An accident of birth is no badge of honor.

I understand now, my mother was never nearly as ignorant as she pretended. Always declaring; "I'm light bright, damn near white!"  That is all she had.  Lazy Martha was not about to read a book to earn a degree. She learned how to type and was satisfied .  Her only problem she envied every one that did better, did more.   The imp, the viper in her made her want to deceive us, lead us into captivity.

She was willfully ignorant, wrong and mad without a cause.  The truth is my mother was an extremely lazy woman, toppled by her own extreme whorishness that she tried to pass off as normal.

My poor mother was hotter than a fire cracker, ravenous for both sexes.  She tried to keep it secret, well I will say she kept her "business" to herself through intimidation, lying, manipulation and voodoo.  Yes, voodoo works.  GOD would not waste (HIS) time speaking against it if it didn't work.

GOD did give us a proviso, "No weapon formed against me shall prosper."  My mother did a lot of evil against me in sixty-two years but,  GOD turned it all  around.

I can not be impressed by Trump's religious following or so called leaders.  My mother preached for over thirty years, played "saved and sanctified " for over eighty. No, GOD in your mouth does not impress me.  How can a true Christian not want to make sure everyone has health care?  It is not your money!

If you are wrong, know you are wrong and change.  If you can't change, pray to change.  Go into your secret closet. Sit down with that Bible, read it for yourself.

Praise the LORD!

Bill Deal & The Rhondels - I've Been Hurt

My song.  Yes, I've been hurt.  First a demon possessed mother, the worse and shortest  marriage in the history of mankind and now Big Orange.  "Big Orange",  some evil doer from the depths of hell come to vex me, us, to torment and force this world  into captivity. Not today "son", bow down satan. Repent of your many  sins, your many lies.  Repent of your manipulation.  Repent for taking advantage of the mentally infirm, of the poorly educated.  Repent for trying to play god!

I survived that Mathy Jane. I know GOD will bring me through this, all these ugly demonic racist vipers that have raised their hoary heads claiming GOD as their savior, trying to hide behind the Cross. My mother did it quite successfully for eighty-seven years!  She was ordained!  For real!  Could preach, at least I thought so. She sure fooled me and I was one of her chief victims.   GOD said No!

Keep on evil doer.  No human being could stop my mother either but, when GOD got ready it was over.

Praise the LORD!

Oh, it's so easy

It's so easy to sit on social media and judge others, declare what we would or would not do.  Key board courage is easier than liquid courage.

Jesus criticized us for our "humanness" , our monolithic desire to see the tiny mote in our neighbor's eye while denying the beam in our own.

We act all shocked and dismayed when we read about rape and child abuse in someone else's family , while pretending our families are perfect.  "GOD maketh Not ashamed!"  The descendants of Jerome Walters should not be ashamed but , come rejoicing.  I know the fervent prayers of that righteous man availeth much, saved me.

Yes, that fallen whore laid me low but, I got up! If you are defeated, get up! If you are gay, homosexual, bi-sexual, be you! Be who you are!  GOD loves you, love yourself!

I can't help scratching my head, the right wing Tea Party Evangelicals have spoken.  Big Orange is the president  of these un-united states of ameriKKKa.  I can't wait for one  of these  pussy grabbers to  follow some  transgendered person  into the restroom , tries to grab a  pussy but,  gets a handful of - - - -.

I know I can say it.  I can cuss like a sailor now because if anyone complains I will just remind them I am just like our president.  If he can do it, I can do it. That old "white is always right"  double standard stops here.

Maybe I am too sensitive just  like my mother always said.

-sigh-

Yes, I do cry

I cry everyday.  Every time I remember something psychotic, sadistic, immoral, carnal and demonic that woman did to me, to us and got away clean.

Every time I look at the stacks of videos and CDs of her preaching that I can not bring myself to watch, I cry.

I was mistreated by my evil demonic mother and the lying hypocritical racist in this world.  Will this world ever cry for me? Will I ever get one tear?  Do I have to be blond with blue eyes for this world to care about me? About us, about GOD's innocent children?

How many women have five coat hanger abortions and live to brag about it?  How many women get to curse and abuse their children every day and be kept a secret?  How many women pretend undying love for a man they murdered in cold blood?  Shot through the heart and the whore laughed.

How many victims  remain afraid of a very dead demon?

"Come ye out from among them!"

Holding back the tears

Yes, I am sitting here holding back the tears.  Yes, I am disgusted, deflated, dismayed but, I am not forsaken.  Yes, I was born into the evil demonic hands of an albatross, a sick demon straight from the bowels of hell.  Yes, I was vexed, tortured, molested, forsaken, left for dead more than once.  But, I'm still here, still praising GOD!

Some of my fellow victims despise me to this very day.  Dumb defeated nigger eunuchs hating me because their lying slutty closet "lesbo"  mother ruined their lives.  GET UP! GET UP MUTHAFUCKER! GET UP!  The bitch is dead! Praise the LORD! The whore is finally gone!


You don't have to obey her any more, fear her any more.  Celebrate!  The wicked witch is dead!  Get Up! An orange retarded immoral orangutan has been named POTUS.  So!? Who gives a fuck? Evil can't win.  Now my stupid ass mother died declaring she had won, knowing damn well she was a hopeless loser.

Evil bitch just embarrassed GOD to death, up in a pulpit preaching.  Just like Donald, preaching to the illiterates, the uneducated, the superstitious. Good enough for your dumb ass.  The stupid deserve to suffer.

These dumb muthafuckers already calling his ass President! He hasn't even been sworn in yet. President Obama was never called President!  The muthafucker ain't my President just like that slut was never my "mother".

"Come ye out from among them."

No sack cloth and ashes

No need to shave my head or to mourn.  So,  a despicable demon has been elected to the POTUS. So!?

GOD does sit high, (HE) does look low.  (HE) did save me from my evil demonic mother for my entire life. Evil can't win. GOD is still on the throne.

Praise the LORD!

God Will Take Care Of You - Aretha Franklin, Gospel Greats 1999 album

I think this is considered the consummate "black funeral" song.  Growing up I must say I used to love funerals when the deceased were not kin or someone I really loved.  Good music and good food is always in abundance, sometimes good preaching. 

I loved all the sharp ushers, nurses and attendants always smartly dressed, snow white gloved hands, precision erect quick  walking, every one walking at the "quick step",  every one communicating silently with eye contact only.   I think we thought talking was disrespectful to the dead, would disturb them.  (Like the dead could hear, GOD help us.)

I don't know if it is as prevalent today as it was years ago, we have to see the body, we must have and open casket.  We must see our loved ones one more time. 

Yes, I like a fool always believed in death bed confessions.  No such thing!  My mother promised that she wasn't apologizing for shit and she didn't! Did she need to? Yes!  Why couldn't she repent? Too evil, too jealous,too delusional, too lost, too forsaken, too broken,too full of pride.

  We can make all  the noise we want at a funeral and we can speak ill of the dead.   When you are dead,  you are done, you are not coming back.  You better do what you to  do and you better do it quickly.