My mother lived eighty-seven years crazy as a loon. A wicked, demented fool. We could not stop her. She was a whirlwind with her own theme song. "Have no fear Mathy Jane is here!" I am finally realizing , she announced herself. How grandiose and pompous is that?
A megalomaniac , just like Trump. A pathological liar, just like Trump. She had us feeling sorry for her, just like Trump. " The system is rigged folks, the system is rigged if I don't win."
We should have been feeling sorry for our damn selves.
Martha never changed. Refused medication and or therapy. Why!? She wasn't the one suffering. If we had ever threated that bitch like she treated us, …she would have killed. LOL!
I am tickled to death. "(HE) keeps a ram in the bushes, (HE) will neither leave or forsake you." No shit!
Let me stop you right there. If you are still undereducated enough to think cursing, cussing, using crude language is a sin or displeasing to Almighty GOD you are a babe, a tiny babe in Christ. If you have never read your Bible thoroughly over and over, you are a babe in Christ. If you live right, love the LORD but, judge people by the color of their skin or ethnicity, gender, sexual preference, you are a babe in Christ.
"Come ye out from among them." I will never criticize any one for being conscious of their kind, noticing and appreciating the same "race", cultural or ethnic group. Just don't hate. Seek to understand. "Love ye one another as I have loved you." Talk before you bomb. "Arise from your slumber". America can not survive as AmeriKKKa. "A house divided against itself cannot stand."
When you vulgarly and hatefully advocate building a wall you are dividing on purpose. "THERE IS NON SO BLIND AS HE WHO REFUSES TO SEE." Rich white man you tricked the poor dumb rednecks before and here you come again. They fought a bloody war for you and LOST! You used the simple uneducated poor white man by claiming kinship, "Well at least we are white by Gawd!", making promises that you never intended to keep.
If AmeriKKKa elects Trump, so? I'm black. I've lived through worse. I survived Martha Jane Walters! I can survive Trump standing on my head whistling Dixie out of my ass. GOD has protected me from every imp that has jumped in my face, attempted to block my blessings low these many years and I'M STILL HERE!
You are an imp trying to start a race war. Bitch! You ain't paid no taxes , probably never, bragging about you are smart. Some shit you keep to yourself. Donald you're racist! Worse than being racist, you are old! You are seventy years old. Time has kicked your ass. I can say that because time has kicked my ass!
It is time to quit lying Donald. Get off of your pride. Quit making excuses. Stop. Pray. Fast. Ask Jesus to come into your heart to dwell. It's cool. No one is perfect. Chill. Take a "Chill pill" or
die by the sword." While my mother, Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureax was extremely charismatic , likable and often fun, she was DEMONIC! A DAMN TWO LEGGED VIPEROUS ABOMINATION TO GOD!
If you didn't know her, never met her, be glad. Praise the LORD! Ridiculously evil! Always "accidentally" scalding, burning, branding people. All your damn pets dying brutally, mysteriously at her hands. A damn fool wearing five hundred dollar outfits to a G-4 secretarial job in a warehouse. in the sixties blaming the "white man" , daddy and fellow niggers for the condition her condition was in.
Evil! Not only evil but, delusional, foolish. A preacher that preached eloquently not believing one word she said. A damn whorish imp that insisted on torturing and ruining people that loved her. What could cause such confusion? Demon possession! How did Martha become demon possessed? Practicing WITCHCRAFT!
My mother was a comedienne . She kept me in stitches. But, unfortunately she was a "Root Worker".
She had a pet nigger. By pet nigger I mean she had a man that she controlled, totally zombified for over forty years! She took his check, his wealth, his dreams and treated him like a dog.
I'm howling, I'm jubilant because I know it was the HAND OF GOD THAT SAVED ME! PRAISE THE LORD!
(HE) really will. You can't make me doubt (HIM) . That's why my evil mother was dead in my tracks stalking every stuttering step I ever took , pretending to love me with bloody daggers in her eyes! All those years, decades, nearly a century pretending to love GOD while totally hating (HIM), All goodness, all innocence with a passion.
My LORD from Zion, this imp started trying to destroy me in the womb. From day one this ravenous wolf was after my life! Ravenous, hungry, thirsty! Sexual molestation and rape! Physical, mental, emotional, financial! Martha knew all the time.
My mother was a witch. A witch is a sorcerer. I know it for a fact because she took us with her, deep down in the woods on graves when we were still toddlers. That image is burned in my head. It was the "Cow field". She gave us our first lesson in witchcraft. I was three years old, yet some how I knew this was wrong .
A witch is a satanist, which my mother was. She loved satan, did his bidding. She preached for cover, she preached to mock GOD, to prove to this world satan has more power than GOD. Why? Because that is what she believed. Martha leaned to her own understanding, was impressed by what she saw, by the immediacy of her voodoo. After all she got most of the men she wanted, caused a lot of people to lose, lose, lose repeatedly.
If you loved Martha I bet your house burned down, you lost every job, not one of your dreams ever materialized. You never married well, you aged early. If you still love and fear her you are miserable, broke or barely getting by.
No matter. Evil can't win because it is ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!
Just how long did she plan to get away with her filth? How could she announce to the world that I would never marry? Would never enjoy sex. What did she know about my sexuality?
I know my mother never grew beyond that perverted twelve year old. Still, there is no excuse for such cruelty. The bitch killed my granddaddy and shut me down! Would not let us say shit to her. That was Mathy Jane. "I'm light bright and damn near white!"; the whore bragged but, she had no discretion, none. Relatives! INCEST! PEDOPHILIA!
Why should I take it to my grave!? You are the one that did it! I'm not stupid bitch! I was old!
Damn! I hope you are ready to meet Jesus. I would love to be a fly on the wall when you see (HIM). Now, you know that bullying intimidation won't work. Neither will name calling. I guess you'll cry those crocodile tears.
It's cool. I'm excited. I'm free of you. That word Albatross means nothing with experiencing you!
Shit! How could you stand your self? How did you not ever kill yourself? You killed others but you could not find a bullet to end your wicked reign. Mathy , you crossed so many people up. Now they are like … WTF? You left too many people bewildered Mathy. Far too many. You should have repented for killing your daddy.
You should have repented for being a lying witch and blaming it on being black. One good thing about you being so racist, you proved it is demonic!
For sixty-two years I was forced to bear my mother's burden. What was her burden? Severe , irrational hatred and jealousy. My mother was an incestuous pervert that GOD blessed with six surviving children that she didn't want, demanded to ruin, eviscerate and laugh.
Martha did not, just not want us, any of us. She had some serious deep hatred for all of us that she flat refused to admit. I can not say she hated us all equally. We were all hated by her, all six of us, just differently. No, we didn't know that we knew and Martha never admitted it. If anything all she ever did was lie , swearing she loved us while plotting on us in the worse way every damn single day!
My mother was a stalker. She haunted graveyards seeking power. How dumb is that? That is some left over "slave shit" . Seriously !? Woman! A preacher! An ordained minister! That means you knew better. That means you had no excuse.
"We will all understand it better by and by." A woman must hate her child beyond human understanding to violate that infant sexually. That is torture, "man's inhumanity to man".
Martha poured that boiling pot of hot coffee on XXX just as sure. She did it because she was a monster . Martha Jane Walters, the little "white" red headed evil demon child that smashed a puppy between two bricks would try to linger on this earth ruining, destroying, skinning, grinning and denying as long as she could.
No Martha, at fourteen I had no idea why you threw your brand new dishwasher out in the backyard after I expressed to you how much I appreciated it. From age five to I finally fled your den of inequity, I was always elbow deep in dishwater. Dishwater made with strong Tide because you refused to buy any dish detergent.
Not to be out done, I hid all the damn dishes, all but a few. Yes, the blinders are finally coming off. You claimed you hated your first son with a passion because he ruined your life! We all ruined your life to let you tell it.
There are still too many people that want me to feel guilty about revealing you, for trying to expose you. My fellow victims hate me. I don't care because anyone simple enough to still love you is not worthy of my time.
Now Martha, I have to admit that I don't know if GOD sent you here wicked or you got wicked on your own. I do know your deep delusions were the penalty you had to pay for witchcraft. I also know that you know you could have repented.
and I'll run my business." There is a reason GOD told us not to judge lest we be judged. You weren't there, it is impossible for you to understand. How can you understand something I am still struggling to understand?
I was two the first time my mother terrorized me. She was screaming, hollering, going ballistic, she had the shotgun swearing she was going to murder my uncle . My uncle had hurt her feelings, criticized her treatment of me. For some reason he felt a dingy pair of ragged "draws", no shoes, hair unkempt and nose snotty was not appropriate for me.
How I do not know but, I remember this day clearly. It is etched in my brain like a scene from a horror movie. My uncle asked my mother if she could put some decent clothes on me. What did he say that for? Martha brought down thunder, lighting, she exploded. Granddaddy, grandma, no one could stop her.
In my twenty-twenty hindsight I can clearly see this was Martha's methodology , a preemptive offensive strike that kept all of her critics silent and her conscience clear. My mother made it known that it was all those sorry ass , black ass , nigger men that kept impregnating her and fooling her that should be blamed for my condition and "DON'T SAY A MUTHFUCKING THANG TO HUR ABOUT SHIT!!! SAY SUMPIN' ELSE! SAY SUMPIN'! NIGGA I'LL KILL YOU BEFO' FORTY GAWDS CAN SKIN A MINNON!"
For eighty-seven years if you displeased Martha Jane Walters by telling or leaking the truth on her, that is exactly what you got. If you only got cussed out , count yourself lucky. You were going to get "those hands". Perhaps stripped naked and brutally beaten. A pistol slapped in your face, pistol whipped. True, we all learned to let that damn Mathy Jane have her way early in our lives. Yes, we suffered miserably, suffered in silence but , we had peace.
Give Martha the "side-eye", contradict her if you were dumb enough, if you had enough grit in your craw. Oh, it was going to be ugly. That one little comment, that one tiny infraction produced twenty-four, forty-eight, maybe seventy-two hours of non stop vulgar cursing . Loud, emasculating, dreadful. FILTH! We may be the only family in the entire world that did not look forward to the week-end. "Shit! Tomorrow is Saturday. That bitch is going to be home all day!"
Sure enough, by seven a.m. Mathy Jane is banging on walls, cussing; "Git the fuck up! All you black muthafuckers! Git the fuck up!"
Sure we got up, cleaned up the entire house immaculately just so Madame Watson could destroy all of our hard work just deliberately messing shit up. Never putting the top back on anything, never washing a dish, never closing a cabinet or drawer, never hanging up one stitch. An imp, our mother was a full fledged imp for satan, mocked GOD because satan told her to.
She's gone, finally gone. Praise the LORD! It was our fault. Jesus clearly tells us to fear no man. We feared Martha. Sat up in church with her every Sunday, terrified.
