John Lee Hooker - Ninety days

Yes, my birth mother was the type of woman that would lead you into captivity on purpose,  just to laugh in your face.  Just to keep you confused and broken hearted.  Always claiming it was your black skin that kept you down, not her lying treacherous, backstabbing ass.

Martha Jane Walters had the most hideous blood curdling laugh you ever heard.  If she ever tricked you just once,  she let you have it, mocking you.  Once you had cried sufficiently, she always took it back and labeled you crazy, a fool.

To think such an albatross, a mongrel monstrosity,  lived on this earth for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS! No, she could not be stopped.  Jesus predicted her and her kind have to be endured to the end.

I have to laugh because I know,  if no one else knows, how much my mother enjoyed being a whore.   I see why, she was good at it.  Men did lust after her white flesh.   Why? Ignorant! Demonic! Shit! Who knows?

It seems my five birth brothers remain in her dead clutches.  That is just sorry.  No excuse.

"Come ye out from among them."

See, what the problem is ...

too many people think they are "finer" than what they *is, think their pigmentation premium .  Way too many people think their "back lies" are true, or at least her victims better pretend they believe them.  NO one better ever act like her complete sick fantasy is far from the truth. (Your mother is a fucking lunatic , sick demonic whore that you will never have the courage to face.  Pray to out live her! ) Yes, the psycho whore MURDERED her own father but NO BODY better  ever open their damn mouth about it!  Do, and you will be hated, vilified, shunned, scorned, laughed at,  and abandoned.

That's right, so called Christians terrified into complete silence by a dead demon.

 Too many people think yelling, screaming, threatening, cutting the fool, crying hysterically, practicing WITCHCRAFT/PREACHING,  conniving and manipulating is the way to live.  Just lie and deny, keep moving.  Shuffle along, lockstep your way to hell.

I get it, I get it from the beginning and thoroughly understand what happened to us. A demon seed!  Who knew such a being possible? Jesus.  (HE) warned us.  We were the ones that refused to listen, to see, to incarcerate.  We sat up under her.  We got what we deserved.

Therefore a disproportionate number of people remain impoverished, broken, crippled, destroyed by their own families.

"If your right eye offend thee, pluck it out."

"Shun the very presence of evil."

"Come ye out from among them."

I did ask GOD ...

why my own birth mother had treated me so miserably for so long. Why the evil ignorant racist in this world conspired against me, why I never married well.  Why I make so many people uncomfortable.  Why I am an extremely extroverted introvert .

 (HE) told me not to worry, Mathy Jane was just doing the will of her father satan.  Yes, she always  pretended to  believe her dumb deplorable ass was winning.  She knew better.  She also knew she was one of satan's lowest whores.  Martha always felt like the maggot she was.  How could she not? A puppy smasher? A sadist? A deplorable? A pedophile? A "root worker" ? A woman so jealous she was jealous of her own shadow, her own father, her own children.

Parents if you ever have a child that delights in torture and murder of small animals; your child is a demon.  What do you do?  Do you do like the Walters family ; live in deep denial , praying, burning candles and incense? Beating a path to the church, just wearing the church house out? Reading?  Waiting on GOD?  Taking the pain, biting the bullet,  content to suffer because that is all you have ever done?

It is conditioning .  When a low whore has a baby, this is exactly what s/he will do.  And the victims will never tell because they will be treated worse than the evil doers.

"Know ye the truth and the TRUTH will set you Free!"

My own birth mother was a demon possessed FREAK!  A low fallen female maggot that had the unmitigated gall to hide in the CHURCH! 

GOD said No!  It is ALL in Divine Order!

"Come ye out from among them!"

Willie Nelson - Always On My Mind

Far too many people can relate to this song.  Praise the LORD!

The strategy satan gave my birth mother was perfect.  Be born beautiful, brilliant but,  extremely larcenous, envious, jealous, hateful, spiteful, belligerent, thick and full of pride.  Live your life your way by mowing over your loved ones like a Mac truck.  Be sneaky, a sniveling lying kleptomaniac thief with a trigger finger, an explosive temper that lives to play head games.

My medical doctor brother shunned us for twenty-five years.  Never hinted about the true cause of his glaring absence.  Of course I always thought it was because the ignorant slut shut his medical practice down.  Little did I know how truly deparaved that damn Mathy Jane was.

It is scary, absolutely terrifying and the bitch is dead.  Dead! Dead! Dead!  I am the only living blood relative of Jerome Walters willing to spill my guts on this whore.  Why?  Am I seeking revenge?  Am I flabbergasted? Or am I trilled and grateful to Almighty GOD that (HE) reveals  low men and women in (HIS) Book?

EVIL CAN'T WIN!!!

I am doing a dance, dancing all around my apartment.  "The wicked witch is Dead! The wicked witch is Dead!"  Praise the LORD!

Willie Nelson - Blue Eyes Crying In The Rain

No one could save my birth mother. It is as if she was born lost, blind, something full of abominable hate, carnal lust.  Yes, she was something wicked.  But, I survived! We survived! Praise the LORD!

I just want to put a headstone on my grandfather's grave.  It is only right.  He did so much for us.  He sacrificed for us.  He was murdered by his lunatic daughter for us.  He has never been morned or honored properly because of her.

I refuse to fear that slut! I will not honor her, cloak for her or live crucified and gutted like a fish for her.

People that hate me for refusing to honor her, to lie and cloak for her, to remain silent for her,  can kick rocks.

Crying is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of intelligence, of the anointing, of GOD's Grace.

So proud!

I'm so proud! I'm so proud of so many things.  Mostly, I'm proud of my grandfather, Jerome Walters.  I am in awe of such a strong, brilliant, upright man.  I am proud that he loved me.  Loved me sincerely, taught me well.  Stood in the Gap for me, for us.

"If it had not been for GOD on my side, where would I be?"  How many people know that some seriously wicked people are up preaching to them every Sunday?  Rather, how many truly care?  Most people are fake lock steppers, blind followers congratulating themselves for being pious perfect Christians.  While many claim to believe in GOD or a god, most don't.  Most people are of little faith.  That is why we suffer.  We read the Words, say the Words but, we don't mean the Words.  Money is the god of man.

Sure, I vowed to "honor and obey".  I didn't mean that shit for one second.  Truth be told, I was only marrying him because I was pregnant and in 1984 I could be fired.  No, I didn't marry intending to take the slightest hint of shit.  Little did I know this nigger would act the pure demonic fool.

"Good riddance to bad rubbish."    Do know my stupid ass, "root working" ass mother took credit for ruining my "marriage".  Bitch you did me a favor.  You probably saved me ten or twenty years of grief.  So, I thank you.

Sending me off to college with nothing was a brilliant strategy that back fired on you.  I remember thinking; "If my own mother will mistreat me, what will this world do to me?"  It was that fear, that thought , that made me hold on, study like a dog,  graduate on time with honors.

Children, if you are down, have been held down far too long, get up!  Spit satan in her nasty ass , whorish ass , eye!

The greatest irony of my situation; my "birth" mother did not tolerate anyone talking about her, remembering or ever bringing  up anything she ever did, period.  But, she lived to smear your name.  And if you weren't losing fast enough to suit her , she threw some of her "dust" on you.  GOD said No!

"Come ye out from among them."

Beaming! Lean and mean in '17!

Thank you Jesus! I'm blessed! Still in the land of the living and I'm due to be dead! I'm beaming! My head is held high.  My body is broken and bruised but , my head is held high.

An evil mother!?  Who knew? What made me think, ever believe her lies?  She was a pathological liar, so why did I hang on every word ?  Want, it was what I wanted, wished for, versus the truth.  Jesus told us to know our truth.

Not matter how hard your truth, bite the bullet, gnaw your own foot off.  'Get away from your people. Get thee into a far country.'

Evil is evil.  Evil is here and evil will vex us as long as we play nice, pretend to be unaware.  My mother always bragged about stabbing a woman for calling her a whore.  She was never arrested or anything.  White people didn't  even bother to stop "black on black" violence in the fifties.

So, my mother was a bully.  Yes,  she would lay hands on you! The only way to avoid a serious beating from that lunatic bitch was to keep your mouth tightly shut.

A Preacher! Mathy and the devil are still laughing.  Now here comes this trump.  So,  you racist can not get over your prejudice, envy, jealousy.  Neither could my mother.  Look what happened to that idiot.  Don't forget what we lost.  We lost sixty-five acres of prime farm land on I-95! We lost a rambling ranch home with no mortgage.  We lost a prestigious Tobacco allotment.  We lost vineyards , fruit trees,  a man made lake.  We lost our patriarch. We lost our way.  We lost hope.

I should not say we. I am finally "woke", finally coming out of my coma.  Finally taking the blinders off and I don't like what I see.

"Come ye out from among them."