I know I can write.

I know I have talent.  I also know my own mother hated me with a passion.  I know she was a lying whore,  common as a dog.  I know she took my fourteen year old boyfriend and screwed him because he was "yalla" , had grey eyes and pink lips.

I know GOD released my mother over to a reprobate mind, that she had five coat hanger abortions, murdered my grandaddy and stalked me for sixty-two years because she was willfully ignorant, an ignorant imp.

I know the AFRICAN METHODIST EPISCOPAL ZION CHURCH  gave that whore a license to preach and never tried to take it back because she was a notorious root worker.  I know that means they are not real Christ lovers, just a bunch of corrupt niggers stealing money.

My mother was a great writer but she was too lazy, too undisciplined, too addicted to treachery and sabotage.  My scar is still highly visible.  The low "stanking" slut pushed me into the wood burning stove deliberately!   She was after my face.  She had already burned my oldest brother that way.  She tried to burn his face off.  She poured boiling hot coffee on another brother.  The woman was a slut!

So, for eighty-seven years this woman was nothing more than a lying promiscuous whore! Not only did she practice incest, she involved her men!  You low "stanking" slut!  Don't you ever try to get up! Why didn't you just kill your damn self?   WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST GIVE US AWAY AND LEAVE US ALONE?

Any body dumb enough to tell me that I can't hate this bitch,  you are just as full of shit as Martha.  You are dumb enough to think Donald Trump wants to help your dumb black ass.  He is going to help your black ass alright.  You dumb muthfuckers are going to have to take the jobs of the Mexicans and at lower wages.  And your dumb stupid asses will be glad to get them.  You'll be sitting around the shack bragging about the good old days when you had fifty pair of Jordans, only wore one hundred percent human weave.

Good enough, should have fucking voted.  Should not have wasted your vote on Johnson.  I want every black, brown and yellow Trump supporter outed, put on a list.  I want to know your damn name.

I just want to see the look in your eyes when you find out what a Mathy Jane is.  A Mathy Jane is a pathological liar, a malignant narcissist, a Donald Trump.  Just bored imps playing god, mad with GOD and can never be happy.

Yes, the wicked do finally cease from tousling. Warning,  it may take eighty-seven years,

It is a fact.

My own mother was perhaps one of the wickedest persons to ever walk this earth.  She was a horror, an abomination.  I know now all that rage was the real evil she successfully kept suppressed so often, so long.  Every once in a while my mother would get caught doing something extremely demonic.  I can assure you she taught us and she taught us well, it was better for us to take her abuse than ever risk revealing her.

I fully understand.  I've been trying to reveal that horrid whore for years. Her church remains mum.  That can only mean they are just as wicked and as corrupt as she was.  Oh yes, Martha always declared the A.M.E.Zion Church was full of nothing but faggots from the bishops on down.  I know they are spineless.  How can you call yourself a Christian  and be afraid of a dead demon?

I am  still gaining my strength, still learning how to stand on these spindly legs, still determined to rescue as many abused innocent children as I can.

I do kind of understand why Martha hated herself so much.  A woman without any discretion.  Martha would just as soon rape a baby as beat one.  Just as soon have sex with a bunch of young men in a dayroom in front of her nineteen year old daughter as spit or chew gum.  Warning! That is demon possession.   Demon possession my hard headed mother earned for practicing WITCHCRAFT!

  All that hugging and kissing was just for show.  Yes! I told you I caught her trying to deafen my newborn.  Do know that old viper was as smooth as silk, cooed just as slyly.  That fire and brimstone in her eyes burned through me.   I am sure that is the only reason I can recall that incident so vividly.

 The demon in Mathy Jane sensed the Christ in my daughter.  The evil whore sensed granddaddy's spirit re-born in my baby.  Tried her damnest  to ruin my daughter.  It didn't work!

Now rot!  Bow down Mathy Jane! Bow down all you secret root workers of iniquity.  Do know you shall be known.  You can rot or repent.   Not one one of my surviving siblings, fellow victims  can say anything good about Martha truthfully.  You are just like Trump supporters, afraid not to love that demon.

It is not too late.  You can still step out on faith.  You can still trust and obey.

What I don't understand ...

Yes, my mother was an extremely evil woman.  Why didn't we know that it was demon possession? No church preached it.  Granddaddy hinted but,  he never came out and said it directly. "The lion's mouth" was code for Martha.

We would run to him seeking help, advice, a listening ear concerning his wayward daughter.  "When your head is in the lion's mouth , you don't make any sudden moves."

What did granddaddy know? And when did he know it?

She's dead now, finally died. Sigh (SMILE)

Throwing shade on the shade tree mechanic

Have you ever taken your car to a shade tree mechanic because you thought you could not afford to get ripped off at the dealership?  How much cash money did you give someone without credentials, some greasy man you could not understand, someone that could not comprehend the concept of a warranty?

Have you ever  had to deal with a "mechanic" recommended by one of your co-worker's friend's cousin's brother in law ?  Did you just finally accept the fact you were never going to win with that old car that was costing you every payday?

You may want to feel the same way about your so called pastor, church leaders, right wing Evangelicals and so called Holy Rollers.  Don't hang on every word that comes out of their mouth because they are rich, good looking and wear fine clothes.  Don't get fooled because you are attracted.  Is s/he encouraging you to study your Bible? Does s/he insist that only s/he has sense enough to interpret it?

Do you feel mistreated? Did your mother have you cleaning shitty cloth diapers when you were five?  Did she beat you savagely when you let one slip out of your too small hands?  Did she apologize?  Or did she curse you like a dog?  Invited you to not piss on her grave?  Did she murder her own father and never so much as blink?  Did she successfully hide her incest and pedophilia for eighty-seven years?

Are you afraid of a dead demon?  What kind of stupid are you?  So, you really don't trust Jesus, (HIS) Holy Spirit.  That is just something you say.  That's your cover.  Jesus was Mathy Jane's cover.  It only worked because we feared.  It is our fault because Jesus clearly told us not to.

"Come ye out from among them!"

"Got to give it up!"

Oh how I love this song.  We all are going to have to give it up one day.  We all have to leave here, none of us came to stay always.  How you live and the way you live are very important.  The evil doer may "enjoy" a long life of debauchery but she can't erase it.  She can not scrub my brain clean.  I know what I know and what i know is not good, it is abominable!  What I know could only come from demon possession, from practicing evil witchcraft, from refusing repentance in the last hour.

Please do not believe that myth about "death bed confessions", they do not exist.  People of low morals can not suddenly become moral, confess and apologize.  If they are like my mother they will curse you worse, call you more names, attempt to put more "hoodoo" on you.  Most of all that lying troll will remain the lying , murdering troll she always was.  If you are like me you will feel very foolish for wasting all your time.

Then one day you will realize that you did win, that you are a better person for your struggle.  You look back with pride, beaming, radiating over the evil she did not accomplish!  Praise the LORD!

Walk a little taller as you wink at GOD!

Nat King Cole, Unforgettable

My medical doctor brother was estranged from us for twenty-five years.  He did not quite get away, however.  Martha always knew his address, phone numbers.  She always knew where he worked, always harassed, stalked, called, and made him feel guilty.  Always sent strange "gifts" just to intimidate him, to keep him silent.

Our mother was bat shit crazy, crazy as a shit house rat, evil as a rattle snake.  She should have been.  Martha was much too fertile for an extremely promiscuous woman.  She found herself pregnant and without a man at least eleven times.  Yes, my mother could get a man but,  she could not keep one without the help of witchcraft.

Yes, my mother would fight.  I shall never forget, the incident is seared into my head.  That time she beat the skin off of her newly wed husband when he caught her fornicating in the front seat of his brand new car.

"Demon possession" should have been the first thing I thought of but , I was only four years old.

My mother always bragged about how unforgettable she was, like it was a gift, something to be proud of.  Dear LORD thank you! Thank you for delivering me!  Save all those that desire to be saved is my fervent prayer Amen!

"Be careful what you pray for."

It looks like Trump dumped all of ameriKKKa's skeletons out of the closet.  Please excuse me because I am thoroughly confused .  A man that began his political career vilifying  the POTUS for the color of his skin, an accident of birth,  ascends all the way to the White House and our white friends that abandoned us for their tribe are trying to calm me down.

No! I'm not trusting you muthfuckers another further (fuh-thu).  Here I am old as fucking dirt, head white as snow, still waiting my turn at fairness!

Fuck y'all! You muthafuckers told us to get an education!  Do you have any idea how many parities I missed, how many hours I actually studied, how many long boring books I read?  For what? For your scraps!  I don't think so.  This whole Trump election has caused me a great deal of consternation.  How in the world did a muthafucker this dumb ever become so rich?

This old fat dinosaur hasn't paid any taxes, probably ever!  Yet the muthfucking IRS snatched my whole muthafucking check and I had to beg like a fucking slave about to be sold at auction to get some of it back just to live on.

Fuck you ameriKKKa!   "Before I'll be your slave, before I'll be your bitch, I'll be dead and in my muthafucking grave!"

Hey it is not over Big Orange! GOD is righting every wrong, making every crooked way straight. Yes, it is in Divine Order and all your billions can't do shit about it.