said he committed suicide!  SUICIDE!!!! Not my granddaddy!  Not the man that taught me to always love and believe in the LORD.  Not the man that saved me from this psycho so many times!"

I KNEW! but I couldn't KNOW!  The truth was too hard.  I still had too many other "issues" inflicted on me by her to deal with.  There was all that sexual molestation.  And all that filthy cussing and cursing on a daily basis.  There were the images of her brutally stabbing and pistol whipping people.  There was the image of my brother's savage beating.  All the name calling, all the screaming, cursing and cussing for hours and hours for absolutely no reason.

I can say it now; WE WERE TERRORIZED AND HELD HOSTAGE BY A DEMON STRAIGHT FROM THE BOWELS OF HELL!!!

I could not understand it.  I had lived this horrible life that I could not share.  I had seen so many things that I could not know, could not tell.  I got a much better understanding of why I kept silent so long, today.  My pastor preached a very good sermon.  It was the absolute truth.  John 10:10; "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly."

That's what she did!  That's all she has ever done! How has she managed to get away?  FEAR!  INTIMIDATION! SOOTHSAYING! IGNORANCE!  (and sad to say, evidently a lack of faith)  Our collective fear.  Fear that we inherited.  Fear that was feed to us.  I was born in 1951 and got in line with everyone else.  Stumbled blindly in lock step with the rest of her minions.   Martha Jane Walters ruled.  She ran the show!  You did what she said and you did not complain.  And most of all you did not tell.  She taught us that everyday; "Don't you n****** tell a muthaf***** thang dat go on in dis house!"  That and ;"Don't you f***** think back! N*****!"

Whoa! No way!  That's incredible!...No, brothers and sisters, friends, people of the world, it is all true!

My pastor explained that we become numb.  Numb to the pain.  We just give up and accept it.  Never be afraid of the devil.  The devil is afraid of you.  The devil knows that you have real power, Holy Ghost Power that you can tap into.  The devil hopes and prays (yes, the devil prays) that you never read your Bible.  He hopes that you never find a real church.  The devil knows that his days are numbered.  The longer he can keep GOD's children away from His WORD, away from GOD's goodness and mercy, the happier that demon spirit is.

I know now that I was blind, or partially blind.  I saw but remained in disbelief.  "But she's my MOTHER!" I screamed to GOD!  GOD kept talking to me but I would not listen.  "I can fix her GOD.  I can help her.  She just needs our love and understanding LORD.  She is really not that bad LORD.  She does a lot of good LORD.  No one can be that evil LORD."

The years rolled on and demonic deeds kept coming.  Houses were burned down.  Siblings went to jail.   Some  suffered with alcoholism and drug addiction. A great medical practice was destroyed, marriage after marriage was broken.  She just laughed and continued to spread the bad news.  The idiot is still laughing, just as happy as she can be.  They still foolishly cling to her, telling her every personal intimate detail of their very sad lives.

I knew she was a "root worker" but they say that there is honor among thieves.  Surely to GOD my mother would never target me.  Surely to GOD she wasn't evil enough to target her six living children!  No "mother" would target her own children!

My life story is foul, it is filthy, it is so sad.

How could she do it?  Why couldn't we see?  We could not see because we looked at the flesh.  The flesh looked like my mother.  That aberration looks like Mathy, talks like Mathy.  But, Mathy is gone.  GOD told me many years ago, GOD told me when I was eight years old that I had no mother.  I'm not sure I ever had a mother.  I had a birther.

Why?  I already told you.  The thief (Satan) comes to steal.  He wants to steal your joy, your dreams, your good name.  You can not have Jerome Walters' good name devil!  He comes to kill.  She killed so many of my dreams.  The dreams of my brothers.  Ultimately she thinks she successfully stole my grandfather's good name.  She deliberately tarnished his good name.   A name he spent eighty-four years building.  You can't have it Mathy.  You are not worthy.  She came to destroy.  You will not destroy me Satan!  I've been saved!  I've been baptized.  I've been washed in His blood and made clean.  I am a "these are they".

I am proud!  I am glad to "Out" you.  I am not "outing" my "mother".  I am "outing" that demonic spirit that dwells in my "mother".  I know that it is a spirit that she invited.  I know that she is so weak, blind and tortured, she thinks it is a spirit that she wants to keep, has to keep.

Won't you pray for her?  Won't you pray with me and my church as we pray for her deliverance.

If you are bound by a demon, pray for your own deliverance.   If anything is hindering you, keeping you from your best.  Keeping you from GOD's Glory.  I pray for your deliverance today.  I pray for your healing.

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace encamp around you and keep you in perfect peace.  Be abundantly blessed today and forever,
Rachel

I know that I don't know a lot.

But, I do know that love is not supposed to hurt.  I know that a child should not grow up being violated sexually, physically, emotionally and psychologically and her tormentor get away just because she was devious enough to secure a license to preach.  I do know that there are some decent people on this earth somewhere that care.

You are not going to get away Mathy!   You will never have enough "dust" or demonic cover.  The righteous will eventually see through you.

"If dey put yo' brains in a Jay bird's head he would fly backwards!"  That's what you used to tell me.  Always playing the confused and compulsive.  Always the violent abuser, the clever witch that could do harm with her magic charms.   Anyone that thinks you have any magic or any charm is as ignorant and demented as you are.

Are you going to "church" today?  Just how long do you intend to play your phony game?  Will you repeat one of your memorized stolen prayers?

I don't know what kind of fool you are.  I don't know what kind of demon possesses you.  I don't know why you refuse to love GOD while insisting on your "play act".

I am glad that I found out in time.  I am glad that I now know that I knew for many years.  I've know since I was fourteen when you pulled that stunt in Fort Gordon.  I'm glad I found out about the non-mother, the anti-mother.  I am glad that I found out about spiritual warfare.

I am on my way to church, The Potter's House Pentecostal Church.  It is a real church.  We will continue to pray for your release.  We will continue to pray for your soul.

Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."

May GOD's abundant Grace, Mercy and Peace continue to encamp around and protect all of His children,
Rachel

Saturday, March 10, 2012

GOD's gon' salivate you!

I'm not exactly sure what salivate means, (I discovered it in a Zora Neale Hurston book).  He is salivating you as I write.  You little brat.  You were a spoiled little "well-to-do" selfish "yalla" brat that always got what she wanted.  You've been manipulative, sneaky and cruel from birth.

Somebody fooled you.  Somebody sure told you wrong.  Someone gave you the impression that the world was going to serve it up to you because you were "yalla" and had "good hair".   Didn't anybody bother to tell you about your low morals?

You messed up bad at sixteen and went nowhere but down. I'm sure granddaddy told you.  You made it your business to be hardheaded and disrespectful.  Now look at you!  All "salivated" and torn down.  Full of lies and hate trying to send up your dry phony prayers.  Not really, I don't think you pray at all.  You just pretend to pray with one eye open, peeking, trying to see who is looking , trying to see who you are impressing.

Of course I don't mean to beat up on you.  You taught me better.  I know better than to ever have a negative thought about you.  For once in my life it is not about you.  It is finally about me.  I finally let GOD heal that "little girl", that little "throwed away baby", the one you never had time for.  There is one thing I still don't understand.  You never had time to teach me anything useful.  You never had time to encourage me, but you sure found the time , a way to snatch every possibility of success from me.  That's odd, don't you think.  No,it is not about you.  It is about GOD's WORD.  The world must know that there are "anti-mothers" in the world.  The world needs to know what kind of woman a sexually liberated freak really is.  Men need to know about you so they can identify women like you early.  Social workers, psychiatrists and school systems must learn about women like you.  Women like you explain why our world is suffering.

  You just might still be too blind, too "salivated" to know how lost you are.  You may never "have sense enough" to see.  That was always my issue wasn't it?  I never had "enough sense" according to you.  I graduated from college with honors but I was still stupid.  Always scored in the 99% percentile on the Iowa Basic Skills, declared a genius on every IQ test, yet I was still too black and too dumb.

You let your jealousy rule you, control you, destroy you.  Oh yea, you are destroyed.  You are laying on your bed of affliction.  No, I can't help you.  GOD can help you.  You can call on the LORD at any time.

But, I'm healed.   PTL! I am whole today.  I have Christ!  I don't have to fake.  I don't have to lie.  I never knew  I would ever find the courage to "Out" you.  GOD kept talking to me, kept whispering in my ear.  There are two things that I am going to do for the rest of my life.  #1 I am going to honor GOD!  #2 I am going to honor my grandfather, Jerome Walters!  You will not kill him, murder him like he was a roach or a fly or some kind of mangy dog.

You will not wear his mantle.  You will not steal his glory, his talent, his gifts.  You are an abomination.  You did squander his wealth.  You did lose his land.  You did make sure his house burned down.  You might be "smart", if you want to call demonically manipulative "smart".  If that makes you proud, if that makes you feel good, you are beyond lost, your are truly "salivated".

To my readers, Man Up!  Accept GOD's truth.  "Know ye the Truth!"  Pray for healing and blessings.  Bless someone else today.  Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel



Friday, March 9, 2012

If you can't trust GOD...

who can you trust?  Saying that you trust GOD and trusting GOD are certainly not the same.  If you truly trust GOD your actions show it.  Your behavior reflects it.

(Private Notes) Saturday, September 11, 2010
Dear LORD I pray that spirit of fear that was planted and cultivated in us will be taken out.  Take it out LORD!
Like innocent sheep led to slaughter we blindly fell into the pits our birth mother dug for us.  But, the Bible is real children.  Do not dismiss Biblical prophesy as unprofitable.  "You have not because you ask not.!"

Dear LORD thank you for giving me the knowledge and unction to serve You.  To listen, to heed your precepts.

Christ did not come to this earth, shed His blood for Jesus pimps to exploit His name.  "Woe unto you, you double minded!"

Did you really think that you could murder an innocent man, a good man because you hated him?  Why did you hate him?  For constantly telling you the truth?

No, you won't get away.  You can hate me in the open now.  You don't have to be a sly slippery snake.  At least now you have a legitimate reason.  Hate me for exposing you to the entire world.  Hate GOD for His goodness and mercy.

Cling to your minions to your dying day.  Lead as many astray as you can as long as you can.  I thank Almighty GOD for releasing me from your demonic clutches.

To GOD be the Glory and Power forever.   Amen.

The incredible fear she...

is able to inflict is beyond eerie, it is apocalyptic.   It should be.  There she is, Jezebel!  Not a modern day "Jezebel", not "Jezebel like", JEZEBEL the Demon!

Look closely, Jezebel was a woman in the church of Thyatira that taught  immorality was not that serious.  She was a pagan queen and she was considered to be the most evil woman that ever lived. She was a very selfish woman that enticed her children to do things unspeakable.  To her dying day Jezebel refused to repent!

The comparisons are uncanny!  Martha is a woman of the "church".  She is a pagan "root worker", soothsayer, voodoo priestess.

 "Nevertheless, I have this against you: You tolerate that woman Jezebel, who calls herself a prophetess....I have given her time to repent of her immorality, but she is unwilling.  So I will cast her on a bed of suffering, and I will make those who commit adultery with her suffer intensely, unless they repent of her ways.  I will strike her children dead.  Then all the churches will know that I am He who searches hearts and minds, and I will repay each of you according to your deeds.  Now I say to the rest of you in Thyatira, to you who do not hold to her teaching and have not learned Satan's so-called deep secrets (I will not impose any other burden on you ) Only hold on to what you have until I come."  (Revelation 2:20-25)

All of you watching and waiting...I suggest you get a good seat.  GOD tells me that He is about to show you some things.  You are about to get a Bible lesson beyond your capacity to believe or understand.

You will fully understand the term "Divine Order" before this chapter ends.

To GOD be the Glory!  Never in your life fear evil!  Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

May you be richly blessed and healed today.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel