Never take GOD's blessings for granted

Look up sometime and thank GOD for His many blessings.  We are all created equal, equal in the eyes of the LORD.  He loves us all unconditionally.  But, we do not have the same gifts, talents or understanding.

If you are able to love, to love honestly and purely,  that truly is a gift from GOD. Cherish that gift and appreciate it.  Some people can not love or will not love.  There are people on this earth writhing with hatred and sick jealousy.  Pray for those people because they are miserable.

When you can't love GOD,  when you have no charity or human compassion you are living below GOD's standard.  When the best you can do is offer some artificial love.  When your love is all in your mouth, soft honey coated words that you don't mean.  When the best you can do is compliment and pretend, you need prayer.

I will not hate my mother because she lost her way.  I will not hide her and cloak for her as she insists.  She is a child locked in an elderly woman's body.  She would not listen.  I have watched her, observed her closely for sixty-one years.  I know she is miserable.  I am not fooled by her grandiose antics, her braggadocios behavior.

I know that my mother is still that little eight year old girl that was viciously raped.  Her life stopped there.  Frozen mentally, a frightened terrorized little girl doing what she thinks she must to survive.  She has no trust, another victim of very weak faith.

Because she is a little girl she wants everything she sees.  Still an immature infant she wants everything shiny and new.  She can't love, she can't trust.  A hardheaded injured miscreant she turned to witchcraft and her own devises to get what she wanted.  She is a sexual deviant.  Can that be blamed on the fact that she was horribly violated at such a young age? Perhaps.

Why can't she trust?  Why can't she love the LORD in spirit and in truth?  I don't know, but GOD knows.  I know she always hated me.  Hated me in her womb.  I have never known her to love anyone sincerely.  I know she knows better.  Her stealth "demonism" proves she knows better.

Some how Martha got it twisted.  Some how she became convinced that she could do the worse things imaginable and simply tell a grand lie or have a tremendous tantrum and that act would be erased, not counted against her.

I do believe that she thinks her "preaching" pleases GOD.  I am convinced that is why she became and ordained minister after she MURDERED her own father.   I know that we were terrorized , brutalized children.  I know that not one single day went by when she was not up to some sick scheme to make us hurt, to make us suffer.  I forgive her.  I pray for her.  I used to think that I suffered, that I lived in misery.  I now know that she suffered far more than I ever could.

Nothing, no event, no person has ever caused me to not love.  I have always been loving, kind and forgiving.
Being a loving kind person doesn't make you stupid or blind.  Martha was always frustrated with my ability to think for myself.  She did try to lure me into her sickness, her carnal "activities".  GOD blessed with the sense to know better.  I was three, four and five and the alarms went off in my head.  I am sure I escaped some of her worst deeds because she knew I would tell.

Plagued by her carnal demonic nature, "they" finally violated me when I was eight years old.  I wasn't that drunk Martha.  Your scheme failed.  What kept me silent so long?  Was it fear? shame? No, it was unbelief. To this day I can't believe a woman such as you can exist.

Most people still refuse to believe me.  Some like Martha can't care, can't love.  No, you have not murdered physically.  But have you murdered in your heart?  Have you hardened your heart?  Are you selfish and uncaring?  Are you going about your beautiful blessed life caring only for yourself and your immediate family?  What do you do for others, for GOD?  What are you doing to help the "helpless"?

 I know that many people refuse to believe that the Martha they know is anything but kind and loving.  I have no reason to lie.

It is with great pride and honor I proclaim my victory.  I am so proud and honored to know that GOD's Grace and Mercy have kept me, delivered me and given me a voice.

If you can love your fellow man for real,  if you can love GOD and serve Him in sincerity and truth, thank GOD.  What ever you do, have no fear of mortal man.  If a demon posing as your mother defiled you, ruined your life pretending to love you, call her out.  Do not suffer to protect an aberration that is unworthy of any kindness you can offer.

That horrible degrading act she lured you into was not your fault.  Trust GOD! He will never leave you or fail you.   I've told.  The world knows.  Wake up! You don't have to protect her.  She can't cast her guilt and shame on you.  Look at her and see her for what she is, a hideous monster, a MURDERER, a psychotic pedophile, a LIAR and a thief.

GOD promised me, He promised us ; "when your mother and father forsake you, I will take you up."  The LORD lifted me, took me up out of that sick misery.  Thank you LORD for your deliverance and tender mercies.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)