"What is done in the dark ...

shall surely come to light."  I didn't write it. GOD did! I didn't make this world.  I didn't make myself.  I did not ask to come here.  I am a very independent, self sufficient person.  I have been (so) , for my entire life.  I am sure I was that baby that could change her own diaper or at least wiggle my way out of a very soiled one.

My first real job after college was that of a social worker for Cumberland County Department of Families and Children Services.  My first "client" was a heroin addict,  living in a trailer park.  I was amazed when I made a home visit and found a tiny toddler intelligent enough to scoot a chair across the floor, climb the chair, them climb up on the kitchen counter, to retrieve a box of cereal, get milk from the refrigerator and feed herself,  along with a smaller sibling.

I remember telling my mother.  The look on her face was one of guilt.  Guilt?  I did not understand why.   Of course I was puzzled.  Did my mother also once have a heroin addiction?  She was a prostitute.  Dr.  X, a prominent doctor in Fayetteville was her former pimp.

No, she never told me.  I put it together.  My family kept secrets.  To tell anything on Mathy Jane was to get your ass whipped, pulverized, stabbed, shot, assassinated and ROOTED!

My mother taught all of us to  sink or swim.  Make it on your own.  We did!  From selling her liquor in high school, to writing research papers, making and selling the best Chilly Dogs ever created.  We survived and attempted to thrive.

One brother became a medical doctor!  She never gave him one red cent but she was swift to ruin him! And glad to do it!  Martha was very proud of the way she made him suffer.  SADISTIC!  He was the one she tried to boil with that pot of hot coffee.

While Martha complimented my drive, little did I know what a secret enemy she was.   Why didn't she ever notice how miserably she was losing?  satan's delusion, a promise from GOD.

Sit up under charismatic (secretly wicked) preachers if you want to, don't read, refuse to study, you will end up in a blistering hell with the likes of Mathy Jane.

I'm actually laughing, a total imp, Mathy refused to go to hell alone.  It seems she is dragging a lot of folks with her.  It does make me cry.  The baby I witnessed her beat, mistreate miserably , deliberated destroyed his life while grinning in his face, thinks he  loves her.  He does hate me.

One thing for sure, Mathy always campaigned against me, in my face!  Lied on me and did successfully  persuade my entire family to hate me, pinned her sick evil repugnant evil on me.  There are only two people in this entire world my  mother was not able to trick with her two-edged lying manipulative tongue, my grandfather and my daughter.

I do thank my daughter for loving me while my mother made me miserable, unlovable ,unconsolable.  I do thank her for building this web page, for encouraging me to seek counseling.

Final Admonition

"For behold, the day is coming, burning like a furnace; all the arrogant and every evildoer will be chaff; and the day that is coming will set ablaze, says the LORD of hosts, so that it will leave them neither root nor branch." Malachi 4:1

Arrogant!  To know Mathy Jane was to know a stank evil stuck up heifer, nothing but an evil jealous, rude, always "sacking someone out", always irritable, always loud and clamorous,  hater , her entire life.

Thought her Cadillac was the world.  Everything for Mathy Jane.  If she had one wig, she must have had thousands.  Shoes, shoes, shoes!  Boxes, baskets, closets, a garage full of shoes!  She was a hoarder.  (Dear LORD please deliver me from hoarding.) 

They tell me relatives backed U-hauls up to her house.  With out asking, without waiting for her husband to give permission.  There was no reading of her will.  Well, if there was one, no one invited me.  She made a point of making sure every one knew to not give me ****!   (You better be careful.  You may have hauled off some of her evil.)

Sorry, if you believe in Mathy Jane, if you honor her, love her, are still trying to protect her image, you are evil.  You may not be the ABOMINATION she was, but you are just as evil, low and common.

You know someone in your family MURDERED  a good man!  You know she was a ROOT WORKER!   A rapist!  A pervert!  A liar!  Yet you brag about how she could preach!

Dear LORD, I beseech thee, I pray for your mercy on the remnants of the Walters Family.

How long? Not long!

Freedom! My own mother was the most brilliant, cunning, conniving , manipulative cunt, sociopath that ever lived!

Martha Jane Walters loved being evil!  Studied it!  Admired it!  Cultivated, sought, researched, craved evil, any and every form of wrong doing unimaginable.    A legion of demons crammed up, cloistered up,  in an attractive human body.   A wild, savage, primitive, cruel beast,  all the same.

I get up early every bright beautiful morning celebrating her death!    Breathing in GOD's cool crisp clean air, airing my soul, finally.  I am no longer too black!  I am no longer Hagar's child, my mother's nasty footstool.  Praising the LORD for finally taking her (annoyed, perplexed, confused that He took so long).

Martha was always a tenacious imp that refused to recognize that she was ever wrong about anything , that Almighty GOD was supreme.    Martha was NOT going to do that, ever!    She was never going to be caught, punished, shunned, left out, uninvited.    She was going to have the chief seats!  Her name was going to be on "program".   She was going to be the featured celebrity of every occasion (whether you liked it or agreed or not).

Martha,  the tenacious reprobate imp, refused to lose!  She would play crazy, mentally ill, psychotic, confused, impaired, unjustly accused, pre-judged, the victim of lies and jealousy.  She would pretend to go into a trance, rather than answer you.

Poor Martha was an incredibly embarrassing whore.  She had no restraint what so ever!  More than promiscuous, she was a NYMPHOMANIAC !   Born in 1925, her "kind", was unheard  of,  hidden away,  kept secret.   Never to be identified, discussed or solved.   Martha was our burden, our thorn in the flesh .  She was our "right eye offending us".    She was not the pink elephant in the room, she was the monster that we better fear and call "mother" .   And we better call reverently with out a hint of animosity.    We could be fearful, she loved the terror in our  eyes.   She loved for us to drown her in compliments,  of how light her skin was or how "good" her hair was.

  She was born into a Christian family.  Every one in that family loved the LORD, attended church, built churches.   So where did Martha come from?   How was she created?   GOD wants us all to know how easy it is to become a Mathy Jane.    GOD's wants us to know that each and every one of us is just a lie away.    "A lie away", one mistake away, one bad decision away ,  from becoming another Mathy Jane.

Was it her "attack"?   Really, did Martha's rape as a small child cause her to become the low fallen deeply disturbed woman she became?    A flower forced to bloom too soon.   Did that tragic event cause little Martha to turn demon?  to solicit demons?  to hate?  to plot? to destroy?

Poor Martha lived the life of an extremely evil , two year old toddler,  for 87 years!   We learned that we were just "collateral damage".    That Martha's life was the only  life we should ever concern ourselves with.    If Mathy wasn't happy, we were not happy.   And unfortunately Martha was at her absolute happiest , when we were at our worse. when we were the lowest and she the IMP danced on us, on GOD's children!  (Is that how much you secretly hated GOD? )   I can still see her; eyes fire red, hunched over and up to the vilest evil,  seeking "pleasure".

• Smashing puppies between bricks
• Setting people on fire
• Deliberately scalding her toddler son 
• Deliberately branding every child she could
• Rapes!
• Molestations!
• Stabbings, pistol whippings and MURDER!
• Lies and Conjure!

I know for a fact that she never loved anyone, roared with hatred, hated, loved to hate with a vengence for 87 YEARS!  .   While my mother was very intelligent, very attractive, she was unreachable, unteachable.  She was a menace to society.  A destroyer of dreams.  MARTHA JANE WALTERS WAS AN ABOMINATION!

Martha never wanted to win, to succeed at anything.  She just wanted you to give up, to lose, to be her narcissistic supply, someone to look down on.  She demanded that YOU give up everything, bow down, serve and revere her.  In exchange she would deliver phony platitudes.  Call you her "black prince", declare her great love for YOU.

"I ain't studin' the rest of dem ******!  F**** trailer trash! They don't do nutting' fuh me…jest come round here when dey need sump'tin', when dey begging!  Dem sorry **** always got money for barbecues, parties and sech …. nun of'um come heah and cut my grass, help me clean up …**** dey don't even ****** dust.  I know I ain't gon see nar one of um till dey need sump'tin."

Martha would go on and on for hours about how my "father" tricked her and never married her.   How she had been the poor victim of lying whorish men her entire life.  HOG WASH!

Martha Jane Walters was NEVER ANY ONE's VICTIM!  We were the victims!  Martha chose to crucify, mutilate, torture, eviscerate, maim  , render defenseless and helpless, rather than change one tiny infraction about herself.   Martha some how believed that SHE was perfect, could do NO wrong and that GOD and this entire stupid world was the problem, not her.   Poor carnal, sex addicted Martha could not slow down or change.  In Martha's depraved mind, every day , perhaps every hour without sex was torture.  Martha felt she was missing some pleasure, some money.  Every day without robbing, raping, lying, conniving, deliberately leading astray, was a wasted day.

Martha bragged that she was sitting on a "gold mine".   She was hilarious!  At 80 plus, bragging that men were still hitting on her.   That she still had it, how her best friend's young lover was trying to get with her.

DELUSIONAL!  Following that evil serpent satan will guarantee your blindness.  You will squirm out of reality,  screaming foul.  You will always be the victim.

I was watching Steve Wilkos yesterday.  I can not speak to the legitimacy of his show but yesterday was real.  A man was accused of molesting his girlfriend's two year old daughter.  He failed the Lie Detector Test miserably.  The woman went ballistic,  genuinely.

My evil stank mother would have had to lie.  I did remind her of how the exact same thing happened to me.   Martha laughed,  as I , a five year old,  had sense enough to run for my life.  Scarred for  life , GOD saved my life. ( Is that why you made sure I was good and drunk before you two buzzards attempted your evil again ?)

I guess you thought eight was a good age, because that was the same age you were destroyed.  Good news, I wasn't destroyed.  I was made better.  Praise the LORD!

Silent no more! Victim no more! Down with all tyrants!  BOW DOWN sATAN!

GOD said it!

How do I know?  I know because GOD said it!  Told me, directly, intimately! Praise the LORD!

It is one thing to be ignorant, uneducated, another to be wicked, but when you combine the most primitive ignorant superstition with abominable demon possession, you have The Mathy Jane Experience.

You have a legion of demons cloistered up in one body, behind a beautiful face, smile and brilliant cunning.  There is no hiding place.  GOD had to "let her let".  We had to learn first hand, up close and in person the wages of sin, the foolishness of pride, a true demonstration of weak faith.

If you are a liar, you are a person of weak faith.  You can not trust GOD to rescue you so you lie.  You know that you are not deserving.  "As a man thinks in his heart so is he."  If you think, believe you are a low whore, something despicable, that is what you will be .

Unfortunately, that is not the end of the story.  Your sorry, low, filthy, self esteem will cause you to envy, to lust, to covet.  You will never grow because you refuse to come to the truth.

You are a reprobate, your feet are swift to run to mischief.  Any imp can entice you to do things forbidden by GOD.  That is satan's method of recruitment, shame.  Involve you in a shameful act, now you are a co-conspirator.

Reject all evil!  Do not look at the blood relationship.  A real "mother" does not deliberately lead her children (any children) into captivity.

Take a long hard look.  Take inventory, take assessment.  Are you a liar?  Why?  Not one person on this earth is better than you?

If you are a liar, stay away from me.  Thanks to my Mathy Jane Experience  I  do not waste my time with liars.  Wow!  Another hidden blessing, another benefit from my Mathy Jane Experience. Praise the LORD!

It's the Real Thing!

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rue, genuine, authentic, original, pure, unadulterated, the "sho'nuff Gospel Truth".  That is what The Holy Spirit is.  It is GOD's Grace to His elect, His anointed, His chosen.

"Some through the water,

some through the flood,

Some through the fire;

But ALL through the Blood!

Some through great sorrow,

But GOD gives a song

In the night season and all the day long."

-Young

Not too very long ago I would have advised you to be careful of people selling fake; fake purses,  fake watches, fake anything.

I do now know through GOD's Grace that I  (we) should be more concerned  with people that want fake, phony, artificial objects, things; rather than the real thing.  Why?  Why settle for something that is fake? phony? artificial? puny?   lacking? inferior?  something mass produced and poorly made.  Something that will not last? Will fall apart?

Worse than that, people know that you carry a fake Fendi, Coach, Prada, …what ever it is.  People now know that you  are a liar, you put on.  That means  you must have  low self esteem.  Why?  Who told you  that you were naked?

r woman."

Why would anyone ever want less than the the best, "the real thing"?   Is artificial, phony, "put on a show",  part of their personality?     If so,  why?    If you can not relax and be real with a family member, you are in trouble.

Something has gone wrong in the Body of Christ.   There is a snake, a viper,  in the wood pile.  That viper insists she is not dangerous, not deadly.   She is convincing.   What did she do?   How did she do it?   How could that she-devil, rascally hell-cat, nasty viper,  do it so well? so long?   WITH OUR PERMISSION!   She cheated!  A low creature, she did deliberately take, destroy, brutalize, our courage, our "manhood", our self-esteem, our self worth, starting in infancy, FOR HER OWN CARNAL PLEASURE!  GOD SAID NO!!!.

Martha was a low whore.  The lowest whore unimaginable because she was so devoid of a conscious, of common decency and common sense.   She did in fact live an extremely evil repugnant life for 87 years!

She was a dummy.  Looking back over my life I fully realize why I took her "madness" so stoically.  Other than it being written and foretold, I did not want to believe IT.  The whole Mathy Jane Experience was incredulous!

I was forced to know.  My long lost brother returns after 25 years with the missing pieces to this long excruciating puzzle.    Now, she is old and her memory starts slipping.    BOOM!   Cold busted!  I'm disgusted!    I have the nerve to seek an apology just for my issues, mine and granddaddy's.

I have to laugh.  One of my mother's favorite quips was ; "You gon' meet yo'mammy drunk!",   a southern expression,  meaning you are gong to get the surprise of your life one day.

I met my mammy drunk!   Gently, intelligently and reverently seeking and apology for MY RAPE!  No mention of the 58 years of deceit and cunning.

That "yalla heifer"  blasted me to hell and back!    Worse, my family stood with her!  The one that came back after a quarter CENTURY, the  yoke fellow , that reminded me ,  that deliberately stirred my memory of things I had long forgotten, turned on me!  Went back to her!  ( I understand) 

 Well they can keep that artificially sweetened confectionary phony.  I would rather have GOD than silver and gold.

THIS IS MY SAVIOR!

"What I'm tripping over …"

How are you going to be instrumental in my torture, our sick, sadistic brutalizing,  bludgeoning, because you stupidly believed the world was going to set it out for you because of your color and hair!   Then turn around and rage against me, claim you hate me for lying on you, KNOWING GOOD AND DAMN WELL YOU ARE A DEMON POSSESSED ABOMINATION from the lowest bowels of hell!

Don't worry, I will not repeat what I think, am proof positive,  you did.  It is too repugnant!

The world must know, the world must realize the risk you take when you fail to pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.  The believer must know the great danger s/he is in.

satan  HAS NO MANNERS!  NO MORALS! HE WILL DESTROY YOU! HE WILL MAKE A COWARDLY LIAR OUT OF YOU! YOU WILL HATE YOURSELF!  YOU WILL RAGE!

Your low self esteem will cause you to lie, to pretend.  You will envy, covet, desire, become jealous.  Then you will plot. You will lie.  satan will cause you to become delusional in order to justify your lies.

At the longest, it is not long.  The world should know how one wayward whorish woman can and will take down an entire dynasty.  Mess, with "witchcraft", just dabble in it.  I assure you, you will end up a Mathy Jane or worse.

Vincent Van Gogh lived a tormented life.  The world convinced him that he was a failure.  Fulton's Folly, Seward's Folly, The Wright brothers, Christopher Columbus, on and on.

People ahead of their time.  Men determined to let no one, to let nothing dissuade them from their goal, dream, vision.

Some one needs to speak up and advocate for ALL abused children.  Every one of these poisonous , viperous, ravenous wolves in sheep's clothing should be snatched out of every pulpit, shunned in every family she still controls.

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