Praise the Living LORD! "Who so ever will, let him come." Come down to the throne of Grace, repentant, humble and submissive. GOD loves you and forgives you. "If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves and turn from their wicked ways, honor me and serve me, then they shall hear form Me , from Heaven." (paraphrased)
The Dear LORD in His infinite wisdom knew how you would be led astray, led into captivity. GOD understands that you would have dull understanding. GOD knows that His "church" is filled with vipers. He knows that satan positioned them, "rewarded" them. But GOD blinded them.
"He that hath eyes let him see." Let him see and hear. GOD is a GOD of love and compassion. Attending "church" is not enough. Calling His name in vain is not enough. GOD is not impressed with your " fakery", your silky smooth voice, your phony walk. HE is not impressed with your entertaining antics.
GOD is not pleased if you are using His WORD, His pulpit, to deceive the gullible and the simple. GOD knows you. HE knows your every thought. Do not deceive yourself. I don't care how many people "honor" you, compliment you, put you high on a pedestal. "GOD's got the keys and you can't get in!"
Jesus told us that we would know you by your fruit. Your Fashion Fair, a thousand beautiful coiffed wigs, and expensive designer robes won't get you in. Memorized prayers and sermons stolen from the Internet won't get you in.
GOD knows your heart and every foul deed. Yes, HE forgives you. But you must REPENT! Don't tell GOD how many people you got to their feet hand clapping, hooping and hollering. Don't tell GOD how many people you led to "salvation". Don't brag about how many people you led to join the "church" after your dynamic performance.
"Look into your own life." "Look well to your going, your coming out and going in." GOD is not impressed with your artificial, phony "religion". GOD knows your heart.
Fight against GOD if you want to. Block as many as you can from GOD's Glory, His Kingdom, His Goodness. Keep on. Think that just because you've lived an extremely long life that you got over. Keep thinking that the world will never know. Keep grinning, keep plotting. Keep thinking that you are the finest, the most brilliant deceiver of GOD's WORD that ever lived. Keep thinking that you are safe. Keep thinking that your minions and your flunkies will protect you.
Keep telling everyone that I am a liar. Keep denying GOD's Gospel Truth. Just keep on. You are going to wake up in a worse hell than you are in now.
GOD is not going to forsake His WORD for you. GOD is not going to let His children suffer for you. The whole world is not stupid. Some people can think for themselves. Some people can see and remember. Keep fighting against a prick. Keep lying and denying. Wait until GOD pulls you down, lays you on your bed of affliction. That will be time enough. You can say you are sorry then. You can repent then. You can tell us that you are sorry then. You can admit that you have been a disciple for the devil your entire life then.
"Serve Him while you are able!" Come to the cross while you are able. Give up lying! Give up witchcraft! Give up plotting and manipulating. Give up leading GOD's children into captivity. Use the many gifts GOD gave you for building up, not tearing down.
"Who so ever will, let him come." Do not let anything or anyone keep you from GOD's Goodness. Tell that demon to get out of your way. Ask GOD to take your fear and shame. Love the LORD with all your mind and heart.
I'm so glad about it! All I can do is dance and prance. I'm testifying telling the world about GOD's Goodness. I'm telling the world how HE saved me. Built a hedge all around me. I was doomed, sunk, destroyed from birth. But, My LORD picked me up. HE gave me a heart and mind for Christ. GOD taught me how to love my neighbor. GOD taught me how to love my enemies. This Joy I have the world did not give to me and the world can not take it away. The most cunning devil from hell coiled her serpentine
girth around my neck and tried to choke all GOD's Goodness and mercy out of me. It didn't work. GOD put Jerome Walters in my path, in my way. He taught me by example. He was a good man and he was MURDERED by his own daughter.
At eighty-six she still refuses to admit her foul deed. Still foolishly proud of a long life of debauchery and sin, she yet hides in the "church". (SimonTemple A.M.E.Zion church in Fayetteville, North Carolina) Still pretends that she found a way in. Martha! except ye repent, you will not get in.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Saturday, August 25, 2012
You haven't heard from me ...
for a while because I have been working. I came out of retirement to teach again. No, it wasn't that I missed teaching that much. I'm broke. My pension is not enough for this economy. And COLA (Cost of Living Adjustment) is a joke. That magic formula that The Teacher Retirement system uses to calculate COLA is designed in such a unique manipulative manner I never qualified. Well, I did finally qualify once. But surprise, surprise, the premiums for my medical and dental insurance went up significantly.
You guessed it. I was sinking low fast. The "middle class" is shrinking. The rich are getting richer, the poor are getting poorer, and nobody cares.
I just want to brag, to testify. I was living well, enjoying my retirement. Sharing my home with my "retired" brilliant medical doctor brother. Somebody put a bee in his bonnet and he left me high and dry and returned to the bosom of his demonic mother.
I thought we lived well together. Neither one of us had to work. We gardened, created art, pursued our gifts, and just chilled. When he left of course I found myself economically destitute. (Too many bills at the end of my money.)
But, GOD promised me that He would never leave me. My grandfather taught me that the righteous are NEVER forsaken. GOD will put a ram in the bushes. MY DAUGHTER covered me. My beautiful brilliant daughter did not let me suffer a broke day. Praise the LORD!
Tell me ... why was I still certified four years after retirement? Tell me how was I able to get hired by the first school system I applied to? How did I end up teaching my dream subject, Advanced Placement United States history? It is prestigious, it is a college level course. Tell me, how did I end up with a Principal that does not micro manage? a supportive discipline team that doesn't coddle or pamper miscreants?
I am here to remind you, to testify, that GOD will do just what He said. Fortunately or unfortunately I didn't come from a supportive family. I have a mother that is extremely wicked and won't be saved. I will not be intimidated, frightened, terrorized, or silent any more.
I will recognize GOD's Gospel truth. I will no longer deny something I've known, felt, and refused to accept for far too long. She is one of the worse sadistic sociopaths that has ever lived on this planet earth. She does have a Jezebel spirit. She has always demanded to be in control. Not like some parents that demand to control in order to steer their children in the right direction. She wants to control in other to steer you into captivity, in order to steal your joy. She lives to see you suffer. She demands to see you suffer. She "coos" and cons, uses her best fake "mother" voice to make sure you do the absolute wrong thing. Then she laughs. Broadcasts your bad news to everyone she can. She delights in your downfall because she failed. You will suffer, you must suffer because she is suffering. You must be ashamed because she is ashamed. She lives to torture because she is a sadist. If her manipulative "viperous" cunning doesn't work fast enough to suit her she turns to her demonic witchcraft.
I will not have anything to do with her. I do pray for her. I no longer hate her. I am warning any and everyone that cares to listen. She is afflicted with an obsessive selfishness. She is all for self. She does think she is the grand dame and deserves a pass from GOD's WORD, His laws and precepts because she is "yalla" and she sounds good and fools many when she is "preaching". She is cruel and common, incestuous and perverted. She is a closet lesbian, a "bulldagger". I think they call them "studs" today. She has always wanted to be a man. She is very manly and masculine, down to her deep baritone voice.
I have been accused of being very masculine. Perhaps I am. She was my hero, my model for behavior. I also grew up with five brothers. My grandmother was dead. I see now I never had a great "feminine" influence. I do not hold my mother's sexual preference against her. After all she was savagely raped as a small child.
I hold her stealth "demonism" against her. I hold her cunning, jealousy and murderous character against her. I am repulsed and reviled. Any human being that could mistreat, lay hands on and mistreat my saintly grandfather and continue to lie about it, should not be counted as human. Any human being that attempts to defy GOD's WORD by putting on a robe and acquiring a license to preach just so she can laugh and continue to destroy should not be counted worthy of token respect.
I find her to be despicable! I am ashamed of her but I am not ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Jesus told us; "KNOW YE THE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!' I have been set free.
I am no longer suffering and confused. Any man, any woman that will put their nasty carnal demonic hands on a little child needs our prayers. They need to be put away. They need to be found out, pointed out and put out of their misery. Martha has known of her sick demonic nature for over 86 years. To my knowledge she has never tried to get any help. She has enjoyed her reign of torture and debauchery. She has been laughing at all of us for her entire life. She demands to be honored, feared, kept a secret.
I'm proud to tell on her. I'm glad, eternally grateful that GOD opened my eyes, lifted the veil and exposed that sick serpent to me. Thank you Jesus!
I am not the only person on this earth attached to a sick succubus. I pray that GOD will strengthen your heart, give you courage. I pray that Almighty GOD will free you from your demons.
Have faith, trust GOD. If you live righteously, love the LORD, He will save you. He will keep a ram in the bushes, make a way out of no way. You don't have to fear and cower from any sick, foul, common demon. Any woman can call herself a mother. That doesn't make her a mother. Some women are neglectful and absent from their children's lives. They don't nurture or help their children in any way. They don't help, but they don't deliberately harm. But when you get a woman willing to do the unthinkable the unconscionable, to commit acts so vile, repugnant and putrid I will no longer repeat them. When that person is foolish enough to think her hooping and hollering in Simon Temple A.M.E.Zion church saves her. When no one cares enough to pray for her, to speak the truth to her. When a woman is so terrifying that her sons still fear her at 86 years old, somebody is standing in the need of prayer.
I will tell you what my grandfather always said, he was a brilliant orator, a word crafter. He spoke eloquently, precisely and concisely; "Come by here LORD, somebody needs you."
Go by 519 Rock Canyon Road LORD. Martha needs you. Martha is suffering. She has suffered her whole life. Her self-hatred made her hate others, hurt others. She is the worse thing that could have every happened to her brilliant beautiful children. Find her LORD, hold her hand. Tell her that she is forgiven. Tell her that you forgive her of her foolishness, her stubbornness. Tell her that you forgive her of her perversion and awful cruelty. Let her know that you forgive her of her long misspent life. Let her know that you are not fooled, that you have never been fooled. Tell her that you forgive her for MURDERING her own father. Tell her that you forgive her for deliberately destroying her entire family, for refusing to be honest, for refusing your Truth.
Dear LORD thank you for my great faith. Thank you for walking with me, taking with me, leading and guiding me every step of the way. Praise the LORD. Trust GOD. Put your hand in the hand of the hand of the man that stilled the waters.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
You guessed it. I was sinking low fast. The "middle class" is shrinking. The rich are getting richer, the poor are getting poorer, and nobody cares.
I just want to brag, to testify. I was living well, enjoying my retirement. Sharing my home with my "retired" brilliant medical doctor brother. Somebody put a bee in his bonnet and he left me high and dry and returned to the bosom of his demonic mother.
I thought we lived well together. Neither one of us had to work. We gardened, created art, pursued our gifts, and just chilled. When he left of course I found myself economically destitute. (Too many bills at the end of my money.)
But, GOD promised me that He would never leave me. My grandfather taught me that the righteous are NEVER forsaken. GOD will put a ram in the bushes. MY DAUGHTER covered me. My beautiful brilliant daughter did not let me suffer a broke day. Praise the LORD!
Tell me ... why was I still certified four years after retirement? Tell me how was I able to get hired by the first school system I applied to? How did I end up teaching my dream subject, Advanced Placement United States history? It is prestigious, it is a college level course. Tell me, how did I end up with a Principal that does not micro manage? a supportive discipline team that doesn't coddle or pamper miscreants?
I am here to remind you, to testify, that GOD will do just what He said. Fortunately or unfortunately I didn't come from a supportive family. I have a mother that is extremely wicked and won't be saved. I will not be intimidated, frightened, terrorized, or silent any more.
I will recognize GOD's Gospel truth. I will no longer deny something I've known, felt, and refused to accept for far too long. She is one of the worse sadistic sociopaths that has ever lived on this planet earth. She does have a Jezebel spirit. She has always demanded to be in control. Not like some parents that demand to control in order to steer their children in the right direction. She wants to control in other to steer you into captivity, in order to steal your joy. She lives to see you suffer. She demands to see you suffer. She "coos" and cons, uses her best fake "mother" voice to make sure you do the absolute wrong thing. Then she laughs. Broadcasts your bad news to everyone she can. She delights in your downfall because she failed. You will suffer, you must suffer because she is suffering. You must be ashamed because she is ashamed. She lives to torture because she is a sadist. If her manipulative "viperous" cunning doesn't work fast enough to suit her she turns to her demonic witchcraft.
I will not have anything to do with her. I do pray for her. I no longer hate her. I am warning any and everyone that cares to listen. She is afflicted with an obsessive selfishness. She is all for self. She does think she is the grand dame and deserves a pass from GOD's WORD, His laws and precepts because she is "yalla" and she sounds good and fools many when she is "preaching". She is cruel and common, incestuous and perverted. She is a closet lesbian, a "bulldagger". I think they call them "studs" today. She has always wanted to be a man. She is very manly and masculine, down to her deep baritone voice.
I have been accused of being very masculine. Perhaps I am. She was my hero, my model for behavior. I also grew up with five brothers. My grandmother was dead. I see now I never had a great "feminine" influence. I do not hold my mother's sexual preference against her. After all she was savagely raped as a small child.
I hold her stealth "demonism" against her. I hold her cunning, jealousy and murderous character against her. I am repulsed and reviled. Any human being that could mistreat, lay hands on and mistreat my saintly grandfather and continue to lie about it, should not be counted as human. Any human being that attempts to defy GOD's WORD by putting on a robe and acquiring a license to preach just so she can laugh and continue to destroy should not be counted worthy of token respect.
I find her to be despicable! I am ashamed of her but I am not ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Jesus told us; "KNOW YE THE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!' I have been set free.
I am no longer suffering and confused. Any man, any woman that will put their nasty carnal demonic hands on a little child needs our prayers. They need to be put away. They need to be found out, pointed out and put out of their misery. Martha has known of her sick demonic nature for over 86 years. To my knowledge she has never tried to get any help. She has enjoyed her reign of torture and debauchery. She has been laughing at all of us for her entire life. She demands to be honored, feared, kept a secret.
I'm proud to tell on her. I'm glad, eternally grateful that GOD opened my eyes, lifted the veil and exposed that sick serpent to me. Thank you Jesus!
I am not the only person on this earth attached to a sick succubus. I pray that GOD will strengthen your heart, give you courage. I pray that Almighty GOD will free you from your demons.
Have faith, trust GOD. If you live righteously, love the LORD, He will save you. He will keep a ram in the bushes, make a way out of no way. You don't have to fear and cower from any sick, foul, common demon. Any woman can call herself a mother. That doesn't make her a mother. Some women are neglectful and absent from their children's lives. They don't nurture or help their children in any way. They don't help, but they don't deliberately harm. But when you get a woman willing to do the unthinkable the unconscionable, to commit acts so vile, repugnant and putrid I will no longer repeat them. When that person is foolish enough to think her hooping and hollering in Simon Temple A.M.E.Zion church saves her. When no one cares enough to pray for her, to speak the truth to her. When a woman is so terrifying that her sons still fear her at 86 years old, somebody is standing in the need of prayer.
I will tell you what my grandfather always said, he was a brilliant orator, a word crafter. He spoke eloquently, precisely and concisely; "Come by here LORD, somebody needs you."
Go by 519 Rock Canyon Road LORD. Martha needs you. Martha is suffering. She has suffered her whole life. Her self-hatred made her hate others, hurt others. She is the worse thing that could have every happened to her brilliant beautiful children. Find her LORD, hold her hand. Tell her that she is forgiven. Tell her that you forgive her of her foolishness, her stubbornness. Tell her that you forgive her of her perversion and awful cruelty. Let her know that you forgive her of her long misspent life. Let her know that you are not fooled, that you have never been fooled. Tell her that you forgive her for MURDERING her own father. Tell her that you forgive her for deliberately destroying her entire family, for refusing to be honest, for refusing your Truth.
Dear LORD thank you for my great faith. Thank you for walking with me, taking with me, leading and guiding me every step of the way. Praise the LORD. Trust GOD. Put your hand in the hand of the hand of the man that stilled the waters.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Saturday, August 18, 2012
All I know is ...
GOD will show up and when He shows up "He will sho' sho' out!". "He WILL Sho' Out!" I tell you. Live for that day. Hold on to that promise. Live right, GOD will bless you.
I was fortunate enough to grow up in Fayetteville, North Carolina. A very southern sleepy military town. A stepping stone from Fort Bragg and twelve miles from the "country" gave me a very unique heritage.
My mother married a soldier and as such I was exposed to the best schools and facilities. My grandfather's tobacco farm was a treasure. I guess you can call me a "little bit country", highly educated, widely read, culturally diverse, extremely liberal and very analytical.
When I look back over my life I can see that I had everything going for me. A bright intuitive mind, nice looking, if I do say so myself. No life is perfect. I believe that every person is going to have some difficulty, some sadness, perhaps some tragedy.
If you are new to my blog you may not know that I survived the most demonic mother any person could ever possibly be plagued with. Truly a sick demented monster, there is little hope for her. The good news is, I DO NOT HATE HER! GOD took that burden from me. I prayed, asked Him, simple as that.
One thing I've learned on my sixty-one year journey. You can not control any one on this earth. You can talk and beg until you are blue in the face. If they don't want to hear you, they are not going to hear you. You must work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.
The first thing that you must do is love the LORD! Stop, don't go any further if you can't love GOD. If all you can do is give GOD some lip service. If GOD is not for you, if you really don't get it. Don't waste your time. Remember GOD told you "Be ye hot or cold or I will spew you out of my mouth."
Please don't be a hypocrite. Don't run to church every Sunday, busting the doors down while living a rank carnal life. If you really want to live right, pray. Ask GOD for His strength, His wisdom.
When you see or witness the worse people prospering, don't worry about that. Don't concern yourself. When evil people mistreat you, put stumbling blocks in you way, pray for them. For real. My grandfather taught me that. He was so right. "Pray fa' yo' enemies dawthur."
Don't be fooled by my grandfather's patois. He was never formally educated, but he was a brilliant man. He was a wise philosopher. He never told me wrong. He never steered me wrong. His wise counsel has taken me a mighty long way.
My mother on the other hand deliberately tried to ruin my life. It didn't work. She only succeeded in ruining her own life. Now, my family looks like a train wreck. But, it is not over for my brothers. They can come to the marvelous light. They still have the opportunity to come to GOD's Gospel Truth.
I know how they feel about her. She is a woman that you can't love. She won't let you. You can only fear her and hope that she will break you off some change. "Some change" is all you are going to get. She is still stingy and tight "waddish". She gambles so she doesn't have much left for you.
I thank GOD for her. I surely do. If you are like me you can learn a lot from her misspent life. You can learn what not to do. Most of all you will never be content to be a phony "Christian".
Live right to just live right. Love the LORD with all your heart, mind and soul. Speak GOD's Truth boldly. I know that GOD will keep a "ram in the bushes" just for you.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember'"Apart for Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf yu, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I was fortunate enough to grow up in Fayetteville, North Carolina. A very southern sleepy military town. A stepping stone from Fort Bragg and twelve miles from the "country" gave me a very unique heritage.
My mother married a soldier and as such I was exposed to the best schools and facilities. My grandfather's tobacco farm was a treasure. I guess you can call me a "little bit country", highly educated, widely read, culturally diverse, extremely liberal and very analytical.
When I look back over my life I can see that I had everything going for me. A bright intuitive mind, nice looking, if I do say so myself. No life is perfect. I believe that every person is going to have some difficulty, some sadness, perhaps some tragedy.
If you are new to my blog you may not know that I survived the most demonic mother any person could ever possibly be plagued with. Truly a sick demented monster, there is little hope for her. The good news is, I DO NOT HATE HER! GOD took that burden from me. I prayed, asked Him, simple as that.
One thing I've learned on my sixty-one year journey. You can not control any one on this earth. You can talk and beg until you are blue in the face. If they don't want to hear you, they are not going to hear you. You must work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.
The first thing that you must do is love the LORD! Stop, don't go any further if you can't love GOD. If all you can do is give GOD some lip service. If GOD is not for you, if you really don't get it. Don't waste your time. Remember GOD told you "Be ye hot or cold or I will spew you out of my mouth."
Please don't be a hypocrite. Don't run to church every Sunday, busting the doors down while living a rank carnal life. If you really want to live right, pray. Ask GOD for His strength, His wisdom.
When you see or witness the worse people prospering, don't worry about that. Don't concern yourself. When evil people mistreat you, put stumbling blocks in you way, pray for them. For real. My grandfather taught me that. He was so right. "Pray fa' yo' enemies dawthur."
Don't be fooled by my grandfather's patois. He was never formally educated, but he was a brilliant man. He was a wise philosopher. He never told me wrong. He never steered me wrong. His wise counsel has taken me a mighty long way.
My mother on the other hand deliberately tried to ruin my life. It didn't work. She only succeeded in ruining her own life. Now, my family looks like a train wreck. But, it is not over for my brothers. They can come to the marvelous light. They still have the opportunity to come to GOD's Gospel Truth.
I know how they feel about her. She is a woman that you can't love. She won't let you. You can only fear her and hope that she will break you off some change. "Some change" is all you are going to get. She is still stingy and tight "waddish". She gambles so she doesn't have much left for you.
I thank GOD for her. I surely do. If you are like me you can learn a lot from her misspent life. You can learn what not to do. Most of all you will never be content to be a phony "Christian".
Live right to just live right. Love the LORD with all your heart, mind and soul. Speak GOD's Truth boldly. I know that GOD will keep a "ram in the bushes" just for you.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember'"Apart for Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf yu, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, August 17, 2012
Don't be fool enough ...
to think you are going to fool GOD, ever! Jesus told you; "Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you free!" Those words are no mystery to me. I fully understand them. I'm dancing, I'm prancing. I'm having a Holy Ghost party, right here, right now! All by myself! Hallelujah! Can you say Amen? Can you say Praise the LORD?
I personally have the best testimony, the most precious journey, the greatest anointed delivery a person could ever have. Over sixty-one years ago I was delivered to a lost and confused woman in Richmond, Virginia. Over the last sixty-one years this woman has wrecked nothing but pure havoc and closeted secret demonology over my life. GOD revealed her to me and He saved me.
No, I am not her only target. If you know her and associate with her you can be sure that you are a target as well. Something "got wrong with Martha Jane" a long time ago. She never could get right. Could never love or be "normal". She is a sadist. I do not agree with my family members that think they should sacrifice their lives and happiness to help her keep her "good name". First of all she has no good name. There are many people that shun her. She hates them. Lies on them, pretends that they are simply jealous of her extraordinary beauty and color. Nothing could be further from the truth. The people that shun her are wise. They are keen observers. They are not fooled by the smoke and mirrors. They are not easily bribed by the token gifts.
Now, my journey has been hard because she is my mother. Of course I never wanted to believe that she is as evil as she really is. But, I know it for myself. I am scarred and broken. Lacerated, brutalized, beaten down into mere dust. GOD has been with me through it all. He has never left me. He directed my footsteps and guided me all the way.
The world needs to know that such evil exists. That the evilest most demonic person in the world could be your pastor, your associate minister, your Sunday school teacher. Jesus told us. He warned us about these vipers infiltrating the "church". Jesus certainly told you NOT to fear them or to placate them. You don't have to hide them because they claim to be kin.
Come boldly to the throne of grace. I know GOD is not happy with wimpy "Christians" that tolerate evil in their midst. He is not happy with your weak faith and lack of confidence. "Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you free."
At some point you are going to have to come clean Martha. You are going to have to get right with GOD. How dare you pretend to hate me for spilling the tea on you. Who didn't know? That; "What's done on duh ship stay on the ship." won't wash. I don't have a real problem with your human weaknesses. I do have a serious problem with your sadist cruelty.
"The cat is out of the bag." Martha. You may as well face up and clean up. I forgive you. I totally forgive you of every sick demonic thing you ever did to me. I forgive you for MURDERING my grandfather. You see, I would have never had the pleasure of knowing him and loving him without you.
Deep in your heart you knew that I would be the one to call you out one day. Perhaps that is why you hated me so much and mistreated me. "It is all in Divine Order!"
Praise the LORD! Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I personally have the best testimony, the most precious journey, the greatest anointed delivery a person could ever have. Over sixty-one years ago I was delivered to a lost and confused woman in Richmond, Virginia. Over the last sixty-one years this woman has wrecked nothing but pure havoc and closeted secret demonology over my life. GOD revealed her to me and He saved me.
No, I am not her only target. If you know her and associate with her you can be sure that you are a target as well. Something "got wrong with Martha Jane" a long time ago. She never could get right. Could never love or be "normal". She is a sadist. I do not agree with my family members that think they should sacrifice their lives and happiness to help her keep her "good name". First of all she has no good name. There are many people that shun her. She hates them. Lies on them, pretends that they are simply jealous of her extraordinary beauty and color. Nothing could be further from the truth. The people that shun her are wise. They are keen observers. They are not fooled by the smoke and mirrors. They are not easily bribed by the token gifts.
Now, my journey has been hard because she is my mother. Of course I never wanted to believe that she is as evil as she really is. But, I know it for myself. I am scarred and broken. Lacerated, brutalized, beaten down into mere dust. GOD has been with me through it all. He has never left me. He directed my footsteps and guided me all the way.
The world needs to know that such evil exists. That the evilest most demonic person in the world could be your pastor, your associate minister, your Sunday school teacher. Jesus told us. He warned us about these vipers infiltrating the "church". Jesus certainly told you NOT to fear them or to placate them. You don't have to hide them because they claim to be kin.
Come boldly to the throne of grace. I know GOD is not happy with wimpy "Christians" that tolerate evil in their midst. He is not happy with your weak faith and lack of confidence. "Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you free."
At some point you are going to have to come clean Martha. You are going to have to get right with GOD. How dare you pretend to hate me for spilling the tea on you. Who didn't know? That; "What's done on duh ship stay on the ship." won't wash. I don't have a real problem with your human weaknesses. I do have a serious problem with your sadist cruelty.
"The cat is out of the bag." Martha. You may as well face up and clean up. I forgive you. I totally forgive you of every sick demonic thing you ever did to me. I forgive you for MURDERING my grandfather. You see, I would have never had the pleasure of knowing him and loving him without you.
Deep in your heart you knew that I would be the one to call you out one day. Perhaps that is why you hated me so much and mistreated me. "It is all in Divine Order!"
Praise the LORD! Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, August 16, 2012
The Price of Admission
I can not begin to tell you how many concerts or performances I have had to miss over the course of my life because I didn't have enough money for a ticket. The fact is I have performed in plays that I could not buy a ticket to if I had to.
I would not call myself poor. Struggling yes. Like most people I came into the world struggling and more likely than not I will leave struggling. Perhaps a lot of it was my own fault. I chose to become a teacher rather than a lawyer or doctor. I chose to be honest rather than a cheat. I chose to get rid of that worthless, ill tempered, narcissistic, low life, cheating, half gay "husband". I would rather be happy and broke than front with someone I grew to despise.
Like that Langston Hughes poem; "Life for me ain't been no crystal stair." I am not complaining mind you. I've been blessed beyond compare. I'm still blessed. Still reaping where I have not sown. But, I know you can't get in anywhere if you don't have the price of admission. Not unless someone comps you some tickets.
Jesus comps us some tickets! Praise the LORD! If you want to get into heaven. If you want to see Glory. If you want to live life more abundantly you must have the price of the ticket. The price you pay is goodness. You must live righteously and honestly. You must be a truth teller.
You can't get in being a phony sneak dressed up in a robe spouting scripture to impress the gullible. Your ability to fool most people will not get you in. Harboring secret hatred and jealousy just makes you smell. GOD forbid that you "unrighteous walk" keeps anyone from GOD's Kingdom.
If your feet are swift to run to mischief. If you delight in leading GOD's children astray, into captivity because you consider your cunning to be a desirable asset you are going to burn in hell. As a matter of fact you are already burning in hell. That's why you are miserable. That's why you can't find any joy or satisfaction. All the clothes, shoes, and so called friends and minions will never make you happy. All your lies and mountains of deceit only succeed in making you feel worse. You know You! You know the real You. You know better than any one the heavy burden you carry and try to conceal. Name calling, lying, brutalizing and "root working" will not change any thing.
The best thing you can do is fall down on your knees right where you are. Fall out prostrate on that cross and beg GOD to forgive you of your long list of sins. Admit hat you have been nothing but an ignorant fool, a clown, an imp for the devil. Do it now. Do it while you still have time. What are you waiting on? Will you let the devil use you to prove to the world that he made you a total idiot? Just how dumb are you?
The price of admission is free! Salvation is free! You can't steal or lie your way in. There is only one way. Don't claim to be walking up GOD's Highway when you know you are not. Don't get fighting mad and rage with hate when you get caught up to your eyeballs in devilment. Love the LORD with all your heart and mind. If you can't do it, ask GOD why. Ask Him why you keep deceiving yourself. Ask Him why you can't love, can't say you are sorry. Ask Him why you keep doing wrong when you want to do right.
Fast and pray. Ask GOD to touch your heart with a finger of love. Pray for those that fooled you. Pray for those that told you being "yalla", big legged, "good hired" and deceitful was your ticket. Forgive yourself for dishonoring yourself. Come to the Truth. Come to GOD's marvelous light.
GOD bless you! Know that GOD loves you, forgives you. You ticket is waiting. All you have to do is pick it up.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I would not call myself poor. Struggling yes. Like most people I came into the world struggling and more likely than not I will leave struggling. Perhaps a lot of it was my own fault. I chose to become a teacher rather than a lawyer or doctor. I chose to be honest rather than a cheat. I chose to get rid of that worthless, ill tempered, narcissistic, low life, cheating, half gay "husband". I would rather be happy and broke than front with someone I grew to despise.
Like that Langston Hughes poem; "Life for me ain't been no crystal stair." I am not complaining mind you. I've been blessed beyond compare. I'm still blessed. Still reaping where I have not sown. But, I know you can't get in anywhere if you don't have the price of admission. Not unless someone comps you some tickets.
Jesus comps us some tickets! Praise the LORD! If you want to get into heaven. If you want to see Glory. If you want to live life more abundantly you must have the price of the ticket. The price you pay is goodness. You must live righteously and honestly. You must be a truth teller.
You can't get in being a phony sneak dressed up in a robe spouting scripture to impress the gullible. Your ability to fool most people will not get you in. Harboring secret hatred and jealousy just makes you smell. GOD forbid that you "unrighteous walk" keeps anyone from GOD's Kingdom.
If your feet are swift to run to mischief. If you delight in leading GOD's children astray, into captivity because you consider your cunning to be a desirable asset you are going to burn in hell. As a matter of fact you are already burning in hell. That's why you are miserable. That's why you can't find any joy or satisfaction. All the clothes, shoes, and so called friends and minions will never make you happy. All your lies and mountains of deceit only succeed in making you feel worse. You know You! You know the real You. You know better than any one the heavy burden you carry and try to conceal. Name calling, lying, brutalizing and "root working" will not change any thing.
The best thing you can do is fall down on your knees right where you are. Fall out prostrate on that cross and beg GOD to forgive you of your long list of sins. Admit hat you have been nothing but an ignorant fool, a clown, an imp for the devil. Do it now. Do it while you still have time. What are you waiting on? Will you let the devil use you to prove to the world that he made you a total idiot? Just how dumb are you?
The price of admission is free! Salvation is free! You can't steal or lie your way in. There is only one way. Don't claim to be walking up GOD's Highway when you know you are not. Don't get fighting mad and rage with hate when you get caught up to your eyeballs in devilment. Love the LORD with all your heart and mind. If you can't do it, ask GOD why. Ask Him why you keep deceiving yourself. Ask Him why you can't love, can't say you are sorry. Ask Him why you keep doing wrong when you want to do right.
Fast and pray. Ask GOD to touch your heart with a finger of love. Pray for those that fooled you. Pray for those that told you being "yalla", big legged, "good hired" and deceitful was your ticket. Forgive yourself for dishonoring yourself. Come to the Truth. Come to GOD's marvelous light.
GOD bless you! Know that GOD loves you, forgives you. You ticket is waiting. All you have to do is pick it up.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Somebody PRAYED for you.
Somebody prayed for you when it was easier to doubt you. It was much easier to hate you. But, they saw fit to pray for you. Some how they found it in their heart to love you, to lift you up.
Remember that the next time you find yourself swelling up with pride. The next time you are honored and glorified by your fellow man for all you've done. Remember the nature of man, how everyone loves a winner. How everyone loves to be in your company.
Then remember that you are just one mistake away from tragedy. One wrong move from being nobody. Look at Evander Holyfield. The media could not wait to tell you how hard he is having it. He lost his multi-million dollar estate. It only fetched $7.5 million dollars. Now he is going to have to sell his championship belt. He is in the process of divorcing his third wife. He has eleven children and can't pay his child support payments. The world is laughing, tightening the screws, twisting the knife in his back.
Don't feel so good. Don't believe all of those people love you. The person that prays for you loves you. The person that earnestly and fervently prays for you is truly the one who loves you. They love you unconditionally, flaws, warts and all.
Thank GOD for them. You pray. Dare to pray for someone else. Dare to love someone just because GOD loves you. Love someone without pretence or reason. Love someone because you know it is the right thing to do. Love because you know it is a part of GOD's plan.
Love without expecting anything back. One of the greatest moments I shared with my grandfather was concerning changing him, cleaning him up. He was quite elderly and infirm. He had an accident. He didn't want my mother to know because she would have ridiculed him. It was no problem for me. I prepared a warm bubble bath for him. Cleaned him up, powdered him like a baby and put fresh neatly ironed pajamas on him. I noticed that he was crying. I said;"You don't have to cry granddaddy, I don't mind." He said; ;"No dawthur, you don't understand, I use'ta change yo' diapers and here you are...changing mine." We both laughed.
The good that you do will come back to you. Keep your hand in the hand of the man that stilled the waters. Pray for someone today. Lift somebody up!
Remember that the next time you find yourself swelling up with pride. The next time you are honored and glorified by your fellow man for all you've done. Remember the nature of man, how everyone loves a winner. How everyone loves to be in your company.
Then remember that you are just one mistake away from tragedy. One wrong move from being nobody. Look at Evander Holyfield. The media could not wait to tell you how hard he is having it. He lost his multi-million dollar estate. It only fetched $7.5 million dollars. Now he is going to have to sell his championship belt. He is in the process of divorcing his third wife. He has eleven children and can't pay his child support payments. The world is laughing, tightening the screws, twisting the knife in his back.
Don't feel so good. Don't believe all of those people love you. The person that prays for you loves you. The person that earnestly and fervently prays for you is truly the one who loves you. They love you unconditionally, flaws, warts and all.
Thank GOD for them. You pray. Dare to pray for someone else. Dare to love someone just because GOD loves you. Love someone without pretence or reason. Love someone because you know it is the right thing to do. Love because you know it is a part of GOD's plan.
Love without expecting anything back. One of the greatest moments I shared with my grandfather was concerning changing him, cleaning him up. He was quite elderly and infirm. He had an accident. He didn't want my mother to know because she would have ridiculed him. It was no problem for me. I prepared a warm bubble bath for him. Cleaned him up, powdered him like a baby and put fresh neatly ironed pajamas on him. I noticed that he was crying. I said;"You don't have to cry granddaddy, I don't mind." He said; ;"No dawthur, you don't understand, I use'ta change yo' diapers and here you are...changing mine." We both laughed.
The good that you do will come back to you. Keep your hand in the hand of the man that stilled the waters. Pray for someone today. Lift somebody up!
"Victory is mine ...
Victory is mine ...Victory today is mine ..." I'm still singing. It still sounds ugly to the world, in total "disharmony", an ugly screech. But, it sounds good to me.
And victory is mine! Got up this morning admiring my beautiful delicious raspberries. I never knew that one day I would be growing and harvesting my own raspberries, blackberries, Scuppernong and Muscadine grapes.
I had no idea that one day I would enjoy such a beautiful garden. I was just a little girl shadowing my grandfather. Every where he went, I went. Everything he did, I did. That's what children do. Children emulate their elders.
My grandfather carried some powerful love and compassion for his fellow man in his heart. That's what I want. Granddaddy was a very wise man. No, he never formally earned a degree. The truth is he never finished elementary school. There were no schools for "colored" people in the rural south where he grew up. He was educated in the tobacco fields of North and South Carolina.
He was self educated though. He was a ravenous reader to the day he died. He read the entire newspaper from cover to cover. He read my textbooks. My grandfather never saw a book that he didn't like. He read his Bible every day.
I am also a ravenous reader. I was blessed to be surrounded by libraries my whole life. My mother did buy books. She was a member of "Book of the Month Club". I will give her that . She may have made something real out of her life if she could have managed to come to GOD's Truth. If she could have rid herself of doubt, insecurity and insane jealousy.
It didn't happen, so I'm just warning you. Always be honest with yourself. Never lie. When or if you feel pangs of jealousy swelling up inside of you, pray. Pray those feeling away. You are going to meet many people that are smarter than you, or more attractive. Don't hate them. Don't wish them bad luck. Don't send them bad vibes. Lift them up. We should all lift each other up in prayer.
You may think the person that you secretly hate or envy doesn't know. Believe me they know. I'm sure you've felt when someone was giving you the evil eye. Most try to mask their true feeling with kind words or phony praise. GOD gives us the power of discernment.
Love yourself. Love GOD! Love GOD with all your heart, mind and soul. Start there. Study your Bible! Know GOD's laws and obey them. To obey is better than sacrifice. Don't argue and disagree with GOD. You can't win. Don't run from the LORD! You can't win. Pray for divine guidance and protection. Pray for the indwelling of His Holy Spirit.
If you don't want it, you won't have it. Go ahead and do it your way. You are going to lose. "Victory is mine ...Victory is mine ...Victory today is mine!"
Still singing! Still smiling and radiating. Thank you Father, thank you for my granddaddy!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
And victory is mine! Got up this morning admiring my beautiful delicious raspberries. I never knew that one day I would be growing and harvesting my own raspberries, blackberries, Scuppernong and Muscadine grapes.
I had no idea that one day I would enjoy such a beautiful garden. I was just a little girl shadowing my grandfather. Every where he went, I went. Everything he did, I did. That's what children do. Children emulate their elders.
My grandfather carried some powerful love and compassion for his fellow man in his heart. That's what I want. Granddaddy was a very wise man. No, he never formally earned a degree. The truth is he never finished elementary school. There were no schools for "colored" people in the rural south where he grew up. He was educated in the tobacco fields of North and South Carolina.
He was self educated though. He was a ravenous reader to the day he died. He read the entire newspaper from cover to cover. He read my textbooks. My grandfather never saw a book that he didn't like. He read his Bible every day.
I am also a ravenous reader. I was blessed to be surrounded by libraries my whole life. My mother did buy books. She was a member of "Book of the Month Club". I will give her that . She may have made something real out of her life if she could have managed to come to GOD's Truth. If she could have rid herself of doubt, insecurity and insane jealousy.
It didn't happen, so I'm just warning you. Always be honest with yourself. Never lie. When or if you feel pangs of jealousy swelling up inside of you, pray. Pray those feeling away. You are going to meet many people that are smarter than you, or more attractive. Don't hate them. Don't wish them bad luck. Don't send them bad vibes. Lift them up. We should all lift each other up in prayer.
You may think the person that you secretly hate or envy doesn't know. Believe me they know. I'm sure you've felt when someone was giving you the evil eye. Most try to mask their true feeling with kind words or phony praise. GOD gives us the power of discernment.
Love yourself. Love GOD! Love GOD with all your heart, mind and soul. Start there. Study your Bible! Know GOD's laws and obey them. To obey is better than sacrifice. Don't argue and disagree with GOD. You can't win. Don't run from the LORD! You can't win. Pray for divine guidance and protection. Pray for the indwelling of His Holy Spirit.
If you don't want it, you won't have it. Go ahead and do it your way. You are going to lose. "Victory is mine ...Victory is mine ...Victory today is mine!"
Still singing! Still smiling and radiating. Thank you Father, thank you for my granddaddy!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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