Wilson Pickett - Hey Jude (w/ Duane Allman)

Lean in;

I don't care what it looks like, how long you've suffered, GOD got this!

BEAM!  Go ahead and boast! All of OUR problems have been "pre-taken care of".  You see, it is ALL for seen, predicted, prophesied.

The evildoers shall RAGE! Viciously inflict excruciating pain , with rapid fire perfect accuracy,  for thousands of years.  All the while Screaming, Threatening, Blistering, Bursting with vile, evil , venom that they secretly, clandestinely claim to spew only on you.  Not true at all, every life they touch is made miserable!

COME INTO THEIR ARTIFICIAL WORLD OF MAKE BELIEVE! SHUT THE FUCK UP! DO AS THEY TELL YOU! SHUT THE FUCK UP! ACCEPT THEIR TOKEN GIFTS! SHUT THE FUCK UP! HAVE NO OPINION! HAVE NO DREAMS! HAVE NO AMBITION! COME INTO THEIR WROLD! SIT! ROT! BE THEIR FOOTSTOOL! SHUT THE FUCK UP!

Yes, prepare for the Dress Down! Prepare to get cussed, bludgeoned, called names, humiliated over and over. That is the price WE must pay when WE fall in love with a sick, secret, closeted, sadistic, psychotic NARCISSIST! 

(No matter, IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!)

"Endure to the end."  The evildoers must RAGE!  They must be Clamorous. Otherwise, with their deceit widely known, they will lose their "power".  Their "control".

Please exercise Extreme Caution as the Devour-ER overtakes US. Please don't cry, remain strong as you lose "loved ones".  The Faithless. Those so empty, they actually hate GOD.  They want GOD's gifts without obedience. They see no value in the Truth. They see no value in true Love.  They put all of their trust in wealth and in cunning.

Yes, Cunning, out lying , out manipulating, out yelling, out screeching, out hating, out humiliating, out terrorizing your loved ones, your friends, your family .

Why? What kind of person has to secretly, clandestinely, hurt those they "pretend" to love?  Why pretend? Is "Love" something so rare, so hard to find, it must be artificially manufactured?

I suppose so. I know I never found it. I did manage to marry. Very briefly , and to this day I HATE  the very marrow of his cowardly, fag-ee-dy, snieveling , whiny, tantrum-having, bottom-bitch ass, Pathological Lying bones.

 He is such a LIAR, you would want to  claw your own eyes out before deciding to waste another moment of your precious  life trying to share any part of this World with the likes of him.

At any rate, this "Life" is what it is. WE have no control, none. No one can stop a Pathological Liar from lying. No one can stop the Sun from shining or the Moon from going down.  "It is what it is".

I was birthed to a BEAST! A mongrel monstrosity. So? I survived and was made stronger. While most hue-mans are indeed predatory, some of US are prayer warriors.

Dear LORD, thank You for making Me a Prayer Warrior!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Tuesday, September 9, 20/20

Otis Redding-Pain in My Heart

Did you know "Pain" can be refreshing? I didn't either until it became a part of my daily diet for my entire long life.

Why is it refreshing? It causes me to think critically, to fall down on my knees in fervent prayer.  Not, just for Me,  or people just like me. But, for EVERYONE! I pray daily for EVERY PERSON IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

Not only do I fervently pray for  everyone in this World to have a better life, more fair opportunities , than I had. I pray for the innocent children. Children being deliberately abused, while none of US do anything but, stand around and watch.  Living in "denial" and "Hope".

Foolish hue-mans, ashamed  WE were shamed and reduced to dung by OUR caregivers. Or, fearful of the reactions from the Perfect-Good-Saved-Sacntified-Monied-Christians.

I do have to laugh. I hoped that faggot I felt forced to marry,  was not a faggot!  Talk about fucking "Denial". 

It is "Cool" GOD. I deserved that slap upside the head. Did I really think, ever believe,  I could "Un-Gay" a closet muthafucker,  that was a true, authentic , original Bottom Bitch? Jealous! Envious! Greedy! Selfish! Ignorant! Fearful! Terrified!  Fake! Phony! Dry! 

One thing I learned, MY VALUE!  Yes, I knew full well I had hit ROCK BOTTOM! A Pathological Liar! A broke sissy with a BAD ATTITUDE, LOW MORALS AND NO MONEY!

The bitch's tongue was tied when it came to compliments but insults just rolled smoothly off of his viperous, two-edged tongue.

DUMB!  There is absolute no excuse for any person to live in this World and spend their entire life shunning reading, acquiring real knowledge, then demanding to be respected for their sheer STUPIDITY! MIND NUMBING VACUOUSNESS. A serious lack of information. 

The best example of ; "A little learning is a dangerous thing."

Just know, ...anything You want from The HOLY SPIRIT, just ask.

BEAMING!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, September 8, 20/20

Amy Winehouse - Rehab (LYRICS ON SCREEN)

REJOICING! REJOICING! REJOICING!

BEAMING! BEAMING! BEAMING!

I SURVIVED EVERY SICK, MONGREL MONSTROSITY SENT TO THIS GOOD EARTH TO DESTROY ME!

sATAN IS RACIST!

sATAN IS A LIAR!

sATAN IS A CONJURER, TOO

ALL EVILDOERS ARE COLOR STRUCK LIARS!

BOASTFUL DEMONS!

SO!?

GOD RIGHTS EVERY WRONG!

NO LIE SHALL EVER MAGICALLY BECOME TRUE!

WE ALL HAVE FREE WILL!

STEP OUT ON FAITH!

REJOICE!

LIVELAUGHLOVE!

KNOW YOUR WORTH!

STOP LYING FOR LIARS!

CORRECT YOURSELF BEFORE YOU WRECK YOURSELF!

LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!

REJOICE! REJOICE! REJOICE!

BEAMING!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, September 8, 20/20

"I'd Rather Go Blind" - Gov't Mule (Etta James Cover)

Nice cover. Actually Awesome! I love it better than the original.  Life is funny like that. While I,  (WE) , would rather go blind,  than to see what a loved one was really deliberately hiding for far too long, it is never that easy.

WE hold Our heads up! Pretend to be stoic if WE catch them laughing at our gushing , hot, salty tears,  over and over.

Well, some things , some "hurt" , is meant to be excruciating, very much like  natural  child birth.  WE birth a child, lay down OUR lives, do everything to ensure that child has a better life than you had. But,....can that child ever really care? Can the child that has never known abuse, care about the abused?

Is sympathy and empathy learned? Can WE teach, actually teach Love and Compassion for OUR fellow man?

Sometimes, .... things don't work out the way WE planned. But , cheer up , because it is ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

DIVINE ORDER ,  does not necessarily mean all Green lights and Welcome signs for You. It can mean doors slammed closed in your face. It can mean ostracism and rejection. Yes, it means,  if you act like Jesus, expect to be treated like Jesus!

Expect to be Crucified! Hated! Lied on! Laughed at by your OWN family! 

Expect to be left, abandoned, "throwed away". Unwanted! Over hated! Rejected! Rebuked! The "Corner Stone" the Buildres, (your mother) , rejected! The person everyone in your family gladly rejects, rather than ever face that one true SUCCUBUS! That true Demon! That Whore! That Reprobate! That Cur! That Liar! Yes, d t, true twin!

Every loved one and friend walking out on you. It can mean loved ones pissing on you and making you call it fresh rain.  Then Laughing! Then winking! Then kicking and leaving you out, anyway!

No matter what, pray to endure to the end.

BEAMING!!!

Monday, September 7, 20/20

Stevie Ray Vaughan - Willie The Wimp

If I had to compare this song to anything in the "Black Experience" , this song is certainly "Neck Bones and Rice". It gets down to the "real nitty gritty" of OUR shitty lives.

To be Black in my amerikkka , is to be forced to suck the very marrow out of a pound of "naked bones", in search of "meat", nourishment, true substinance. 

Dear Children, in your desperate struggle to keep up with your white brethren , you shall be reduced to dung! You shall be Crucified! Hung high and stretched wide!.

You shall be blamed for all of the ills of this evil society. You shall be hated to the ends of the Earth until the end of the Earth!

My "Black Experience" meant I was glad to scrape that rice,  that stuck to the bottom of the "neck Bone" pot.  Especially , if I had "Red Rooster" hot sauce. and a small piece of "lite bread".

My "Black Experience" here in d t's amerikka includes the BEST FISH FRIES  ever held! The hottest Croaker fish, the Whitest "lite bread", the sweetest Tea or the Reddest Cool-Aide.

The coolest friends! The loosiest! The loudest! The drunkest! The funniest! The fat-est! The most talented! That One Group that oozed sincere love from every pore.

The loudest and longest party,  on the block. Family and friends tradition. Lots of sheer, unscripted Fun! Lots of innocent babies! Lots of grins, toothy, raggedy smiles, words of encouragement from "Elders".

A place where no one was ever glad to see another "brother or sister" fail. No "snitches". No "Plotters".  No "Coolers". No one with a gaundiced, jealous eye. No one spying, creeping, flexing, "stunting".

All thoughts pure. Everyone of "One True Mind"; Love.

Pray for that day Children. Live for that day. Do your part to make that day possible.

BEAMING!

Monday, September 7, 20/20

Look at al the people glad to divide over Biden and d t.  While their approach to "white supremacy" is widely different, both are indeed "white supremest". How can they not be? Both far too wealthy.  Both far too old.

The Truth is America, amerikkka, is rapidly declining. The very hope, the Dream of Democracy is DEAD! Dead, Dying, Diseased, Disabled!

No one can trust anyone! Mothers are against daughters, daughters against mothers, fathers against sons, sons against fathers. Liars against Liars! Liars against Truth Tellers!

BEAMING!!!

Monday, September 7, 20/20

Otis Redding LIVE - My Girl/Respect - '66 - HQ

Feeling Awesome!  Healing more and more each passing day,   from the buzzards; lying, envious, jealous, color struck cretins,  that held me captive for Sixty-two years!

LIVELAUGHLOVE Dear Children! The racists are RAGING! 

The Dumb DULLARDS are RAGING! Armed with "degrees" they never earned. IMMORAL  to the core! VICIOUS! VIOLENT! BACKBITING! UNTRUSTWORTHY! GREEDY! SELFISH! CRUEL! Hue-man beings that totally lack "natural affection".

A "Microwave Generation" that disposes of loyal, loving hue-man beings like yesterday's trash. It is just that easy. You are old! That is it for this generation.  What good are you?  Who cares about anything an old black "survivor" of white supremacy has to say?

Who ever cared anyway? Be born Black. Dare to have one drop of contaminated "Black/African" blood, in your body, just volunteer to die. Die immediately! Declare; "Kill Me Quick!"; loudly!

Yes, WE occupy a World where an orange maggot is beloved and worshipped and I am reduced to dung by my own family. For what? Daring to speak the Truth to "Power".

Let No One Define You! YOU,   Define You! You Do You!

YOU keep your head up!

"Resist the devil s/he will flee." Angry, mad, cussing, cursing, blaming, pointing fingers, taking no responsibility. 

Exercise extreme Caution; followers of d t, of satan , shall hate you! Shall lie on you.  Shall blame you. Shall relish, enjoy your salty tears.

No, they shall possess no memory of anything good you ever did for them. You are delightfully reduced to their dung, collateral damage.

You should not have been born Black, female, poor, illegitimate. Your mother should not have been a sick, demonic, racist, color struck,  common,  MURDERING, maggot/faggot whore!

"Don't you tell Nobody!" "Keep it to yourself!"

NoBody loves YOU!

You are UNLOVABLE!

YOU TALK TOO MUCH!

BEAMING ANY WAY!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, September 7, 20/20

Reverse the Cruse!

Rebuke satan! Rebuke ALL Liars! Rebuke ALL Fear mongers!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, September 7, 20/20

Otis Redding - These arms of mine - Lyrics

Make sure you get this "lesson", this "deep understanding" , as you make one more journey around the Sun; IF ONE LIE IS IN IT,  GOD IS NOT IN IT!

If one act of Treachery is in it, GOD is not there. "Cast your net..." elsewhere.

Why are you still so ignorant, so hard headed, so stiff neck, you are still pretending to be thick, obtuse, a FUCKING MIGRAINE HEADACHE? 

SHIT! sATAN IS A COMPLETE SADIST! SNEAKY LYING MUTHAFUCKER! 

They are SICK! SICK! SICK!  Shun them! RUN!  They are NOT going to change! They can't! It is NOT their fault. It is Spiritual! "Many are called, few are chosen."

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, September 7, 20/20