Is "The Dream" dead or is this $#^+ a nightmare?

No hue-man is superior to any fellow hue-man. Hue , as in color. We all have some color, some think "too much", some "too little".

Our "color" does not, can not "color" our character.

What causes our "color" differences? Is it that old wives tale found in the scripture? Did one man create all the "races" ? Is one "color" cursed, doomed forever to be " hewers of wood,  drawers of water"?

Actually it is fate, a biological accident. If you have nothing to brag on, nothing to make you feel superior but , your skin color, you are pretty empty. You are already dead! Your fucking dead ass is doing nothing but rotting! Get your dumb ass out of a good person's way!

My dumb ass "mother" bought a new very expensive car every year just for the admiration she thought it bought her.

Dumb! Dumb! Dumb! I am so glad I am finally learning to love myself! To honor myself! I thank GOD but, I also take credit for the times I actually listened! Praise The LORD!

I'm glad my grandfather was far from being sexiest or "color struck".

Yes, Martha and her minions tried to destroy me but, there is one thing they forgot; The Holy Ghost strengthens me!



REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

There is no scheme ...

there is no magic "dust", no magic beans.

Poor Martha died an eighty-seven year old fake witch. Evil? Yes. Powerful? No. An opportunist? Yes.

No, I am not mad with Martha. I'm quite glad! "What if?" What if that "slut" had loved me? Shit! I'm corrupt enough.

Dear LORD thank You! My view of this world is horrid. My "mother" was Legion! That woman collected more demons than could be accounted for. (Shit! Most of them are still loose!)

She did reveal a lot of *fuckery by refusing to repent. Why? EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!  That is the equivalent to a fucking thousand! When? What the fuck were you waiting on? Did you believe your own lies? You couldn't have!

No one is that fucking stupid!

Wait! Not so fast. How long has "man" been evil? Deplorable? Remain alert! Pay attention! Live right! Live justly! Fairly! Live in love and harmony.

Love yourself! Love Peace! Love the Truth! Love Wisdom! Teach!

REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!'

When I Left Home

When I left home at eighteen , I left with no intentions of ever returning. I had promised the LORD if [HE] would "see me through", strengthen and enable me to survive Mathy Jane,  I promised to never come back.

  As it turns out, I lied to GOD! Not only did I go back, I went back waving my "de-gree". I went back pleading to be good enough, begging to be accepted, included in a "den of thieves."

The more I did to earn my "mother's" love, her admiration, the more she hated me.  For that I  truly thank her.

Man has us hating by color and country. Jesus told us our enemies shall be of our own household. Jesus did not lie!

REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

These lying hypocrites got my elavator running slow

 People always called or considered me to be "stand-off-ish". I have always been "friendly", let's say cordial to all. I am polite , courteous . Actually quite intelligent , feminine and motherly. I am an "authoritarian". I am a TEACHER ! I love to teach and I hate stupidity and pride.

I love the LORD! (I am NOT the LORD!) I am a SCHOLAR!  I love to study! I love to READ! I've always claimed my love for reading came from hiding out in the library, hiding from my "mother's" perverted husband.

Not so.  As my blinders slide slowly off, I am realizing,  the truth is, I would have spent hours in that Main Post Library daily without his lecherous black ass hiding out at 1C Rogers Street, Fort Bragg, North Carolina.

It is ALL In Divine Order. He was a pervert because he wanted to be a pervert! Sure, my "mother" was a good excuse. Look how "lucky" his black ass was; he found a "high yalla woman-wid-good-hair-that-pimped-out-her-own-children". 

How fortunate could any pervert be? Plus,  he could always blame his "race", his skin color. He could blame poverty, his lack of a formal education. Double plus, who cared? "They are BLACK! They are BASTARDS! THEY HAVE NO DAMN DADDY!"

Not so children! I had a "daddy". Sure, he was my granddaddy but,  he was such a good granddaddy, I really had no need for a "daddy". My grandfather taught me about the greatest DADDY  of ALL Daddies, The LORD Jesus Christ!   PRAISE THE LORD!

The Holy Spirit will NEVER leave You! The Holy Spirit will pull your coat, [IT] will alert you of imminent danger.

tRump!? &^@% tRump!

Relax! It is ALL Good!

REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!'

Going vegetarian!

My goal is vegan, raw foods.

I'm healing. Using aromatherapy and great music! Lots of prayer of course.

Drawing, painting, sculpting, writing, dancing.

Mainly BEAMING!

REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

There are some memories so great, so powerful ...

you will glow in the dark.

I'm proud! I did not trade my heroes for gold. When I feel down, defeated, I walk those tobacco fields that my grandaddy OWNED!  I run and catch a ride on the drag, dodge mule dewkey, pick cucumbers, sop molasses, "sweep-duh-flo".

Mainly I recall all of the good, sound advice he always gave me. He said the "white man" would never change.  That  he would skillfully;  "Just change hiz tactics."

"Debt ain't nutting but slavery, ... stay way from it.  Want sumpt'in , save yo' money, buy it cash."

"Pray fo'yo'enemies. GAWD will git'im! Jesus will fix it."

"Don't nevah let no sorry nigga mess ova'yo! Git you a good education! don't you nevah take no 'guff off nobody!"

"Keep yo'head up!  Well, do the best you can."

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Persevere , keep trusting, keep knowing, keep rejoicing!I have TENACITY! Well earned TENACITY!

I BEAM!

Thank you granddaddy! From the bottom of my heart, the top of my soul,  I still thank you. I THANK YOU, I THANK GOD, THE HOLY SPIRIT,  A THOUSAND TIMES A DAY!

I'm humbled! I'm dust! I'm like my LORD Jesus, crucified!

REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

This Too MUTHAFUCKER!

Seize the moment! "Strike  the iron while it is hot."

REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"