When did we know?

What did granddaddy know and when did he know it? Why was he always speaking in code? "When your head is in the lion's mouth, don't make any sudden moves?"   Was Martha supposed to be the lion? 

Bullshit! S/he was a wo/man, just a wo/man. True she was a liar and she was extremely cruel most of the time. But,  there were times she showed us kindness, ferocious as she pretended to be , she always knew better.  Yes, I did look forward to those days when she would behave, act 'normal", civilized, pretend to be kind, loving and nurturing.

Yes, she did promise to repent before she died. Of course she lied. Why were we always dumb enough to believe her? I think it is called hope. It is false faith. The Holy Spirit does not need to send satan to save you.

Of course that is one of the many lies my mother taught us. "The devil might have brought it but , GAWD sho'sent it."

Bullshit! Lying stanking whore! That wo/man should have been arrested for child abuse. She feed us "Grits and Grease" for months and "de-doubled-dog-dared" us EVA"  tell any muthafucking body.

Of course I went along with it. I thought we had died and gone to heaven. Lobster tails for lunch! Rib-eye steaks., shrimp, crab, ribs, rump roasts!   Everything was great until our "Meat man " went to jail.

He was a preacher, drove a Cadillac. used my mother's "gifts" of witchcraft for his own greed and pleasure.   "My LORD from Zion".

My mother sent me word via FB a few years before s/he passed. "What's been done can't be undone."

No, but you can apologize, repent, say excuse me, bitch!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

THE FALCONS - ''YOU'RE SO FINE'' (1959)

We are ALL fine! Don't miss your blessing pining over someone else's gifts. "What GOD has for you is for you."

One thing I know well; "The devil tempt, he no push."  My mother kept me in harms way, attempted in every conceivable way she could to destroy my life, our lives, for her entire long, extraordinary life.

No, she never won and she never knew consequences. S/he "knew" them, just refused to recognize them. Never recognized them because she had a good father that always came to her rescue. No matter how horrid, not only did Jerome Walters save his wayward daughter, he refused to "wash her face in it".

Well, did he refuse or was he just trying to keep the peace?  Bring up anything, bring up the slightest discretion ever made by Martha and prepare for WORLD WAR III. I can assure you, what ever your complaint was, your grievance, it was not worth Martha's wrath.

"Just git gone! Just stay the hell away from the bitch. Never be less than five hundred miles from her demonic reach. "Skin and gin", don't let on. LORD! When is this bitch gon'die!?"

The lying,  sick, demented whore died lying,  declaring that she had  won. Who the fuck is dumb enough to believe that lying slut? The same people that still love tRump. Hue-man pieces of shit.

I remember being hurt, devastated because my family chose Martha over me, chose a lie over the truth. Now I'm glad to know who is actually that stupid, that defeated, that lost. Stay the fuck away from me! You fucking idiot! You blind fucking sheep!

Do you think there is a god somewhere monitoring your conversation, giving you demerits for "cussing"? Well, your dumb ass deserves to suffer!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

I'm so proud- Curtis Mayfield and The Impressions

Mahalia Jackson- There is a Balm in Gilead

LORD thank You. Thank You for these safe five Mathy Jane free years. Thank You for sparing me from most of her many, many schemes, over and over for sixty-two years.

Dear LORD help me to warn this world of the sick, sadistic cretins that live among us, with us, just to torment us. Dear LORD help me  alert innocent naive parents to the very predators that lie in wait in their own families. MOTHERS! FATHERS! PASTORS!  All hold up in the "Church" just so they can molest, rape, rob and destroy freely.

Not once in fifty years did my mother's "Church" ever rat her out. Shit, "we the family" didn't rat that wretched murdering, "root working" slut out. Why? "When your head is in the lion's mouth, don't make any sudden moves."

That was the advice our grandfather gave me every time I tried to "rat my mother out'.

Dear LORD help me to remind all predators that it is never too late. Martha was eighty-seven years old. The low slut still had possession of all of her faculties! Was still up to mischief of the worse order!  Why? No desire to change! Why? The dumb slut bragged that she was "light bright and damn near white".  Did more evil to black people than any racist ever would or could. Fucking idiot!

No matter, evil can't win.

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Loving eyes can't see

For my entire life "we" laughed about Mathy's Revenge.  Piss my mother off if you wanted to , you were getting a "root"!

Set Mathy off by trying to have your way, by trying to live your life to the fullest. Dare control any aspect of your own life without Mathy's approval. Disaster. Do anything with her approval, with her cheering you on. Same thing, disaster.

The truth is; some people are just wicked. Disgusting! Good preaching does not and can not hide my mother's multiplicity of sins.

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Take your time!

I asked GOD why my hater never stopped stalking me.  [HE] said; "Because you never stopped winning."

"Everybody can't go where you are going. Few are worthy and very few wish to go."

One thing my "Mathy Jane Experence" has taught me; you do not want an instant spouse.  Do not grab the first thing that comes along because you are lonely, or tired of looking.  Take your time!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Ray Charles - (Night time Is) The Right Time

Granddaddy was such a staunch Christian he would not say the word "pregnant", chose the more polite term; "in family way."  I on the other hand chose my mother's rude coarseness; "Grandaddy! Family way! She PREGNANT!"[ I unleashed a powerful hate filled rant in my mind immediately;  (Shit! I don't get all this fucking politeness. Not only is the dumb 'hoe pregnant (AGAIN), she ain't fucking married! This ain't her first bastard! Niggers!) ]

Again, I keep coming back to  "Slave Christianity" maintaining the death  grip of white male supremacy over people of color. So be it. If my five fellow victims wish to take that slut's secrets to their graves because she programed them, so be it.

If a person would rather take their chances serving creatures life Martha and tRump, so be it.  I shall walk alone. No thanks! I hate evil, all evil.

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"